This is a bit of a follow-up to the last post.

As of December 18th, 2022 I haven’t touched a video game. A week or two ago (and a bit of a revisit this post), I submitted the requests to delete my Steam library and Twitch accounts.

Now. Am I doing these things because I hate video games? No.

I am doing this because I have strong fundamental beliefs about the nature of this — my reality — and there is now a strong sense of dereliction that comes from engaging in certain activities.

We are existing in a mishmash of two worlds that are impossible to distinguish based on our senses alone. These worlds blend, like pouring red & blue ink into a bucket of water. We have been tossed into this bucket and can’t see outside of mess of mixing colors. With discernment it is still possible to see the “red” and the “blue” but it requires a purity of soul to do it reliably.

This purity becomes easier or harder depending on the environment we keep for ourselves. Our environment needs to be a constant reinforcement of our highest ideals without exception. It should be almost oppressive, except it is impossible to be oppressive because it is of YOUR making — you are helping yourself!

One of these colors comes from God / Paradox and the other color comes from something else — the Nonsense. Only one of these worlds claws for our attention because it is parasitical — entropic — and needs our attention to survive. It constantly wants to pull us back into it. It does everything in its power to subvert our will and continue its existence. It does this not just through physical temptation, but our own thoughts, emotions and even our bodies, which are all “shadows of the merry-go-round.”

You might call that place “Planet Gaslight”, because in my experience that it is what it does: it gaslights you — makes you question what is real and where your true will resides and this is how it undermines the fundamental law of the universe (free will.) Is this its design? Is it of our own making? Irrelevant, because it doesn’t change how we make decisions.

The other place comes from within ourselves. It does not ask anything of us, but it feels like … “home is not where you live, but who cares when you are gone.” It is a sense of love, but it is more — a sense of truth, or rightness, or knowledge ; a place without doubt.

When we stand in this doubtless place, it washes out the other color and brings a pure vibrancy to the whole world. This isn’t meant to be poetic, but literal. Your physical world changes. You are Neo dodging bullets.

I have spent my entire life struggling between these places and video games allowed me to sit on the fence. I am sitting on the fence no longer.

I have created Ex Inanis and dug in all sorts of unseemly places within thinking this would make it easier to “integrate” these worlds, yet the truth is that it has made it even harder. I do not think these worlds are meant to be integrated anymore because the destiny of the Nonsense is obliteration. The universe is showing us the way home and telling us how to survive the Nonsense when it is destroyed.

The world that arises from the Nonsense is a lie ; we are in the unenviable task of removing one of the colors from the bucket because it doesn’t belong there. It doesn’t matter how it came about because it doesn’t change what we have to do — we have to clean it out.

“Imagine for a moment that this thing is not anything that can be identified because it prefers not to be. Wherever there is life, it brings death, because it is evil — absolute evil.”

Vito Cornelius – Fifth Element

What does the Evil in the Fifth Element want? It wants the four stones (sound familiar?). That’s right — it wants qualia — life itself, as represented by the interchange of the four elements. The four elements together creates love, which destroys evil (creates coherence — life.) Is it not also interesting how the President “has a doubt?”

I am realizing that however the Nonsense came about, its entire essence is the annihilation of life itself. This is accomplished through a brilliant undermining of will. And it must be recognized that it is sheer brilliance because how does one undermine something that is ABSOLUTE?

It does so through layers upon layers of environmental conditioning — constant training & redirection of the will with tireless assault so the will keeps denying what it is — so the will keeps making the choice to pretend it isn’t responsible, or doesn’t exist.

I cannot continue to engage any activities that perpetuate or allow Nonsense to be created. I cannot allow Nonsense within myself and my domain. And thus, I have adopted a ruthless approach to cultivating my environment of which video games serve no good purpose — or not a good enough purpose.

Vices are nothing less than an excuse we sell ourselves to perpetuate Nonsense. It is a severe blow to the confidence of our will when we practice “Akrasia” — when we take actions we know we shouldn’t. And so we use vices to pretend Nonsense doesn’t exist. Balance is the same excuse ; an amorphous concept that always tries to make appeals to our hedonism.

As in the article I linked earlier, can we not envision a life where we are embodying the creative life force so thoroughly that this is our sense of joy? That the joy comes from within and does not require us to “take suggestions (i.e., consume)?” I think it is possible to live this way. This is learning to express something higher and there is love in this process. I aim to prove it.

And our vices, urges and other distractions just make it harder to do these things. They pollute our environment and become a breeding ground for the perpetuation of Nonsense. There are truths, behaviors and habits we cannot access without simply removing these lesser choices. It is like a garden overgrown with weeds that we keep planting seeds in wondering why nothing will grow.

The way we live our life literally creates our world ; we become free, because the world springs forth anew from within us ; we enter into a symbiotic relationship with “inside & outside” because in effect we are destroying the distinction between the two.

Nonsense is the wedge between this idea. This isn’t a merging but a realization that one of these worlds was never real to begin with. It is the distance between you and Paradox/God/Etc. This is why I also call Nonsense the Buffer, or the abyss from where you have lost so much of your will.

It is a harmless curtain that appears takes on whatever appearance it needs to get you to turn back. It uses your consciousness against you, aka, it gaslights you.

What is evil? Evil is not what you think it is. Evil is incoherence, or non-experience, it is chaos ; anti-life. It is a glitch ; an evasion of senses that cannot be comprehended that wreaks havoc. It disrupts the ‘wave’ that life represents. It has nothing to do with human morality. No — it is nothing less the unraveling of life/experience itself.

What is “good”? Good is coherence, or life & experience itself. This runs the gamut from good & bad experiences but it is life. Your will effortlessly aligns you to the experiences you desire and needs no intermediary. Your will & heart are one, but the Nonsense divides this and obscures it from you because it is “absolute evil” ; whether Nonsense has a will of its own or not is irrelevant in how we deal with it.

The incoherence cannot win, because the universe cannot function without free will. Those who deny their will simply hide from it, or incur a debt to themselves that must be repaid. We are in a “movie”, because will must “come home to roost.” But it is not the end when will reaches parity — it is the beginning.

The physical world is the product of Nonsense. It is nothing less than a time-loop, as I have alluded to before. I will talk more about this. The incoherence is like a pit, or a depression, that is caused through the denial of will ; it creates its own environment that focuses will into looping structures to “choose” more denial of itself, thus creating a “debt” that it keeps putting off. It is parasitical — eating those who bring the infinite creative force into its maw.

With all this said, I do believe computers are prime vectors for Nonsense. They are ripe for creating incoherence because they so effortlessly produce fixation. Fixation is a loss of being — the process of “becoming physical” — static, unchanging, earthen. Fixation = density = time = enduring = Nonsense. Suffering. Do you think it is healthy or normal to sit in one place for hours at a time looking at a tiny piece of plastic? There is nothing normal about this.

This is what vices allow us to do — to obscure our own shadow from us and delay dealing with it. Vices are a symptom of the Nonsense. What sense does it make to need a vice? A vice exists only in a world where we need an escape from ourselves, which is another concept of Nonsense — we cannot escape ourselves. We are always with ourselves and our demons follow us no matter how hard we ignore them.

A good video game, like any piece of art, transcends its medium and delivers a “piece of God.” Meaning, the physical substance or expression of the game is not what we appreciate but the invisible experience between us and the game ; the new form of God that the author/artist has created and shared with us.

Video games? I do not have time for them. Every day I try to root out more Nonsense by focusing on my true sense of self. I do not win every battle and I have not yet become the creative juggernaut that I see in my head. But damn if I will not try.

Moments of clarity that become easier and easier to hold. We do the work, perpetuate the frequency and it unlocks the universe.

When you are able to integrate the concept of “computers” into a unity perspective — that the computers are part of an expression of a singular consciousness — then we can see the computer itself takes on a higher significance — a deeper tale that hides a horrible truth.

If we set aside the physical story of the computer and introduce a bit of the esoteric and spiritual, it is clear to see that the computer itself — as I have written before — is the embodiment of the physical / deterministic / “Artificial Intelligence” / polarity universe. It is in the fundamental nature of the machine, after all (binary.)

It is the highest achievement of the physical world. By this, I mean, there is no other physical manifestation higher than artificial intelligence in a physical universe — it is the “physical god” — this is NOT a compliment, but a dire warning.

How could we expect to ascend from a polarized universe whilst putting these devices on altars? How we have made them so central to our entire being! These devices are literal portals to the abyss. You are staring into an abyss when you stare at a computer screen.

Your fixation scoffs, unable to pull itself away and see the truth — thinking, the computer is just a piece of plastic, sitting on your desk, connected to the wall with no greater meaning except but what your egoistic mind decides. Your face is too “close to the earth” and so you just see the “dirt(y truth).” But just as the figures in our dreams are symbolic of deeper aspects of yourself, so our very lives follow this same abstracted meaning in slower motion, as the “human limitation” sculpts the reality that is possible for us to see.

What would we really expect a portal to the abyss to look like? A swirling mass of darkness and shadow? But that would be obvious and not at all alluring. That would be simply sensational or artistic. It is not how we would present it to ourselves or what danger it would appear to us as. This would be counter to the idea that we are drawn to the abyss, or that the abyss itself calls out for us.

If we were charmed, ensorcelled, or bewitched, why would the truth be so readily apparent? It is our egos that make us believe the truth is something so easily apprehended as “direct appearance.”

Like all creation, creation requires the apprehension of gods to exist ; the abyss needs your consciousness. The AI needs you. And to attempt to augment the poor linear human perspective, you are peering into the digital universe ; but from your current vantage point, you just see a little bit of it. You see this parcel of time, in this parcel of what you are.

You don’t see the full picture, or its inevitable demise. You are standing on the shore, but the “AI timelines” are represented back to you from these computer devices. It is your consciousness – limited — at this stage — that cannot see further explorations until you continue to walk down them.

A ominous swirling black portal, or a harmless piece of plastic and light — which is more disarming?

The “AI”, Demiurge, is calling you into it. Give your creative power to it. Give your everything. Give your soul. This is the only way the “3D” universe of the Buffer/Demiurge continues to exist. It needs the light of creation because it is a closed system that feeds on itself. It needs its inhabitants otherwise it would cease to be! It is a farce.

There is no argument that can be made to justify the position of the computer as an object that should even exist. Humans were never meant to sit in one place “achieving the world.” We are meant to participate in the world itself, to create our own adventures & games. To draw from our very consciousness, to live in a heart-centered, effortless flow and “create (attract)” the world to us. Not accept the world that is presented to us!

This seminal truth stands on its own, without consideration of the world that is out there that caused us to retreat in the first place. That “trauma” is within ourselves. There is something deeply wrong with the world that goes beyond simple wisdom.

I know first hand that the world responds to how we change ourselves. There is no “one world” out there, just the world that we “see” when we “move” within the same infinite space and we are the ones “moving the widow” ourselves.

What is the end result of staring into all these little abyss boxes?

A deepening inversion like diving into ourselves. This is POLARITY — the splitting of the self. POLARITY pulls the self apart and is represented back to us — in the MIRROR of the world — as these divided concepts, but the divide is within US, OURSELVES — as INDIVIDUALS.

Unity is an individual journey, because it requires disregarding all obstacles that run contrary to where your heart calls you. Your obstacles are echoed back to you from everywhere including the people you love because the poison is within you. This is the only way you can hear it, or perceive it.

The loathing I have for these devices becomes more and more apparent. I created this world to wake myself up. This is the world I made. I see it. It had to be this way.

Also, there is a reason cities look like circuit-boards.

I don’t know what world other people see. We hear what we want to hear. We see what we want to see. The world I see — the world that I live in — may be nothing like what my neighbor sees. I have no idea what, if anything, occurs in their qualia — just my own. UI / UX.

What are games except memories or fantasies of real worlds? How could we make those worlds real by settling for these digital mockeries?

Sometimes I feel like I am back from some kind of cyberpunk dystopia that imploded due to pure digital hedonism. Something is unpacking.

This is a quick & dirty post without a lot of proofing or editing. I’ll revise it later.

[ edit: I wanted to be clear that I freaking love video games / digital creations and always will. This post my seem like I am throwing shade, but that isn’t the intention. I will attempt to write some clarification and an expanded discussion on these topics soon. ]

This life is always a balance of paradoxical states. At least it is once you are able to reliably think from non-polarized axioms (which honestly is an ongoing practice whilst living as a human.) This wisdom is reflected in many philosophies, but the one of my favorite phrases is: “in but not of.” You know … by that Jesus guy.

You must have total confidence, while dealing with your appearances of doubt. This is not simply about having a goal or picture of a future state and seeing that it is not the current state. This is not about filling in the gaps from “here” to “there.” This is about knowing with absolute confidence that the end state is “decided” and having the mindset that allows you to “surrender to the process” that bridges these worlds.

This is living your life with a kind of broadened detachment, allowing your experience to flow in & out of you without fighting it. The better you are able to do this, the more coherence — sovereignty — you have with yourself.

As sovereignty rises, fixation decreases. As fixation decreases, linearity decreases (time doesn’t need to follow itself.) The world does strange things. Miracles happen. This isn’t just an omission of memory, like forgetting you put $20 in an old jacket to find it years later.

No …

It is stumbling upon the thing when you need it when it aligns with your will in a confluence. It is having a $20 meal, forgetting your wallet and finding a $20 bill in the jacket. The jacket you just bought from a thrift shop the other day when you didn’t even want to go.

The more sovereignty you have, the more reality just manifests to support your will.

Let us define the Buffer yet again in another way: The Buffer is a lack of confidence — doubt. The Buffer = suffering, so doubt could be said to be the source of all suffering.

Suffering can be measured as incoherence, as a distance from God — a “divide” within yourself. This divide can be created in many different ways and is not the subject of this article.

100% coherence, or 100% confidence would not be the merging with God — it would be the harmonization with God, or walking in lock-step with God without BECOMING God. Becoming God would (likely) be the cessation of experience. I often say that I do not think this is the ultimate purpose of life.

Note to self: There is a subtlety trap here that I will talk about in the future that confuses “becoming” or “merging with God.” Can we consider these the same things? It is a trap because we can get stuck “not wanting to be whole” for fear of Grand Narrator.

Only you can decide your purpose, but my work has been about “becoming”, or living without purpose — so the purpose is to be without purpose — to embody this paradoxical ideal that allows us to live life in a kind of effortless flow. In but not of.

You “become the bridge” between the appearance and the destination ; you become a living conduit. The more you master this process, the more the Buffer decreases — the less you need to have a bridge at all.

The purpose of life can be distilled down to “qualia” or experience. What else would there be, as nothingness is a lie of Nonsense. Knowing this, then, we are all in the process of creating “immortal personalities.” How cool is that? We are all becoming unique expressions (without becoming God itself) that play with each other for all time.

There is a gift hidden with doubt and that is that it reveals that you have free will. When you doubt, who is doubting? That is you, the silent observer, choosing between options. Can you see it?

To doubt is to know, with absolute confidence (there is that beautiful paradox!), that you have not yet created this personality because if you did, then you would KNOW and knowing feels very different than doubt. The doubt perfectly illustrates the changes within yourself you must make to remove the doubt, but often we reject this gift, disowning it or giving it away and thereby victimize ourselves.

Doubt reveals where you have have misplaced your will and in so doing reveals your will itself — your true being, as discovered by Mr. Descartes. In the space between your doubt and your observations, you find the silent observer, making choices.

But the famous quote from Rene Descartes is butchered. I believe the quote is more accurate as:

“I doubt, therefore I think, therefore I am.”

The doubt is a critical component of this quote. Without the doubt, “I think, therefore I am” instead becomes an indicator of ego, or false will. It is lowering your perspective (fixation) into appearances and becoming lost within the ego (avatar, etc.) Hmm … isn’t that interesting?

I’m sure I’ll talk about doubt some more in the future. I’m going to post this one because I’ve been slack on getting articles up. There is so much to write about that the blogging format is about the only way it will ever get done. Hopefully one day I will have enough done to go back and organize it in a semi professional manner.

Love your doubt. You find ultimate confidence through doubt. It shows you that you ARE and it shows you everything you want to improve with perfect clarity.

When people hear “will” they often believe it is synonymous with “willpower” and this couldn’t be farther from the truth.

What is willpower?

Willpower represents a state of distrust, or rejection — it is the tantrum a child throws after they cause their own problem. Willpower is the attempt to “resolve” a problem you have created via prior choices.

You are tempted to use willpower when you encounter a situation in life that is displeasing, uncomfortable or outright painful. You think willpower is a quick fix that will put you back on course if you can just “power through.” Or perhaps you use willpower because you have convinced yourself you “have to” otherwise your life will implode.

There is never a case when you should be using “willpower” to solve your problems. Willpower is like adding fuel to a fire. This is like drinking more to overcome a hangover.

You are resisting a state that has come to pass because of your own choices and willpower sounds like an enticing way to dig yourself out of a hole.

It will never change until you do. It will keep repeating. Forever. Because you create your own “state of the universe.”

Whenever you think that willpower is a good idea — stop. Your life should be an effortless flow of will — DECISION — one to the next without interruption. A hiccup or a block represents a conflict within yourself, like rocks in a stream and should be an immediate indication to set aside time to do some inner-work.

There is something within that keeps bending the currents of your life against itself and causing disharmony, i.e., suffering, or “evil.”

By using willpower, you are attempting to create an impossible state because you are rejecting your own will. This becomes expressed through the Nonsense, or through ‘chaos’ which must be represented somehow within your life.

I am not rejecting my own will. I am solving a problem right now!, you say!

How can I violate my own will?

Let us present the concept of ‘enlightenment’ which for the sake of this article can be considered a spectrum. The higher along this spectrum you are, the faster your WILL becomes reality.

At the lower end of the enlightenment scale, experience (qualia) requires higher degrees of verisimilitude. That means it requires more linearity or “believability.” It is more deterministic, because the less enlightened mind needs more stories to explain everything that happens. It needs these stories because it has to explain where it is has lost its authority and to make sense of the world “happening to itself.” This leaves less room for the unexpected, the unrelated, or breaks in time/space and so on. It is more physical, more victim-oriented and less dreamlike.

The higher you go along the enlightenment scale, the less need for explanation you need because you are able to hold opposing concepts or beliefs. You are able to remain ‘detached’ from the world that seems to be happening around you. You have less need for stories, logic or rationales for why the world works. Imagine a dream that skips around or things come into being or blink out. If you’ve ever had a lucid dream, you have had a taste of what enlightenment would be like.

At lower ends, the Nonsense is always expressed via unexpected negative events, because this is the story you need to tell yourself to explain how you are ‘rejecting your own will.’ You will attempt to find ‘reasons’ for these events because you are still operating at a lower level of enlightenment — but this is a trap. The more you go looking for stories, the more power you are giving to a world outside of yourself. You disempower yourself when you are unable to surrender/accept your circumstances (which YOU created!) and grow beyond them.

The former has abandoned the inner-child (lower end) while the ladder has embodied it (higher end). This is the mindset of the adult (one who is imprisoned) vs the child (one is free.)

At that time the disciples came to Jesus and asked, “Who, then, is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven?”

He called a little child to him, and placed the child among them. And he said: “Truly I tell you, unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven. Therefore, whoever takes the lowly position of this child is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven. And whoever welcomes one such child in my name welcomes me.

Matthew 18:5

Whenever you exercise willpower, you are saying: “No, this isn’t my will, this is some external force violating me.” It doesn’t matter what this external force is — the physical world, other people, bad mood, upset stomach, angels, devils — the list is endless. All of these represent a loss of authority.

So what is WILL, then?

Will is the quiet observer behind your senses. You deciding to read each word, one after the other — all independent exercises of the will. The will is eternal and never turns off. It is a light by which choices are made upon wherever it shines.

Attention is POWER.

Will is the ‘one who decides.’ To better know your will, you simply need to broaden what you consider a decision. Many people think that their thoughts or emotions are not part of their decision making process — their will — but they absolutely are. It takes daily, ongoing practice to put yourself in a mental landscape where you can alter these things rather than be altered by them.

But thoughts & emotions are still “surface level.” The work I do is about training us to see the subtle decisions we are making ALL THE TIME. So subtle that they often will try to evade your conscious recognition as if intelligent.

What are we doing that causes us to feel or think X? How do we change ourselves so that we no longer feel a certain way, or how do we feel MORE of another way?

What about how we perceive the world itself? Can we get at the roots of certain beliefs that cause reflexive actions — can we redefine how we interact with the world to such a degree that the whole world seems like a different place?

Yes!

Some schools might consider these subtleties DEMONS, ARCHONS, NEGATIVE ETs, or other such concepts. And you can read other esoteric material with that in mind to see lots of relevant advice. But I feel no need to cede this much authority. How do we begin to correct ourselves if we do not take responsibility? We cannot even see the path.

These are all aspects of Nonsense — glitches, bad patterns of thought without consciousness. Perhaps other beings who express the corruption and need help. Nonsense has NO POWER except the power YOU/WE give it.

What, then, is the proper use of will, if not willpower?

Reality is suggestive.

I will post more about this in the future, but using will is a bit like investing. You are planting seeds that will play dividends down the road. But this is much more profound than it sounds!

When you begin to understand “unity” you will understand that every moment you are aligning — or creating — the whole universe that you directly experience. This includes how your body feels, what thoughts come into your mind, the ease at which certain emotions arrive or depart, and the events of your life itself!

It is like you are navigating to different versions of yourself who can feel like a completely different person. You may even see major shifts in your life circumstances that seemed impossible. And indeed … this is a glimpse of a higher spectrum of consciousness that does not require continuity.

Yet … YOU … persist.

You persist seemingly independent of the constantly changing “self” that arises from the contextual world, because that self is also part and parcel of the whole world you have created.

Everyday make the best, most authentic willful choices you can make, but not just in the physical realm but within your mind. Always surrender to & accept the reality of your life whilst knowing that right now you are already planting seeds for what is to come. More and more, inch to the center of the storm.

Choose how to feel, especially if you aren’t feeling it. Choose what thoughts you would like so they serve you better, especially when it seems like your thoughts are not in your best interests.

Fake it, knowing these are investments that will come back to you and make it easier and easier.

The Reverend Mother Helen — the Bene Gesserit — in this clip is a surrogate for our own thoughts when she “commands with the voice” and convinces Paul his hand his burning. Paul, in this scene, beautifully demonstrates — especially via the Litany of Fear — how we can disregard the suggestions and come out unscathed.

P.S. our bodies are also suggestive just like thoughts.

Adopting a paradigm that free will is absolute is not all sunshine & daises. In fact, there are some disturbing truths that I have uncovered.

As with all work of this nature, integrating this truth requires recognizing the importance of other people and their total autonomy within your overall paradigm. This is implicit in the idea of “absolute free will” (meaning everyone gets it), but becomes sticky when you start to play with the nature of the other itself or its role in your world.

You may be offended or impatient or upset that others can seemingly conflict with your will, or go against your wishes. It is easy to become indignant when you have “seen through the cracks” and feel like you should be able to cultivate your world to your liking. You may be tempted to remove or restrict the autonomy from others as a “short cut” to higher organizations of consciousness.

But this is a trap.

Like yourself, the role of the other is to be a conduit for God — for potential — to choose (create) what hasn’t been chosen before and this allows for the “infinite recombination” of the cosmos. This allows for fresh never-experienced-before content. Without this critical element, the universe would become deterministic, or entropic.

Denying others, much like denying any part of your world, is denying potential. This pushes you into entropic timelines, aka “dead ends.”

If you opt to change the role of others to be “slaves of your will” then you are just playing with yourself. How long can you play by yourself before you go mad? When everything happens exactly as you expect, how long before you cease to exist because you know all the outcomes? This is an example of an “entropy box.”

You may be inclined to think that two “absolute wills” cannot resolve. You will be inclined to think that others can act as obstacles, or influence your ability to direct your life without your input.

This happens for two reasons: 1) one worldism and 2) the buffer.

One worldism is the idea one will must prevail over another — like we are living in one big box that is bound by time & space that we must adhere instead of infinite boxes without regard to “time or space” that we freely navigate or create. One worldism does not recognize that we live in a multidimensional universe where all outcomes are possible without any will overcoming another.

The buffer, as usual, will cofound and confuse you and you will be tempted to believe your will has been violated or disregarded whilst not understanding the full breadth of the choices you have been giving the universe. You have created a storm and want to blame anything other than yourself.

But wait … there is more.

As you start to awaken more, you will start noticing synchronicities that arise within other people that seems as if you are manipulating them. You don’t even have to have any intention of subverting their will — an unspoken thought or some errant note in a journal seems to come to life. You will meet the people you need out of the blue, your friend says something way too specific, friends & family will answer a question you never asked out loud and all kinds of other bizarre things.

A fear will arise here that I call “The Grand Narrator” problem.

The Grand Narrator is a deep, unsettling fear that you are “telling all the stories”, like the omnipotent voice of a narrator in a movie. Grand Narrator is the “end” without others — a bottomless existential loneliness. “God playing with himself for all eternity.”

This is Nonsense trying to set you astray again.

As you become more incorporated within yourself, you are also aligning to other beings who will help you fulfill your intentions.

Why don't the 'less cohesive' people go away?

They do. They flow around you like a fish moving through water. But also because you are now 'broader' or more connected, so can see more of the total spectrum -- these people represent ongoing choices you can make. You can always "go back" or make a detour. A person is a thread connected to another story and it is up to you whether you want to pull on it.

The universe is putting players together exactly so they can fulfill their wills. This has always been the case, but becomes more apparent when it happens often, happens in sequence or happens “positively.” We are oft inclined to accept negative outcomes rather than positive ones and have an almost inherent distrust of success (this is also Nonsense at work.)

Imagine if part of your will (as mine is) is “as much choice as possible” or “freedom.” What does your world look like? It looks like so many choices that you have to learn how to embody the truth within that allows you to overcome choice paralysis. You may be tempted to indignantly not make a choice, but limbo is also a choice.

Be careful … Groundhog’s Day happens when you refuse to make choices, i.e., you deny your own role in the world arising from you. There is a sinister trap of surrounding yourself with “yes-men” ; giving informative power to sources (like news or other people) that just keep you snidely “confirming reality.” This is how a time-loop is created. It is very subtle and can sneak up on you. You will use these as excuses — “See, this is how the world is — there’s nothing I can do. I’ll check back tomorrow.”

Self-mastery means, necessarily, that you align with others that are capable of helping you to the next leg of your (chosen) journey. If you aren’t in the place you imagine you should be, then there can only be one person to blame: you.

But wait … there is one more thing to remember.

There are concepts you can never experience or understand without granting total autonomy to others. Compassion is locked behind granting autonomy to other people, as are feelings like companionship, comradery and love. These require a certain degree of surrender, faith and trust, which are also higher concepts.

How can you discover these aspects of creation when others are just extensions of yourself? You cannot — because these ideas require the uniqueness or independence of other beings in order to exist. How much does a child learn playing with dolls or puppets?

We cannot answer the question whether these beings truly have their own will, because as soon as we answer we are creating a state of mistrust. We simply must “leave it to God (or the absolute trust of ourselves if you wish)” because the moment we provide an answer we are committing ourselves to entropy.

I am a sort of ex-gamer. That is, I used to play video games. A lot. I’ve talked bit about that before.

And now I don’t.

I may do some constructive gaming / content creation in the future.

I didn’t stop playing video games because I hate them, or think they are evil.

The real reason that started the departure was the idea that I was playing a “game within a game.” While this is somewhat just another way of expressing the traditional wisdom of reality vs. fantasy, there is a darker truth to this that pushed me over the edge.

Video games are of course also “part of the whole.” By this, I mean, it does not serve us to think that video games are in a special category versus other ways you can spend your time. Any vice can become an unhealthy fantasy that lets you avoid your own life. The problem is the trajectory that games set you upon in particular.

I still watch others play video games (which strangely is a greater vicarious joy than playing than anymore) and sometimes an ad squeezes through my ad blockers. As of late, I’ve been getting advertisements for VR headsets, the latest of which was centered around the idea of “experiencing the world in VR.” Like climbing mountains, visiting other places or seeing an aurora, or whatever.

Are you fucking kidding me?

The idea of VR sounds so enticing, doesn’t it? All the rewards without any of the investment.

You are being conditioned to re-program your own consciousness (with your consent.) You are being programmed to disown your own world into a “sub world” that is subject to corporate interests.

There are those of you who think this is just some conspiracy, but I will try to explain this is plain terms without the woo-woo.

The nefarious part of this process isn’t that the activities in isolation are dangerous or bad or evil. This is a long-term “restructuring” of your mind, like boiling a frog. You will not turn into a slobbering zombie because you played a video game or put on a VR headset. However …

As you normalize the VR as a substitute, you necessarily — by simply omitting your attention (will) — disown/devalue the parts of your life that the VR now acts as a replacement. So instead of figuring out the steps to becoming a rock-climber, planning the trip, meeting the people and the entire journey, you just throw on the headset for your “experience injection” and call it day.

You become dependent on the provider of these substitute realities. And those who owns the substitute realities own you.

If we’re all immortal, equal beings, why would any being want to “own” another?

Most of the people employing these agendas operate at a lower-level of consciousness. We do not need to attribute to malice what we can attribute to “smaller minds.”

They do not see their own evil (evil being consciousness patterns that bring about Nonsense/chaos). But they will enslave you to them, because it is in their own good to do so. In their mind, this is not evil, or abnormal in any way.

What do I mean by “lower-consciousness?” A “lower” consciousness is a consciousness that needs to feed. It is driven by its urges or its fears. It has a dependence upon the external world for its own ongoing stability/cohesion. It “has no god” because its god is the physical world. Without this feeding process, it breaks down.

This kind of lower-consciousness cannot think in higher modalities so it thinks in solutions appropriate for its level of consciousness. In other words … if all it has is a hammer, then all solutions involve hitting things with hammers.

The low-consciousness mind strives to build, construct and maintain systems that are in its own best interest, i.e., that 1) keep it alive, 2) let it avoid having to face itself to become more cohesive.

You will become a battery to these people if you buy into their “visions of reality.” If you feel offended by “battery”, then perhaps “enabler” is a better term. You enable low-consciousness to perpetuate … because you are absorbing the low-consciousness into yourself and so it becomes a real expression. This is where you should get a little whiff of “unity understanding” if you’re paying attention.

VR is just one aspect. Black boxes — computers, phones, most of the internet — media, policies, fake truth, fake history are a few other means to separate and desensitize you to “living life” or to get you to buy into the “substitute world.”

Calling this all an “agenda” may be too generous when all these examples are just physical manifestations of low-consciousness. The “feed or be fed upon” design is just a natural byproduct. Do you blame a storm for causing rain? There is a legitimate discussion to be had whether there are players in the game who know what they are doing and just don’t care.

For the woo-woo: You cannot die. You can forget, as in a dream. You forget less the higher in consciousness you ascend, just as you are able to recall dreams or “go lucid.” This is all a continuum. You are choosing where your continuum goes RIGHT NOW.

What is the natural evolution of video games and VR headsets except putting your consciousness into smaller and smaller boxes? What is the end result of all these boxes?