What does success look like? It looks like pain & persistence. Anyone who tells you otherwise is a liar.
What is pain?
Pain is the soul purifying itself. It is what it feels like when it identifies a distortion or imbalance within the soul. When there is incoherence or a lack of integrity, it produces pain. Pain can be physical or mental. Pain represents a blockage, or a stagnation, as this is what blocks will — the flow of life — and when it becomes severe enough, it will begin to produce distortions in your reality — not just your body, but your entire life, even including who is invited into your experience and how they treat you, for you cannot help but “hear” your own Nonsense (or “the devil.”)
It is not Nonsense jumping from person to person, but YOU who are hearing your own flaws through the voices and stories of others. YOU will create the perfect story every time because only YOU know yourself best.
What is critical to understand about all of reality is that everything is a mirror until you are able to actualize. Once actualization is done, you are able to distill your “ego” out of all perception. Combine this with the true understanding of Unity — which is that you are watching a kind of choose-your-own-adventure movie which encompasses the entire world of your experience both inside & out — this combination allows you to detach from the entire scene of the world.
Understanding any of this on an intellectual level is insufficient. It takes years of commitment to these ideas to “train” the soul. Lip service is not good enough. Belief cannot be faked. The soul is a student that requires your training. Your lucid awareness is how the soul is trained. Your lucid awareness is your apex absolute dominion and the world must obey. This training process is not done with simple apprehension, but applied practice.
Nothing is omitted from this practice. The soul is trained whether you are “still” or “in motion” because will/creation is an unstoppable light / force that cannot be turned off. You may only confuse yourself into thinking that it may be turned off and create an inverted experience of a “darkened light” which is a form of Nonsense. Darkness upon your will creates distortion. I have talked about distortion before.
The distortion will disrupt the entire fabric of your existence in sometimes unpredictable ways because we are masterful storytellers. Verisimilitude is your only savior here, as it gives you a “buffer” or room to deal with your will at a level you can handle. Without it, your life would resemble a jumbled dream of wonder & horror.
Without a total and complete understanding of yourself — again, actualization — you will be helpless to discern the source of these distortions. You will be enslaved to them whether you like it or not — and Others will also step in to fill this role of enslavement for you.
The world is ruthless about this. Utterly ruthless. It will trigger and bring forth anything causing you to victimize yourself even in the smallest degree until you stand in your power and authority.
Pain is attempting to show you what is blocked. Pain is the soul’s defense mechanism. It is the soul in a crisis mode. Pain is anything that creates stagnation whether it is physical or mental. Your life may simply represent a mundane human experience, but your soul has essentially willingly entered itself into Hell as rehab, because that is where purification is done. Hell is not “evil.” Hell is where souls are purified of distortion. You will be shown what you need to see to cease self-replicating your distortion through a reckless use of your will.
Do not seek pain, but embrace it when it arrives. Stand apart from it. And see it wash away out of you.
When you understand the excruciating effort that must be put into spiritual development, you must carefully consider who you bring with you in life, as they will influence everything about your world — even influence what thoughts or activities you gravitate towards even in absolute privacy. If you are uncertain in your actualization, or even in the middle of it, then these people can affect your health itself. There should be no doubt in your mind about your circle of friends & family. Red flags are warning signs from your intuition not to ignore.
There is plenty of cases to help those in pain or in need of advice or counseling. And some of the highest good we can do is to help them. But understand — deeply — we are our own teachers. Grace is allowing others the use of your alchemical services — sharing or taking the pain from others to give them space to see or find themselves (and also reveals things about you) — and the wisdom of your connection to God. This grace ends when your health or dreams are threatened — when you have given too much and abdicated yourself.
Anyone you bring into your world necessarily means bringing their stories with them. And if you have any level of intimacy with them, they can impact you whether physically present or not if you mistake their intentions or projections for your own. Decide if that is what you wish to deal with on a ongoing basis.
That’s right — you can be used as someone’s garbage dump even if they are not in your life. They need not even be doing it on purpose. This is why there is so much information about topics like “cord cutting” that is popular because the human collective as a whole is recognizing the immense harm some connections can cause.
Even non-adepts understand this and manage it in their own haphazard way when they fight or have arguments amongst themselves. Divorces, friends fighting, estranged family are all examples of the soul understanding unconsciously the source of its pain. Non-adepts react, or debase themselves, causing further “separation” for themselves and The Other — disjunction of Unity.
Adepts remain calm, offer grace and skillfully discern what they need for their soul’s development that is in alignment to both God and itself, which allows more Unity for all involved. “Co-creation” is achieved through actualization and emergent groups of sovereign individuals — not imposed by meddling with the scene or the “movie” we experience, but orienting ourselves to allow life to bloom on its own.
Everyone goes through “stages of grief” when they are going through challenges. It is not always your responsibility to rescue them. And in fact, rescuing them may in fact delay the lessons they need. That said, I am a strong advocate of heroism — if you have the capability, I find no fault in heroism. But be sure you are not trying to a rescue a drowing person who will take you with them if you can’t pull them up. You have to honestly assess your own capabilities which requires — what class? Actualization.
This will be a recurring topic going on in the future — we can deeply impact each other even when not present. I do not speak of this conventionally, like having feelings or making plans or dates with people — but in a way that can be extremely deceptive. You can sense other people’s feelings & intentions that can be mistaken as your own — and if you act upon them, they become your problems. This is how entanglement begins and how you can “transmute” someone else’s problems.
Vampires thrive on the small interstice found in this little secret because they can orient themselves to feed on this exchange and create a kind of artificial platform or ascension for themselves.
I will further describe this alchemical hijacking in future articles. To be clear, EVERYONE performs alchemy, because the natural process of the universe is change. We are all alchemizing all the time — converting one kind of energy into other, or clarifying intentions to be more crystalline. When you are advanced in the art, you can do it STANDING STILL without any external apparatus or ritual. Mere contemplation. And a ritual need not be chanting around a fire — it can be a jog in the neighborhood, or a relaxing bath.
Humans are actual masters of alchemy in many ways without giving it any special label. Most people understand it as just living a normal, functional and balanced life. However, this can become extremely difficult if you are surrounded by vampires.
Why is the story of the poor boy from a poor neighborhood who goes to achieve greatness always involve having to go through friends & family who want to keep him poor & in the neighborhood? Because it is describing an intrinsic process of actualization. Poorness is synonymous with coherence or integrity of paradigm and neighborhood is literally a group of souls, or a collective that form a gravitational force.
The friends & family are invitees who represent his own limitations that must be exceeded. But the only one he must compete with is himself and in fact, that is the only way to escape. Anything else mires him in endless conflict, like a Chinese finger trap, or being caught in a whirlpool.
As I have written before, vampires are people who understand this entanglement on an instinctual level — or are people who are having severe trouble with interface design — with creating their connection to God. They are like drug addicts who have become addicted to sources of light that are not their own.
This turns them into vampires, because without a connection to God, they instead must feed on The Other, or the physical world. Thus they become agents of the physical world and the physical world is within the dominion of the actualized — thus you willingly slave yourself to those who sit on their throne. It is no one’s fault but your own.
As much as I loathe to admit, suffering & pain become requirements when stagnation is severe as sometimes we cannot escape how we are misusing our will. If our will for change outweighs the blockage and yet there is no viable “out” — then pain & suffering become our sources of freedom.
“They know not what they do.”
The real trick is that there is no such thing as competition, or scarcity, because we are effectively living within our own domains at all times. The physical world hides the seams from you, but no one and no place is there without invitation.
We are fooling ourselves when we buy into suggestions that are not our own but the effects are very real. When people become “entangled” it is because two souls have seemingly parked themselves inside each other, creating confusion — and it is difficult to discern where one begins and the other ends. The realms influence each other with invisible hands. This can be a wonderful thing such as in the case of love, but is a horror between incompatible paradigms or divergent life destinies.
Sometimes lives become intertwined when they shouldn’t, or just go rotten. When souls are so entangled that they only cause each other suffering, there is no other choice to actualize. This allows the soul to master the art of ALCHEMY — which allows the souls to be distilled apart. This distillation can be what saves both or many souls, as this entanglement can involve groups. This need not be something to mourn. And in fact, it is a natural process that happens with or without esoteric knowledge.
Do not let your own compassion kill you because you are omitting yourself from its consideration. You are also part of the Unity.
Now back to the subject at hand — what does success look like? Success is highly personal. I cannot define it for you.
However, I can offer some tips.
Success is a sense of freedom or flow because this is the universe — God — working through you without resistance. It feels like a river flowing through you — because it is. It is coherence of paradigm. Integrity. Synthesis. Head & heart being aligned. It is the “Kundalini” going through you.
Have you ever had a Kundalini awakening? It feels like your entire body starts to vibrate. These things are real and they do not require external devices or substances to invoke.
There is no “one size fits all” interface to God because your expression is unique. In fact, you cannot even know whether someone else is having the same experience as you. If you know anything about computer design, then look up “user interface” or “user experience — UI/UX design. You have no way of knowing what someone has running on their “monitor.”
See my One Worldism article.
Do you feel threatened, inadequate, or unworthy? Often, these feelings can arise from being jealous or competitive. They arise from needing to be “somewhere else” or “in a state other than this one.” Aka, a rejection of the current state while not accepting it arises from you and follows you absolutely. There is no yesterday or tomorrow and you “wherever you go, there you are.” Rejection of this simple truth creates the friction that produces these negative feelings.
These feelings can also inspire feelings like you need to compete or prove something, but there is nothing to prove to anyone except yourself & God. And negative attitudes often leave your will exposed because they tend to make you reactionary. When you are reactionary, you are dumping this psychic garbage all over the collective and it will irritate anyone who encounters it.
And like I warned in the previous article, adepts will see you naked in the dream/ethereal/spirit realm. They will know when you are projecting onto them. I will talk more about “projection” in the future, but projections will always come from people close to you, because they have “intimacy” with you. Intimacy is effectively a scaling spectrum of security clearance. Those with no security clearance will never register on your sensors, or will be more background noise produced by the most immediate collective you are aligned.
Be careful about judging others for what they have achieved. The fruits that are had on the other side of this pain & persistence can paint a pretty picture for gawkers, but they are woefully unaware of the process occurring underneath the tree that produces the fruit — like roots buried in the ground. How deep do they go? If you are so curious as to attack the tree to take a look at the roots, then you commit the sin I spoke of in the last article — you bargain your soul against another. Be aware you can do this accidentally if you are projecting.
A billionaire might be an infant soul, while someone living in poverty may akin to a god. Is this a gamble you want to take? You cannot avoid your own work/interface design. You can only avoid it through denial which often takes the expression of hedonism and blaming others, or the world.
To be successful, you must be willing to endure all manner of pain, because if you are not already in a place where you consider yourself successful, then your soul is not in a state to produce this success. There is no yesterday or tomorrow. No time. Just the reality you are producing right now. So if it does not look like what you want — you have only yourself to blame.
And if you believe you can escape this pain through suicide, you are only partially right. Suicide is a strong intention that will create amnesia to veil your pain — or the incongruities or failures of your interface, faith or relationship to God — from you to integrate in a more tolerable process. But you will not cease to exist. You are already immortal. You will enter into another dream to start again. So you have two choices: deal with it, or reboot yourself, but no one will save you from this work.
When you understand limitations are eternal, else you would be God, then you also understand that at some point, you must decide which limitations you will live with and move forward with them, regardless of all obstacles. This is when you will be direly tested, because everything you seek to change will resist you. It is not evil that it resists — the resistance is how reality remains stable. Without resistance you exist in a sea of chaos. It is a “test” to see if you are serious — an requisite effort to move a boulder.
What few understand is that THE OTHER will also be part of this process. You will trigger Others, even REMOTELY — who will project their insecurities, problems, condemnations and judgements upon you, because wherever you are going is where they are NOT — and this creates irritation/friction upon their realms. You will even cause strange reconciliations or messages out of the blue from unheard people because these are people you have given credentials. It is not unlike kicking a hornet’s nest and is unavoidable. Or, at least, that is the perception to the un-actualized. In actuality, there is no friction, only its illusion & suggestion — but it nonetheless will feel real and visceral to you.
Informatively it makes no difference whether it is their fault (it isn’t) or your own (it is), because they are merely highlighting what you must change to get what you desire. What informs your behavior — what you must do — is exactly the same whether the Other is your tormentor, or yourself. It is pointless to blame or victimize them, as they are simply playing roles to teach you — you abdicate yourself if you project onto the Others, the world, or use any of it as an excuse to hide behind.
This isn’t to say that you will not have allies in this process because there are those who can make the move with you. And of course, new people will always arrive to fill in new roles along your journey. And the Unseen aspects of your own will — the divine — the unknown — ancestors — passed relatives or forgotten people in their own dreams veiled from yours — God — the world “outside” — are always with you. But careful discernment is required here because THE OTHER will always bring their baggage with them. Who are you making entanglements with? What level of “alchemy” do you want to deal with? Because once you have actualized, your entire life will be some level of constant alchemy to remain on your throne.
Before enlightenment, chop wood, carry water.
After enlightenment, chop wood, carry water.
Most humans developed routines, habits and other “daemons” to deal with this alchemy and there is nothing wrong with this. But you choose what to empower or shutdown.
n multitasking computer operating systems, a daemon (/ˈdiːmən/ or /ˈdeɪmən/)[1] is a computer program that runs as a background process, rather than being under the direct control of an interactive user.
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Daemon_(computing)
It is critical to understand that INTIMACY is a kind of SECURITY CREDENTIAL. This is why free sex is so damaging — it is like the President giving free access to the White House, the secret bunkers and the launch codes. You will create bonds with these people and will pick up on their feelings and so you are just burdening yourself with constant transmutation.
I will write more about this in the future, but sexual energy is the energy of creation. It is is the “closest” to assigning a description to raw will. Your sexual organs are direct “docks” into your soul. That is how they are represented in the “physical” world. It does not matter whether you are male or female, both are penetrated in the sexual act “behind the scene” and the intentions/worlds/energies mix — credentials are heightened between the souls. Masculine and feminine have nothing to do with your sexual organs, yet your gender is critically important to your development — your actualization and interface design to God. I will be addressing this controversial topic in future articles.
Incidentally, this is why free sex is pushed by those with a mind for domination, because it can dilute the energy of other souls so severely that they de-actualize and become agents of the physical world. And so, anyone with a mind for mischief can see how this may give power to someone — even if it is deluded and illusionary once you understand everyone is in their own realm. Regardless, the effects and trickery is real to anyone who acts upon them.
Your friends or even family are not always going to be able to follow you as you embark on a new path. There are no debts in this world as we all move in and out of entanglements which are their own paid service. You are mingling with other people’s intentions & energies all the time to “co-create” again and again for all time and so there are no “debts.” Your lessons are immediate and chosen from moment to moment. Existence is always balanced and paid in full. Debt is a kind of rationalized thievery of those who lack this understanding.
That’s enough for now. I have a slew of articles to write but alas, there is only so much time in the day.