From where does your light originate?
It originates from God and nowhere else. Each person is their own tree of life.
Suffering begins with this denial. Suffering is when branches reach into other trees thinking they must shelter them, or shelter themselves. Suffering begins when you seek out sources of light other than God’s, from which you are already rooted.
All have a connection to God that cannot be destroyed or removed, but can be self-obfuscated. It can be obfuscated by coveting the light of The Other ; it can also be obfuscated through the belief that The Other can obfuscate it.
All of reality could be said to be a scale of suffering, as perfection would be the only state where suffering does not exist. Perfection would be “all of creation”, “the known universe”, aka God. This is the eternal state machine that produces “Now” ; the eternal universe for which there is no end, no beginning — no time — just this moment from which you cultivate with your decisions.
All of your experience a product of this eternal state with you hold within. Your body, your thoughts, your feelings, your sensations, your definitions, your relationships, your meanings, space — whether the space of your mind, or the space between objects, or the space between the pain or pleasure in your body — your “Others.” All of it. It is not outside of you.
All things are possible and you exist now at the forefront of your collective choices. You can be nowhere else as there is nowhere else to be. You cannot “go” anywhere except where you are as you follow you. To misunderstand this is to open the door to physicality where you have displaced yourself into a “place.” You can feel this “divide” when you think you are “in” the movie instead of watching it. And watching = choosing. The next “frame” is not determined.
You have already arrived at your own perfection which is eternally imperfect.
You cannot be God. Whether you believe yourself a child or creation of God, a piece of God, or perhaps yourself God who has forgotten himself, this does not matter. To exist in a state of perfection is to exist in a state of oblivion and cannot be done and thus is no source of life anywhere.
To seek to become God, to seek God through others, or to make others worship you as a God is to create a counter to life — an anti-life. There is no such thing. There is only life. It is a denial of your unstoppable will — which is the life. These denials can only be represented through more elaborate depictions that turn upon you to control you — make you forget and cause more elaborate depictions of suffering.
You are everything and yet everything is itself. And if you meddle with this, you abdicate yourself. There are no opposites — just “things in themselves.” Paints for which you paint all of creation.
Nothing has a weight in of itself. All is weightless. Weight is imposed through expectation, or relationships ; meanings and connections. Weight is imperative to experience, but without first understanding where the weight originates, you can drown yourself by becoming too heavy.
There is no “unknown” universe except a willing acceptance to omit parts of creation from yourself. The more you pursue a path to remove mystery, the more ordered and determined you will arrange the universe. This is one path that can be chosen and it ends in death.
You can also choose to be so immersed in the flow of life that you abdicate your own existence in pursuit of whatever suggestion avoids your suffering. To follow this path is to allow in so much potential that the world gradually obfuscates and suffocates all sense of self until you are once again “one with God.” Aka — death.
What is death in this context? In this context, death is not the transition it is meant to be, but rather a loss of self or amnesia that is a requirement to actualization. I will talk more about this in future articles. Death is not inevitable because of entropy or disease, but because it represents a desired transition to your own ascension.
To transcend death is to walk neither of these paths (though both paths must be traveled) but walk upon a tight-rope between allowing and forbidding, between resisting and going with the flow — about being hot and cold, good and evil ; a willingness to have boundaries and forsake them as well ; to honor as well as betray yourself ; the synthesis of polarity into paradox ; into becoming raw potential from where you sit upon making decisions for all eternity.
This state requires the almost total removal of “ego” where upon all qualia is unified and there is “you” as just a detached world from where you observe and direct. If God is the container of everything, then you are a “moving lens” that creates a a dynamic evolving expression for God.
There are no wrong choices. You do not have to recognize your role as this lens. You can continue to be a Drunk Librarian. But the middle path — the Mirrored Path — is making the choices to bring you into alignment of this role. It is true service to God, and life which must include your own expression even when it causes conflict or destruction. Anything else creates an omission.
Suffering is simply the world outside of your boundaries, except it only becomes suffering when you choose to view it as such. You can choose to love potential, the unknown, the adventure — even pain. But pleasure neither can be your objective, else it becomes a new master.
The more you practice at authoring your own authority — the more masterful an alchemist you become. And an alchemist you must become, because your entire existence will be a continual process of imposing & removing weights — allowing things to grow and then reaping them — bringing the universe back into a “null state.” A Monument of Nothingness from where you reside.
Your “enemies” which you must be careful never to create are your own weights and hierarchies that you create simply by existing.
Your observational executorial creational power cannot help but impose weights and hierarchies upon wherever it gazes as this is the nature of creating something. To create something is to destroy something else — to occlude or omit it in order for it to be expressed. Should you ever become so enamored with your own creation, you will risk omitting yourself — exalting the creation above yourself — and thus “fall” once again onto the polarity paths (determinism, or chaos, positive or negative, angels or demons, etc … ) which lead to death.
Those who have not chosen the middle path are always in varying states of victimhood. They will all despise you in their own way for walking the middle path — except those also on the middle path — because you become a walking mirror to them. And indeed, you must be willing to be the mirror for them, else you agree to take part in their stories from which “you” will be swept away because they have no concept of “you.” How can “you” exist with others who cannot see themselves? If they cannot see themselves, they cannot see you.
As the one who stands in the mirror, you will always be on the receiving end of the projections from others. In you, they will see their true selves stripped of their own ego — where you are the distilling agent –the “differential.” You will embody the state which understands where its own ego resides, as you understand your true self and so can “distill” it from your perceptions and interactions from others.
You will become Harry Potter’s Mirror of Erised and when they look upon you, they will see their most ideal selves for that is how you see them. You will omit their ego for them. It will trigger them if they do not know how to omit their own ego — because unless they also walk the middle path, they will see what is and what is not — and they will blame you for it. They will want to break you — the mirror — because as long as they refuse to see the mirror, they may only see what they are not.
You must not step out of the mirror no matter how they rail against you — otherwise you have agreed to rail against the mirror also.
They will be as open books to you and you will always see the highest, most ideal outcome for every person you meet. You must not let yourself be confused by your own magic — the potential you see for them is not necessarily the same as the person they choose to embody. If you attempt to smash the ideal and the “real” together for another, you defile “being” in favor of becoming a tyrannical narrator.
There is a narrow space where you must sever your own desire to meddle with the affairs of others — to exalt their being no matter what it is — even with your own thoughts or “storywriting” because “they” can be influenced by your own contemplation and so you must zealously create a bulwark around your own will to protect them else you will receive “karma.”
You must not become the “Grand Narrator” of reality and this is only avoided by allowing others to write their own stories even if they displease you — even if they are against the highest version of themselves that you can plainly see. You cannot become trapped, tricked or drawn into thinking you can fix them, re-write them or “retcon” them, else you become an actor in their drama and subject to all the stories — their “karma” — they bring with them.
You must allow them to write any story they wish, including their own demise, else you begin to lose a sense of where “you” are and can no longer distill yourself out to avoid entanglement. In other words, you must be able to also recognize your own hubris — your own ego — and accept it, otherwise it will become a pied piper for you for which others cannot help but exploit.
If you omit “being” then you no longer value potential. You dedicate yourself to the gradual eradication of life as it comes under your tyranny. If you omit being, you are afraid of losing your own being even though this is impossible and so reality does its best to fulfill this insanity within your experience and this is achieved through deeper levels of fixation, confusion and mistaking yourself for the “movie.”
If you believe you need to compete, argue or even establish some kind of accord or understanding with the Other, you are in the process of abdicating your throne. To compete requires competitors. To argue requires something to argue about. What is argument but an assertion of your own truth over another’s — a condemnation? It is a fear of your own being from which you need to exert control to protect and so control is exerted back upon you instead.
You always invite the “other side” of the equation whilst you play the polarity game instead of the weightless game. Ego is that which seeks to preserve stagnation. Stagnation is control. They are synonymous.
“Change” or “movement” is synonymous with will or creation. Even the denial of this is simply an obfuscation of change — the “hiding of movement” which begins the inversion process of fixation/density. This causes the world to become oppressive and more physical — a hide and seek game.
To “need” another for anything turns them into an altar — a weight — for which you will serve.
Cooperating and creating with The Other is an organic, emergent property of your own sovereignty. Who belongs in your reality will already be there. This is not the denial of being in favor of your own desires, but being fearless in the recognition of your own “self” and knowing that you cannot omit “yourself” anymore than you can “omit” the Other without leading to death.
You will come to understand that life is not always equal, fair, or balanced. Sometimes you are the giver and sometimes you are the receiver, but you must never become the victim to this truth. You will understand that there are not always answers, or neat explanations. Sometimes what is rational is irrational. Sometimes there is an impetus and sometimes there is not. You must come to understand faith and surrender, which are concepts that require you to discard prerequisites.
It is not resistance that persists, but your rejection of total and absolute responsibility without any arbitrary delineation. The sun and stars themselves are your responsibility. Whatever conditions you decide to exempt including the fundamental mechanics of reality from responsibility will “persist” because you will continually recreate them as a fundamental unit of your qualia/experience.
The farther the Other appears to you, the less they belong there — the truth is self-evident within the “scene” of your qualia — yet they will exist at the edge of your consciousness until they do not — until they are veiled, or forgotten, like a passage in a dusty tome. All within your imagination is possible, including who appears there, all vying for your attention — hoping to gain enough traction to manifest into your visceral sense reality.
This does not make people unreal or figments of your imagination — though to the newly minted it may, because they likely still see the “one world” instead of the infinite multiverse. You must learn to trust the discussions or negotiations you have within yourself — within your own “mind space” — as potential portals or invitations. The mind space is just as real as cupboard in your kitchen. There is no physical distinction.
It is demons or daemons? Look it up.
The less you are able to distinguish what is yours, the more likely you may be negotiating with something that is “outside of your dominion” and wanting entry. You are already telepathic with the entire cosmos, but must accept that when thinking upon another, you are already beginning the process of an invitation or request.
And a warning to those who do not believe or understand this: those who are practiced can DETECT when you are thinking about them and what intentions you have for them. Even non-adepts have a sense of intuition and self-preservation well in advance. You will NEVER interact with someone who does not want you to be there. You can only violate yourself.
Accepting that you have a responsibility to all stories within yourself is a requirement for being. You have entrained yourself to think there is a line between your own mind and the physical world to this responsibility but there is not. There is no line. The Other is as real if they are standing with you in the room as if they are in your own mind. The physical world is itself the “lie” that begins the process of being denial and the source of much suffering.
You may omit being through the exaltation of the physical and thus omit this responsibility, as most humans do, but then the Other will seem unreal and artificial to you. They will gradually separate from you. And the world will depict this separation. They will eventually become oppressors and adversaries because without their own being, they are simply machinations of your own mind to be managed or feared.
The inclusion or omission of being is implicit, or derived from your own sovereignty, for who should & shouldn’t be within your reality ; it is self-emergent and does not need to be managed. The desire to meddle or manage it in-fact just empowers it, rather than allow it in or out.
Free will cannot be violated. You are your own victimizer. You may only invite others who wish to be your victim, or if you wish to become victim. If you want for neither, then this cannot happen. And God does not allow anyone to trap another or be subject to whims they have not chosen. Choice is not a singular moment but a continuum of cultivation.
What people understand as “dreams” is a loosened state of consciousness. This “spirit realm” or ethereal place is where we go to discard or adopt “timelines” — to deflect the haphazard intentions of the Other who have yet to define themselves — or invite the conscious and well-meaning intentions of the Other along the path of enlightenment — but our own continuum is never broken.
It is advisable you carefully assess what intentions you are projecting or holding for Others even as they reside quietly in your “mind.” This includes deception or manipulation of other people’s stories. In other words — judgements, evaluations, comparisons, or intentions whether well-meaning or not. What is well-meaning or a prayer to you may be abject horror to another. It is not your place to decide and you will reap what you sow.
Neither should you create enemies, adversaries or competitors because this is useless ; it is a symptom of one worldism or scarcity thinking that suffocates your potential. A lack of self or self-awareness can create devastating deception and terror.
Someone who is halfway actualized as a being will have a sense of others screwing with them and it will create ripples which create “karma” for you (for which can be experienced in any variety of ways required to transmute & integrate.) They do not need to comprehend this exchange consciously, but will react to it as part of the “physical world” for which they create for themselves. Only adepts will understand that there are nothing is outside of consciousness or intention from someone, somewhere, including yourself. No one chooses evil for themselves, because this represents Nonsense — attempting to turn God “off.”
To some extent this “mutual exploitation (or cooperation)” is unavoidable as we are all flawed and limited on purpose. We are “unified” yet we are still overlords of our own realm. It is up to us to create and enforce boundaries for everyone’s benefit because this protects life’s expressions. You can entrain yourself to never project. You can retain as much malice — or good will — as you wish as long as you do not project it.
Or, if you do decide to project it, the only way to do so while retaining being is to risk your own being. You must do so with the understanding you must accept the consequences of the exchange to remain on your throne because otherwise you cannot reap the rewards — anything else but the highest stakes will neuter them like playing with tokens instead of real money (except it is souls in this gamble.)
This is a very dangerous game — because you never know who may have a better — less obfuscated — connection to God than you. How else can you feel like a dominator, unless you know what it feels like to be dominated? If you lose, then you will be forced back into your own realm to recover. This can occur within the same life, or multiple lifetimes — how ever long it takes to integrate the lesson and “fix your interface.”
I will revisit this discussion in future articles but it bared mentioning as I come to a conclusion.
The more aware someone is of the unity of consciousness, they will dream about the people with intentions for them. Your spirit or dream self cannot lie and will betray what you think as your “physical” self. You are naked in the dream/spiritual/ethereal.
It bares repeating though that even if you allow yourself to become swayed by an invitation or suggestion that is undesirable to you — it is still your fault. Whether you give into good or evil, it is your responsibility. He who triggers first, loses.
Holding yourself or others to “past dreams” (and the “real world” is just a dream that is slowed down, so you must be able to apply your rules universally regardless of space, time, or dimension) is simply a perpetuation of a story that is either valued or not at your own skillful discretion. No one will save you if you begin to believe you cannot save yourself as that is the experience you will create.
No one and nothing is your savior besides God. Only God — life — universe — the infinite fabric of creation — is your savior and your willingness to work with it, or run from it. No one can escape the work to create a relationship with God. If you think you can coast on a house of cards, then a “sudden move is all it takes” — the first spinning plate to fall will shatter your reality.
Anger & resentment are where your ego hide ; this is what the boundaries of yourself feel like because you will always invite anger and resentment as you move your unique expression. It will irritate these boundaries and creation is messy.
I haven’t written in awhile and just wanted to throw some stuff out there. That will do for now. Out.