You’ve stumbled into the MASTERY section …
I have created this website primarily as a means to keep myself focused & motivated on elevating consciousness because our lives our ripe with distraction. While this website is often focused on the philosophical and esoteric, I also wanted a depository where I could share aspects of my life that others may find interesting.
This section represents years of self-reflection and contemplation.
I have an earnest hope that this work is of use to others and helps them in their spiritual & consciousness journey.
BE WARNED!
Ex Inanis outlines and discusses a personal paradigm that I have created for my own enlightenment. These are anecdotes of my own life. This material is for your reference -- not your worship. You should find your own connection to God / Creator / Universe.
What should you expect with this material?
Let us start with a crash course.
The highest truth of this work:
Free will is absolute.
Ex Inanis explores the proper understanding (and application) of this truth and its application in altering our lives. We explore how to create freedom & harmony within ourselves which becomes the ultimate conduit for expressing will.
Free will is not about brute force, or discipline. Free will is not about the denial of your reality, or overcoming through willpower. We work on deprogramming the inverted idea that “will has power” because will is always done — so needs no power! The idea of power creates the false idea that you need control or power over decisions you have already made.
Free will works in concert with concepts like: trust, acceptance, allowance, faith & surrender. This sounds contradictory because you don’t know how to trust yourself.
Absolute free will means your choices are always honored and free will — whether yours or someone else’s — is never violated. Let me repeat: will cannot be violated. This means you cannot go against your own will anymore than you can go against someone else’s will.
All outcomes align to their participants will, but the physical world is visceral and deceptive and makes this hard to accept. We have a deep-rooted instinct to blame the world, or others, or even the divine, when things go bad. Sometimes things go so bad that we can’t even comprehend that we chose it. But even when life is at it’s worst, it does us no good to disempower ourselves.
The work we do here is nothing less than self-mastery. We use this mastery to find our personal expression of life which leads us to love.
Ex Inanis asserts the world is a function of consciousness — God’s, ours, others — all of the above. It responds to and forms in adherence to conscious choices and exists at the behest of its creator’s. Miracles, magic, and other spooky things can & do happen.
The world often speaks to us, but we have to learn how to listen, which is both a skill and a state of being.
This not a polarized universe. Polarity is a lie. There are only decisions. There is a buffer to reality that obscures the choices you have made and we often disempower ourselves freely.
We will explore the nature of this buffer — which is rooted in a denial of our choices — and how to overcome it.
I have broken down the core principles of Ex Inanis into the Seven Truths.
I should take a moment to note: You should not become fixated on seven, five, or three, or any other number. These are convenient abstractions of higher truths that we utilize to keep our consciousness on the path we intend. We live in a world inundated by math, but math is a tool, not an altar. The foundation of the universe is will & consciousness, which are not governed by deterministic systems.
I call this work a love letter, because it is not meant to be a bible or a doctrine, but an expression & exploration of living truth.
The Divine Three (God)
This can best be understood as God, cosmos, “everything & nothing”, source, or the “purest concept” of consciousness. Use whatever term resonates with you.
Paradox (Potential) | Memory (Time) | Sovereignty (Love) |
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This is best understood as “potential.” It is a state of being that can be anything, waiting to be chosen. | This is the record of “all choices” ever made. Imagine this as every choice being made in a single moment (the “eternal now”) and the whole wide universe “updates.” Nothing is ever destroyed or forgotten. | This can be considered the synthesis of the Four Pillars. The better you master the Four Pillars, the more sovereignty you have. The more sovereignty you have, the greater “potential” you have and the more “love” or “flow” you will experience. |
The Four Pillars (“I” / Qualia)
The four pillars are directly concerned with your experience or qualia. Each one flows with the other dynamically and together they represent “you.” Imagine this is a surfboard that you are riding across the cosmos for all time.
Will | Wave | Context | Authenticity |
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While the will cannot exist in isolation, will is the “observer behind the senses” which can also be understood as the “decision maker.” | This is the record of “all your choices.” This is much bigger than your current life. This is the eternal continuum of your existence beyond life & death. | This is your perception of Paradox (God.) Your limitations are what create the apparent world and who appears there. | This is your connection to the divine. It is the fire inside that guides you to your next state of being. It is your inner-voice or “conscious.” The less connected you are, the more chaotic your life will seem. |
NONSENSE / NOTHING / INANE
(Anti-Life, The Demiurge, The Devil, Separation, The Rent, The Buffer)
This site is called "Ex Inanis", which in Latin would be "from nothing", "from empty" or "from inane." This might be considered the deliverance from the Nothing or the Nonsense, or "creating from nothing" or an aphorism for "being." In short, The Nonsense might be understood as "everywhere you have misplaced your will." The more you disown your own choices, which include not just physical actions but thoughts, emotions, how you react and even the unfolding of the physical world -- the more Nonsense you create.
Start your descent into madness by reading the blog.
The Mask of Money
Money is part of the scene.
What do I mean by the scene?
The scene is the moving frame of your unified life. And what is your unified life? What is UNITY?
UNITY, in this context, is the unification of all of your experience. This includes your five senses, your thoughts, your feelings, your emotions, definitions, meanings, memories, the ideas of others or others themselves, the world or universe or space that is unseen to you, your senses of intangible or “subtle” things like time, distance or movement, the relationships between all of these things — everything that occurs in your “qualia.” There are no exceptions.
You may have a problem understanding unity if you make arbitrary exceptions for tough concepts like people (“The Other”), or the agency these people possess, or their memories or their influence or impact on your life. Other tough ones can include nature itself and your bodily health.
Nothing can be exempted. Nothing. OK? Nothing. Not even nothing itself.
Money is not something you can pursue or acquire. You are not in the scene.
You cannot possess it, anymore than it can possess you. You cannot separate, or divide, something without fundamentally changing its nature which is always whole.
Should you dedicate yourself to the acquisition of money, you have fallen off of your throne in order to become part of your scene, rather than the director of that scene. I call this fixation and some beliefs call it density. Other philosophies may measure it in terms of wisdom or a scale of harmony or balance you hold within as you become more actualized and are able to distinguish where you truly reside.
Once you become part of the scene, then the scene becomes your director and you have lost your power. The harder you commit to being part of the scene, the more entangled and dependent you will become. This entanglement hides the path to your true self behind layers and layers of stories from which you cannot detach without causing more explorations of time and delays.
What is the shortest distance between two dots? There is a classic example where it is not in fact a line, but folding the paper so there is no more distance.
When you draw a line — linearity — a singular immutable world or timeline (no forgiveness, no hope) — you are creating weights and entanglements from which you become bound. Your scene is the paper and “you” are the one folding the paper, or drawing the line. It is your decision whether to think in linear, point to point terms, or multidimensional, non-spatial terms (forgiveness, hope, faith, surrender.)
When you are able to fold the paper, you are able to allow your mind to hold two places at once and remove “yourself” from the conditions on how to bridge these points. This allows you to become “multidimensional.” When you know your destination and surrender to the flow of the universe, you do not have to follow a single path, a single timeline or a single world.
It requires great confidence and faith to be able to allow the universe to show you the next step while feeling no need to control where it may appear and having no idea where it may take you and yet the more you practice it, the more you will see how miracles can and do happen.
The more you practice, the more reality moves an inch closer to something like a dream and your life shall be a battle of moving yourself an inch at a time towards this dreamlike state (which is often described as high vibration, or low density, or higher dimensional.)
Once you have seen these things and experienced them for yourself, there is no way of going back to the old, linear way of being, much like being unable to forget how to ride a bike. Your soul intrinsically changes at a fundamental level.
So why is money such a wrench in the proverbial system?
Because money attempts to create a surrogate concept, vessel or “hijack” for what is effectively love, willpower, or the volitional force or momentum of consciousness itself. Money provides a fake apparatus or overlay on top of this intrinsic attribute of life, experience and reality in attempt to create a dominion over it, or mistakenly believe it can create a bypass to consequences.
It is understandable to want to build your life around money, because fundamentally your soul desires love — it desires willful command over its reality — and you want to use this power to create a dream life for yourself. And you want to do so in a way that is the most immediate, least painful and expeditious way you can manage. Money seems like the answer, right?
Fundamentally your soul knows, even if your waking consciousness does not (your ego, or scene/contextual-self), that it is the primal, foundational force of the cosmos. The true you which is the ultimate observer with supreme executive power is the one that creates all of reality. Only your ego, or “scene mind” — your contextual self — makes the mistake (or hurbris) of thinking that money is equivalent to this awesome infinite and omnipotent creation power.
Money becomes a “backdoor” into your own willpower that you can exploit upon yourself, or allow others to exploit you, as money, like all things, is part of the unified scene — so the true purpose of the concept of money is not, in fact, what you understand as currency, or cash, or buying power, but as an concept that is meant to create a substitute for your own will that can be “hooked into” like a credit card skimmer.
If you believe your true power should serve at the behest of money, beware, your wish will be granted. Creation itself is subservient to your actual omnipotent will — so to covet money is to place it above your own will (which is of course your free will decision to experience) which implies of course that your will is put underneath money and so money becomes more powerful than creation itself!
A clever trick, yes?
Money is inherently the ego’s desire — whether yours or the Other’s — to exert control over its own will that it already possesses (like asking a genie for a wish who is really just a middleman robbing you.) And via this sleight of hand, it creates a point of fixation that causes what we spoke about before — an abdication — a decision to draw a line rather than fold the paper.
The amount of money you possess tends to be either be a function of your fixation, or a function of your sovereignty.
You can be extremely rich and yet be totally bereft over all sovereignty of your own soul, because your fixation is so entangled that your contextual-self — the dream, life or qualia you experience — is an extension of the stories it requires to continue to make that richness believable and maintainable — like having having to take a bunch of prerequisite courses before getting to the class you actually want.
You might imagine a CEO who is so burdened by responsibilities, or so lost in hedonistic pursuits attempting to scratch long blown out and overloaded desires that they have become empty and produce no more novel experiences for themselves. For them, reality does not support them. Their support has to be constantly taken (like a vampire) or reinforced like a chore ; something decaying and waiting to fall apart or entropic.
“Cause you’re the son of a clerk and I’m not supposed to want to be you.”
Fernando Mondego in The Count of Monte CristoYou can be extremely poor and yet have godlike sovereignty, because you understand that you are not “in” the scene and so nothing and no one — whether it is yourself, the Other, or any aspect of the scene and not even the threat of pain or death itself — may influence your ability to make decisions or remain situated on your “throne.”
You might imagine someone living in the wilderness without a penny, yet be totally harmonious with the flow of life. Their life is always novel and adventurous and so their inner-state is always fulfilled and overflowing. For them, reality seems to always support them with invisible hands like they are being cradled by the universe.
You can also be poor and still have poor sovereignty, or be rich and still retain your sovereignty. I leave it to your imagination on what these lives look like — it remains that money is a function of the scene you — the real you — have chosen and are choosing to render.
You are omnipotent in this ability to render your life — to choose the ingredients you put into your cauldron of life — but you cannot escape the consequences of your own omnipotence — the pot you have brewed so far — so you have a “shadow” or “buffer” that follows you around for which you must resolve. This is not karma, but simply the consequences of your own will that follow you without relent.
As the old adage goes, you cannot take it with you when you die …
You can never “take” the dream with you, including all the material possessions you accumulate. All you can take with you — is you. The real you that is beyond the contents of your dream, beyond time and space. And if you have done nothing to cultivate what you are — if everything you have is merely a byproduct of a dream that will someday end — then what are you but a dream to be forgotten?
The dream arises from within you — always. It will always do so and you will always be there at the top of it for all of eternity. You should take great care of what you decide to carry in your backpack.
And so to dedicate oneself to the pursuit of money implicitly boils down to a dedication to hedonism, as it is fundamentally a mistake of understanding where your true power lies. To believe in the “power” of money is simply believing in the power of your own desires to fulfill over your own will or power and so your desires become altars for which you WILL serve.
Your desires and pleasures will become your masters until your will is no longer yours, but a function of whatever or whomever can fulfill these desires for you — even existential desires for your starving soul for which you will seek teachers and saviors. And you will obey, because you are immortal and even if you have to suffer or die to reconcile with yourself (as in checking!), your will is always done. Reincarnation occurs when you give up all hope of creating balance.
And so, I say, money is part of the scene to make you understand that if you wish to be rich, you must be rich within. To be rich within is to follow the calling that is given to you by God, universe or your soul, no matter how hard or how far it may seem to you for nothing else — and I do mean nothing else — will ever fulfill you, but will instead only gradually drain you until you remember just how powerful you are.
You are so powerful that you can render yourself powerless to experience what it is like to have no power.
And so who is the best master but God, the universe or life itself? Then and only then can you never lose your power for you serve creation itself.
What is your calling? Well, of course, that is for you to decide.
This article is not about identifying what drives you. Passion and purpose are age old questions and they are not static, but changing, dynamic and — importantly — forever, because you are an immortal being that is always pursuing this never-ending calling.
That is why life is so beautiful, because it is a story that is always new, novel and eternal. A never-ending story …
How, then, should you think about money? You should not. Money is part of the scene, so you will always have what belongs there and you always belong where you are.
You should be focused on how to become the highest, best expression of yourself at all times and trust that the universe will catch you as you endlessly fall or fly. You should look to exalt life and seek out new and novel experiences and to become the master of either creating or finding these experiences.
You should trust that the universe will lay the bricks beneath your feet to make it happen, whether you decide to sell it all and travel across the world with nothing but a backpack or whether you become an entrepreneur and risk it all to create something no one has ever seen before. As long as you do it with just a little bit of exuberance and faith, the universe will always have your back.
I leave it to you.
Leaving this here in case someone needs it.
* Squeak *
Identities & Gender Warfare
Alright, I am going to attempt to make a dent in this topic.
Imagine you are carrying a backpack. This backpack contains everything you need in order to live (have an experience — qualia.) You can only hold so much inside of it (buffer.) If you put too much inside of it, it weighs you down (makes you feel burdened) and slows down your experience. It reduces how far you can travel and makes it more burdensome to get there.
If you keep your backpack light, you have a spring in your step and you can get to where you want to go quicker. It is also easier for you to see where you going, or reach places that you give you good vantage points.
“Where you want to go” are your intentions (destination) and will.
The world within which you are traveling can be considered to be your soul — a library of all of your eternal experiences — plus the souls (and their libraries) of all other co-creators, that are offering you “suggestions” on how to add, remove or use resources from your backpack.
Let us imagine two different travelers.
One traveler fills their backpack with goods they have purchased from town. All the best and finest adventuring gear. The finest rations. There is no scenario that this traveler is unprepared to deal with. Their backpack is heavy and overburdened, but they are “ready for anything!”
The other traveler purchases some essentials, but plans to forage or live off the land — to hunt — in other words — this traveler intends to fill their backpack with what they find along the way.
Let us consider the fundamental intentions hidden underneath both of these travelers.
The first traveler though well-meaning is carrying a backpack full of fear & dependencies. He does not trust himself to forage, or hunt, but relies on the goods and products of others. And he feels so unprepared for the journey ahead, he feels the need to fill his backpack up with every possible tool he might need. He does not trust himself to create what he needs, or has no faith in his skill or intellect to find solutions to his problems.
The second traveler is full of love & freedom, because he has to travel with a great deal of confidence in his ability to acquire what he needs, despite all unknowns that he may face. He has little dependence on others, so does not become trapped or stuck if those resources are not available to him.
As both of these travelers embark, their experiences will be remarkably different. These hidden dispositions form the fundamental basis of the reality each traveler will produce as they move forward.
While the first traveler may have initial advantages, he is playing a short-game. He is gambling that there will always be the resources needed from others to forge ahead — that he will have the resources or the towns to restock. He never bothers to build a relationship to himself — to discover his limits, his fears, his motivations, or to celebrate triumphs or see how he handles the grief of his losses.
And while the second traveler may have a harder time to start, he is learning skills that make him less dependent on not just others, but from the burdens of his own limitations. He is gaining a closer relationship to himself, his soul and the souls of others and to the natural world /universe / life (God.) He is expanding both his intimacy and vulnerability which requires them to be exposed and challenged on the regular, which are strengths, not weaknesses.
Now, how does this all relate to identities & gender?
In this example, we are imagining travelers who are putting things like rations, water, ropes, pots & pans and other things in their backpacks — but the truth is that you are also putting in beliefs of about yourself, meanings, definitions, the relationships between things — the subtle — and more. The ladder of these “weigh nothing.” You can put in as much of the subtle as you wish, as long as it makes sense to you and is well-organized.
Those who understand that this is not a physical world, but a spiritual one, thus have a vested interest in obtaining as much as the ladder (the spiritual “stuff”) as possible, because it allows them more leeway, more latitude, faster movement and more range.
Those who have not yet dedicated themselves to a spiritual pursuit will find it difficult to believe how reality will begin to support and embrace you like a hidden lover because they are still mired in the back and forth ping-pong game “dualism” of the physical world where it seems like they have total dependence. They do not understand miracles are real, that timeline jumps are real, that reality can bend and contort just like a dream.
The first traveler sees the world as something to conquer or fear, the second traveler sees the world through the lens of excitement and wonderment.
When you understand that you are an immortal being, you quickly come to understand that you want to expend every waking moment honing, refining and finding the truth about yourself because this is what you will carry with you forever from life to life until you start to break through the “continuum” threshold where you have gained enough knowledge and wisdom to become an undying eternal traveler.
You reader have likely already lived hundreds of lives. In a strictly conventional sense, this is evidenced in your DNA which contains a glimpse of your ancestors before you, which really are variants of yourself.
The gender — and by that I mean the genitalia that you possess at this time — is a function of your destiny or fate. As described in this article — that is the “thrust” or “force” (pun not intended) of the totality of your soul, not an overriding of your free will but more like you are caught in the current of a river that you can never escape but can still paddle. It is the burden of your askashic totality — your library — that you must learn how to organize and navigate without becoming addled, confused or drunk.
You have “chosen” this gender from before you have incarnated not as a singular, discrete decision but an umbrella of life choices prior to your birth.
However, this may not mean what you think it means.
Masculine and feminine are not genitalia but are descriptions of energetic or intentional qualities inherent to the fabric of creation.
Masculine qualities tend to be more aggressive, active, controlling, constructive and boundary denying. This correlates with its physical representation which is phallic.
Feminine qualities tend to be more docile, peaceful, receptive, withering and boundary affirming. This correlates with its physical representation which is yonic.
In “higher realms”, these attributes are disposable. That is, you are not the avatar — you are the player. “In but not of” as a popular figure would say. You can play a female or male character, or anything in between, as you desire.
Earth is not (yet) a higher realm. OK? We’re here to change that.
Well, some of us are, I am beginning to suspect. The humans needed a little help.
You (and I) have not achieved a level of mastery where you can consider yourself as “playing a game.” You are in a spiritual war defining the essence of your soul right now and this will continue for as long as it takes before you “actualize” or “graduate.” You might call that ascension, or enlightenment, or salvation — it is all the same — and described by spiritualists, religion and philosophers for thousands of years.
Your graduation is the threshold I mentioned above with the travelers — where you become so light that you “pop above” the noise and are able to retain your continuum.
There is much controversy around sexual and gender issues in the world because most people do not understand the reasons they have incarnated on Earth.
You will have to learn where you fall on this spectrum, but the following is the truth as I understand it and this may trigger some folks. So content warning.
If you feel as if you possess more masculine qualities, you are here to learn to embody more feminine qualities — if you feel as if you possess more feminine qualities, you are here to learn to embody more masculine qualities. You can be a man and possess more feminine attributes (as I do), or be a woman and possess more masculine attributes. You can also be a man who is manly, or a woman who is feminine — and the truth still stands. You are here to learn to find a balance between the two.
This is the same challenge of self-actualization that mankind has faced for all time and gender issues are not specific to its requirements. All philosophy deals with the balance and synthesis of the consciousness which includes concepts that can be described as masculine or feminine. It is just another part of the dualism game that we want to escape (into non-polarity, or in this context, “non-binary“.)
I will not go over all the words out there or talk about pronouns and other nuance because I wish to keep this more in broad strokes.
The term queer for example, can represent a consciousness that is liberating itself from the idea that it is “in” the world because it recognizes that it is not its sex. It is something much more than the body it inhabits.
Nonetheless, rejection of our sex can represent a reactionary response and thus an abdication or loss of will. The trick is to both understand we are not our own sex, yet exalt the bodies (love!) we find ourselves within. The body knows when you love it and when you hate it and will react accordingly (cause distortion), which will be the subject of health topics in the future.
Look up Masaru Emoto’s experiments on water and intentions we speak upon it. The variety of sexual orientations also are symptomatic of consciousness in general beginning to incorporate higher levels of intimacy with the self and with others as society begins to tolerate less fear/toxicity and embody more love or tolerance. We might even call that “being civilized.”
The explosion of discussion about gender, sexuality and sexual expression is not society falling into debauchery and chaos so much as it is the cyclical nature of the Earth game that is for the purpose of ascension. We are witnessing each person’s unique journey as they thrive, or succumb, to the pressure of the “game.” As levels of synthesis rise, different expressions integrate in different ways. This is can be beautiful and terrifying and everything inbetween.
Dysphoria is the symptom — the FEELING — of you needing to integrate whatever “opposing” qualities you do not possess. If you are REACTIVE about this, you are in what I call abdication, or are leaking or losing sovereignty. You experience the dysphoria when you are DENYING the qualities that your soul wants to integrate and are being impressed upon you from your environment/world which results in confusion, discomfort and “dysphoric” state.
Imagine you prefer roles where you play as a man. Imagine the universe calls you up for a role as a woman and you agree. You get on stage (you incarnate, or are born), but can’t remember accepting the casting call at all (amnesia, which we have talked about in other articles and is an important concept here.) But instead of becoming the best actor of your role, you spend a lot of time trying to return to what is familiar (your preference as a man.) You are stuck in existentialism. This is what causes dysphoria.
Your job is to remember the call from the universe and be the best damn actor you can be, because it shows the universe you are ready to accept more roles of any gender or non-gender in more realms. If you break down into existentialism whenever you incarnate, you will continue to have the the dualism game — man/woman — good/evil — binary — imposed on you. Aka, density or fixation or lower realms, aka, the universe will not give you a more versatile job until you demonstrate better levels of mastery.
None of us are alone in the collective pressures that are exerted upon all life on Earth and you are under constant energetic bombardment from yourself, from others, from the “astrological” — to learn lessons — to ascend. You can consider Earth like a pressure cooker that ramps up as you become more advanced. It will push you more and more to integrate, balance and synthesize as an actualized individual — including how you feel about your own sex — until you figure it out or die.
Integration itself is difficult enough, but even more difficult when we are at odds with our own gender. This conflict likely arises more in older souls because of the higher level of challenge it represents and because it will push you to higher levels of expression (less density/fixation.) For example, I have not realized until recent years just how many of my own struggles were deeply sexual in nature because of my unique life circumstances and unique childhood traumas that obscured clarity of the problem from me as something other than what it was. So I spent a long time spinning my wheels on unrelated issues.
In fact, I spent about 20 years figuring it out, bouncing from one philosophy, and life mistake after another until my Year of Hell.
I see that there is an excruciating amount of judgement, condemnation from all sides in the political world and why I so often stay as far away as possible from the fighting. I do believe I am being called to change this position, so I am starting to address some of these controversial topics that I know I will need to answer.
We are collectively witnessing consciousness ascending in action even when it is ugly and brutal.
If all of this spiritual work was easy, you would already be in HEAVEN, or some appropriately customized higher realm of your choosing. As a unique expression of life, no one is capable of doing this integration process for you because the backpack you carry is totally unique to you & your journey. As I described in Success & Pain, overcoming boundaries always involves overcoming discomfort of some kind.
We are all being taught how we are not our genders — not to forcibly change it but to release it altogether — which allows you to enjoy it for what it is to its fullest potential no matter what you choose to embody, or find yourself within when life is given to you.
Let us remind ourselves of UNITY again.
UNITY is the unification of all five senses, your imagination “space”, your thinking “space”, your relationships to yourself, to words, to definitions, all the things themselves, Others — it is the ALL OF YOUR EXPERIENCE including the whole wide world (or your perception of it) whether it is in the 20 feet around you, or beyond the edges of the horizon.
To use myself as an example, I am a man who was born with extremely feminine qualities. I was bullied severely in school. I also had something happen to me that further distorted my sexual nature (which I am not quite prepared to share on this blog) that I did not discover until recent years.
I have had a long, arduous journey of learning to become more active, assertive and confident despite strongly wanting to remain as I always was. Despite lacking the tools of a man inherently because I was more disposed to feminine qualities, I was still expected to perform more as a man because that was outward appearance and the body I found myself within.
Life is hard enough when we are not at war with ourselves within. It is excruciating when there is an internal battle going on in our head that no one can see that we are judged about all the time that seems to have little cultural recognition. And those judgements are never about the actual battle we are having upstairs which we can never quite convey or express because it seems to us as such an inexplicable mismatch of demands internal (our minds) & external (our bodies.)
There is never enough time when dealing with others while also dealing with the responsibilities of life, but the judgements from others that we become subject to as our own conflict causes us problems in our lives exacerbates and misplaces the actual problem (which is actualization) causing even more frustration and confusion which causes us to want to run, break down, or lash out at others.
I am guilty of being more reactionary than in sovereignty too. But as harsh as it sounds, we do this to ourselves on purpose. Whether you decide to believe this is malicious, or as a byproduct of the raising of consciousness is your decision.
You will invite others to “wound” and “victimize” you until you stop it and stand up for yourself. This does not mean hurting or judging others, or yourself by denying or destroying the reality around you (that I want to remind you comes from within). Being unbalanced within means your life will be unbalanced without. This is just the nature of how reality works, because you are a god-creator and must learn to control what you put out into the world.
The primary danger that I have observed is, like most humans, we can become preoccupied with labels, or the “outer world” and become reactive about. When this happens, we have allowed the external world dominion over ourselves and conflict is the domain of Nonsense. Conflict, of course, being the favorite tool of those with a nefarious mind. It is this small place of fixation/focus (conflict) that can be used to distract, divide, and conquer (more separation, descension into lower realms.)
Many folks run from these introspective challenges rather than do the painful shadow work — and there are also forces upon the Earth who are preying upon this struggle in actualization, which causes further problems. As I mentioned, I have had direct contact with some of these darker elements as a child, causing traumas that I have only recently begun to understand.
All of my friends also had these problems too. Almost every one of them was sexually abused in some fashion — attesting to the rampant problems affecting kids and early development. I did not understand how deeply it affected them, just as it had affected me, until much later.
What “agenda” could sexual identities have?
Identity might be considered the contents of your backpack, because it is what allows you have an experience — to continue living. That which controls this identity, controls your backpack and thus controls you.
The more associated you become with the contents of your backpack — the more dependent you are, or the less you are able to change the contents of that backpack or rely on the natural world (God/life/Source/etc.) — the more you are a pawn on someone else’s board.
You may begin to understand how these topics are intrinsically intertwined with trafficking and child abuse and how someone with a mind could suppress actualization as a means of wielding power.
Remember the first traveler above? Imagine his backpack is full of brand products, designer clothes, he is dependent on half a dozen prescriptions. His pots and pans don’t last, he has to buy new clothes and shoes all the time because he can’t sew and so on — he becomes a slave to the world/his own soul. Imagine how “heavy” he is.
As a reminder, as you become more fixated or “dense”, it will become harder for you to maintain your awareness, or memory (there is that darn amnesia and whole “life purpose” thing again). Your backpack is becoming heavy and weighing you down. This will also begin to limit your range of emotions, feelings or even your able to perceive or think. Reaching or seeing beyond distant horizons becomes much harder to do and the world will seem smaller and you will be “convinced” it resembles a prison, even if the bars are made of paper.
Imagine how someone with an evil mind might use this knowledge to keep you dull and without your memories.
If you are very enamored with the problem of your gender / gender identity for example, you are enmeshed in a conflict that increases your fixation/density because much to the opposite of your intention to liberate yourself by affirming the gender you “feel” — you have actually chained yourself to an identity (your gender!)
By ASSERTING rather than RELEASING your gender altogether, you have INCREASED YOUR GRIP (no pun intended again!) — increased fear — increased fixation/density. You have added MORE WEIGHT to the backpack than take it out. This causes more dualism and more separation. Ironic, isn’t it? And devilish. It is by design to teach you where “you” truly reside, which is not “in the game” at all.
You can believe all this is nefarious, like those Prison Planet people, but you are always better off believing in positive intentions rather than negative ones — in my humble opinion. You empower yourself when you think you are learning and growing rather than being victimized and trapped.
Keeping you in conflict serves the agenda of the physical world and those with a vested interest in dominating or controlling the physical world.
However, if you are able to exalt or become comfortable with whatever body you find yourself in, in whatever world, or whatever dream you wind up in, whether you are a man, woman, goblin, dragon — you are becoming more like the player of a video game, who is free from all attachment to its character. This creates a lightness of being just like playing a game and it is precisely this lightness that brings you to greater planes of experience and greater freedom.
The other day, I was told that lottery machines now require identity checks in order to buy tickets (for readers in the United States). This is a great example of how there are forces at work attempting to gradually boil society like a frog by getting them to buy into deeper and deeper levels of “identities” that are outside of your control and in someone else’s control.
This is also example of how the system is dying, because it is becoming less able to give out “free manifestation” without taxation (why do you think they want your identity? hint, it involves the month of April) as a means of enticement/enslavement to it, like the pheromones of a fly trap.
He who controls the “identities” controls the souls. But if your identity is not within the world at all, then who controls you? No one but you and God.
Your driver’s license and birth certificate are other examples of seemingly external forces wanting to impose an identity upon you that can be indirectly used like a proxy to control you. But it isn’t outside of you and it can’t control you. It is a clever illusion. You are the one who decides.
Credit scores are another example. A way to rate or judge how well you integrate into “the system.” A barometer for the “elite” to assess the worthiness of renting out your own power back to you.
Watch the Golden Web which you can find in my Reference section.
For Dungeons & Dragons enthusiasts, imagine you had to consult with the Wizards of the Coast Identity Bureau for approval whenever you generated a new character before you could play (live!) it. That is the “goal” of having you so fixated on fighting over your masculine & feminine qualities that you are happily to declare it on legal documents and ritualistically (which programs you) reinforce it everyday through the use of cards and other devices to gradually draw you deeper into the system. You will literally fight (conflict) to hold onto the identities that are “groomed” into you which do not free you, but further imprison you — because you are the creator of this dream, dear reader.
You do not need labels or pronouns to be free. You are beyond these labels, even as they assist you in your journey to becoming more than what you appear to be.
Pronouns for example can cause conflict not just with others who don’t understand the problem but within yourself. As the pronouns challenge conventional norms, the challenge becomes a place of contention or conflict that is often exploited. Your unconscious, or spirit (visible on the 4D plane in dreams, btw), may also become conflicted or confused if it becomes too mired in this disjunction between bodily appearances, conventional expectations and your own internal needs to assert what you know about yourself. Your job is to find a congruence between all three of these aspects that causes no conflict whatsoever.
Controversy is just another means by which we show ourselves what we need to see in order to gain a new perspective on how to achieve harmony and congruence.
As always, though, triggering and reacting are always signs that you are abdicating your throne and giving your power away, no matter what words you use to describe yourself. All sides of the political spectrum are furiously triggering each other and this is pleasing to those in power and intended. Giving your power away is precisely what vampires, narcissists, and anyone with a mind for domination desires the most.
A trick to identifying your ego is that it wants to remain “linear” and hates change. So always be careful about becoming too complacent.
This article is long enough, I think, so to conclude …
I do not consider myself a “man” — I am the player behind the scene — though I take it as a unique challenge to embody the highest concepts of what it means to be a man and experience life as a man because it was what was given to me by God / life / Source / universe — and that is a wonderful thing. Gratitude. Shouldn’t we be excited at the idea of being able to experience different things rather than becoming despondent, or despair over what is — at this time — out of our control?
Be patient with each other, folks … I know I have not always been. There is room for both liberal and conservative and everything inbetween.
Don’t be afraid to take the space you need. The world is built to deny you this space — which disrupts both your ability to actualize and manifest (achieve goals/dreams) — at every turn through every day demands and how society is structured — paychecks, 9-5s, debt, credit cards, and more. Take your space even if you you know other people might not understand or you have to be really rude about it.
What is the collective stage of the world right now?
The world right now is learning a dire lesson in boundaries not as a means of tyranny or suppression but because some level of boundaries are required in order for life to express & exist and these boundaries have been abused both in global and individual levels.
A reminder that your own life is a microcosm for the macrocosm of the entire world. The whole world will reflect the same issues you struggle with inside, except “dispersed” and in billions of different expressions. It is your choice to embody more love or conflict/fear and it will be shown back to you.
Your job right now is to examine what boundaries you value and to find the courage and strength to stand up for them. Some people might not like this but that is the nature of boundaries. You may find — in time — that as you assert your boundaries, those who were once upset or irritated come to respect or appreciate having their own boundaries revealed so they may also grow into their best expressions. This may be an uncomfortable and painful process, however, as you must remain in your own personal sovereignty.
Remember, we are all connected and without these boundaries, we can affect each other regardless of time, space and distance.
We will get there. Love and light.
Super green! 4D Warfare & What You Need to See
You are in a reality that is moldable like putty and you are engaged in 24/7 non-stop warfare on how to sculpt it.
I use the word “warfare” not because this is a desirable state but because we aren’t quite to the point where we might call it true co-creation — cooperative design, or play.
As long as we are fixated or stuck into the machinations of the physical world, we are subject to the whims of all the comings and goings of the minds in the “ethereal.” You might consider the ethereal your own imagination or psychic space, the collective unconscious, the dream realm, a shared psychic realm, the plane of intentions, the universal boardroom where deals are made, the universal courthouse, or the universal diplomatic embassy.
Becoming overly enamored with the physical world which is primarily done via fixation — generally as a result of having a poor grasp of self, or incoherence within one’s paradigm. Another way to identify fixation is being too attached to all your yesterdays, or too focused on all your tomorrows. While everything is “now”, you want to have skillful discernment in what you “distill” from your past and what anchors you allow to guide your tomorrows.
This is how we allow tomorrow to influence yesterday, because it allows us to decide what yesterday is still useful to us in producing “now.”
The ego is easier to identify when you understand that it is ruthlessly linear. It absolutely cannot let go of yesterday. It is “historic.” It does not understand the virtue of forgiveness, which is being able to release yesterday without prerequisites or conditions. Forgiveness is how contrivances and seemingly unresolvable situations are resolved — by forgiving them and letting them go. This is also the beginning of time travel.
The “hope” you retain for tomorrow represents a space that you open within yourself, like a basin laden with love or allowance. Rather than stipulating how this tomorrow might come to you in the form of plans and agendas, all you need is the hold the cup — hold the space — and allow the universe to decide how to fulfill your desire, or direction. This allows you to remain situated in the present moment without being lost in a sea of chaos without having some value for “time.”
Do you feel like someone is your enemy? Your rival? The source of all your woes? Do you feel like you need to prove something to them? To have something over them? Do you feel threatened by them, or like they are trying to take something from you?
The villains — the demons — in our lives are showing us what we need to see in order to forgive, or let go. What we “hold onto” are the literal boundaries that keep our realities stable. You could say the role of the devil is one of boundaries and the devil must be given his due.
This does not mean that we are giving “approval” to the devil/demon, but accepting its role in allowing creation to exist. When we are able to forgive, we are shifting boundaries — shifting timelines — not just for ourselves — because remember, this is “4d warfare” — but all parties involved. We are allowing for the highest outcomes. The “manifestation” or what “becomes real” is only after all parties have settled on an agreement and allowed it to take shape. There is nothing happening “outside” of you that is permanent or given.
The devil’s job is to maintain boundaries against all opposition. And he cannot be beat at it, so don’t try. It is not “evil”, but that is its role. There are no lengths to which it will not to go retain boundaries if you cannot forgive, or release, because that is the literal function of forgiveness — to remove boundaries. Pride, stubbornness, needing to prove something — are all simple and obvious examples of how boundaries are chosen & maintained, but boundaries can be anything.
You will “hear” (through the unfolding of your reality, not a discrete event) all the reasons when you approach these boundaries to maintain them. You will experience perfect story to get you to keep your boundaries if you do not have sufficient resolve to change them. You will never be able to alter them so long as you continue to value them against the desire of letting them go.
“But if you’ve made your peace, then the devils are really angels, freeing you from the earth”
Jacob’s Ladder (1990)You may maintain or release any boundaries you wish. However, if you maintain boundaries without understanding why they are there, then you risk creating weights out of them — places of fixation from which you will manifest. In other words, this is the difference between understanding the terms of your contract and allowing someone else to dictate the terms because you don’t understand what boundaries you are valuing (or not.)
Do you think “memory” is historical? As in only pertinent to yesterday? It is not. Memory is both yesterday and tomorrow. The memory of both yesterday and tomorrow are simply decisions of what you choose to value to inform today. There is no difference between either. The distinction is an illusion that creates the feel of going forward in sequence.
Whenever you make decisions or set intentions, you are deciding to negotiate new terms & contracts with the universe. And when this is done, it is always a discussion of boundaries. The universe (or “the devil”, your ego, your daemons, etc.) will begin to show you what boundaries need to be moved or changed, even if these are hidden deep within you. For example, if you have trouble having relationships, your suffering is showing you where your problems are as long as you are not fooled by the devil into further fixation/density.
If you choose to remain in despair, blame someone or something else, maintain your old way of being and so on, you are allowing the boundaries to win — the devil to “fool” you.
You remain “unfooled” via having a firmer understanding of yourself and how your particular head & heart align in your own brand of truth. Actualization is the ability to distill your own ego out of the equation so that the devil may always be recognized from your negotiations.
The devil is an immaculate negotiator and you must remain firm in your desires. He will leave no stone unturned. He will bend, break, cheat, and steal all of reality underneath you, if necessary. It is not the devil you are making the deal with — rather, the devil is just the middleman showing you all the parameters within yourself that must be altered to arrive at your destination. God / universe has the exclusive domain in creation whom you are always working with. You cannot be disconnected from God.
You will eventually and inevitably come to a point in your life where it seems that all possible terms are impossible, inconceivable, non-negotiable or that there is no way forward. This is what I call a CONTRIVANCE, or a point where the verisimilitude of your story has become totally incompatible with some element of itself — the colliding of worlds.
When this happens, you have three choices: 1) You can remain in deliberations for as long as you wish — Groundhog’s Day — time is irrelevant and the devil can argue with you literally for all time and you will never win (this is where you learn concepts like faith & surrender), 2) You can give into despair and die with the world you have created from which there are no exits, 3) You can forgive, allow the old world to die and move into a new one.
When you begin to understand that we live in a multiverse and that we are not the selves we play within the context of our qualia (more like complicated expressions of light) — and when you can remove your own ego to the best of your ability — then whatever you wish to experience becomes closer to reality, even when it involves The Other.
You may think that this would violate the will of another, but not if Others are manifesting each other — that they are agreeing to the terms in the space of the “buffer” before anything is ever “rendered.” And furthermore, not when you understand that the qualia — the game — is not where our true selves — our souls — reside. The totalities — the full akashic record/knowing/memories (see last article) — of our souls are “outside space & time.”
It is the soul you enter into negotiations with beyond the physical — the “3d” — and all souls are amiable to playing with each other, as fundamentally we are “love.” Meaning, we will all play the roles for each other that are needed to have the experiences we desire — whether we are heroes or villains. Every person can become a hero, or a villain and it is YOU who is deciding.
The immediate “point” upon the record — again last article — is where “you” are playing your song, but you have no idea where the point is for anyone else and this is to everyone’s advantage in fulfilling all wishes. You simply need to let go that you know anything about the other songs and let them join you in harmony — or not — as all co-creators organically align.
The unique way you may experience this is not totally within your control because of the buffer — the trail that you are always leaving behind as your will (your endless light) executes. Without this trail, you would simply be lost in a chaotic sea of possibilities, jumping from one dream to another. It is this trail that allows you and others to stabilize and create co-creative realities — but we are here to teach each other that our reality does not need to ruthlessly follow in sequence, which has been the cause of so much suffering for so long.
When we can forgive, we can rewrite time itself. We can start over. We aren’t pretending something didn’t happen — we are literally making a new agreement where it no longer informs our subsequent creation. And this can only really be fully understand once you understand that you are the “originator (the needle!)” of your own qualia. You are “stuck” there, so what manifests for you will is always personal to you. There is no concrete, static world unfolding outside of you that is immutable — that is unforgivable — that is historic. It is YOUR decision — your 4D WARFARE — that decides what you “allow.”
The difficult part of this knowledge is that the devil — boundaries — are almost always painful, because pain is what we want to avoid. “Avoid” is the definition of a boundary. And boundaries are simply required for life to exist. If you want your life to change, you have to be willing to embrace pain, otherwise you will never change, exceed or breakdown any boundaries. You will always allow yourself to be convinced by the devil.
You’re protecting him. But with what? Where is the best place an opponent should hide? In the last place you will ever look. He’s hiding behind your pain.
Revolver (2005)If you are happy where you are at in your life, there is no problem whatsoever in being “convinced.” The devil is not the devil, in that case, but a friend who is defending your world and harmony for you. But if you are not happy, then the devil returns to you to re-negotiate, because your happiness — your coherence — is what allows the boundaries to remain intact, like the difference between a tornado and a breezy day.
When boundaries fall, lives are forced into changes. Disasters happen to show us where our hearts want to be, or where we are going but cannot always see. Wisdom is what allows us to mitigate the process of changing boundaries with as little disaster as possible.
Whatever you wish to keep about yourself is what you will need to come into congruence with. If what you wish to keep seems at odds with the world you are trying to maintain, then either you must abandon what you value, or abandon the world itself. You can abandon the world by stepping into a new one, or stagnating, letting the world take you with it as it dies — forcing you to learn again from a fresh slate. The choice is yours.
This article does not express the subtly in which the devil operates. For example, would you abandon happy memories of someone for any reason? If you would, the devil will find that reason and give it to you. Or do you value the time & love you spent with someone, regardless against all obstacles or what “terms” are being proposed? That is the confidence you need. That is the basis of will, or love. Once again, when you understand our true selves are “beyond the scene of our lives” why would you argue with a phantom, or an avatar?
How do I put this …
Let us pretend two people are making a pot of stew. One person wants to use chicken and the other wants to use beef. When you allow someone (the scene/avatar) to dictate the terms, you are arguing with the beef or the chicken itself, allowing the beef or chicken to make its case, rather than the cook (soul) wanting to use a particular ingredient. The beef will always argue for itself, as will the chicken, because each represent its own boundaries — both represent the interests of the physical world, the scene, or the devil. You don’t need to negotiate with the ingredients. You need to come to an accord with the other cooks — the souls playing the game.
This is the shoddy example of the 4d warfare I am talking about.
Once again, once you understand that we are multiversal/multidimensional, there is always a version of the fellow cook who will be happy to use whatever ingredient you wish to use. You aren’t dictating their free will, because to convince them to use beef or chicken may require the other cook to make some adjustments first — to change some of the contents of their soul. This is where divine timing comes into play. These adjustments are the “space” you are creating and negotiating with when you engage with another soul before it arrives to your 3d/phsyical/immediate qualia.
This is further exemplified that when you understand that everything is an appearance. Ask yourself — how does one identify the soul behind the mask? Is there room to allow that one soul may reject your terms, while another accepts them, without ever changing the physical appearance? How do you know whether someone is “account sharing“? The answer is that you are deciding the terms and deciding what you will accept as authentic and subsequently what role they will play, as well as what role you will play.
All souls, loving in nature, are more than happy to bend space & time to figure out whatever needs to change. But this does not mean the process will be easy. The totalities — the “contents” of each soul — must still have some place where a bridge or connection can be made and the devil still gets his due. You will be shown what you need to change or accept about yourself as will the other co-creators and these may reflect traumas or wounds, but they may also represent new perspectives or ideas that we aren’t used to that we have to be open to allowing.
Nothing will ever be perfect, otherwise you would be God.
This process need not occur in the “physical” realm. As you hold a decision/intention, hold space and then “let go”, the universe will begin to guide you along the path to fulfilling your decisions. It may guide you down hundreds of unrelated paths because all co-creators are doing what is needed to allow the reality to come to fruition.
What I call ONE WORLDISM makes these concepts hard to understand because when we think there are linear unfolding events happening outside of our awareness, we are locking down The Other from its own potential. We think there is a “one world” marching onwards outside of our awareness, not understanding we are tied to it and so it “updates as one” with us. If we are not allowing we are creating anchors, or parameters, or terms on how the universe should deliver our intentions.
When “the world” is an independent world instead of intertwined with us, we are forcing it down an expected singular path, or without hope of escape (yesterday = no forgiveness, tomorrow = no hope / no escape). And in so doing, we lock ourselves down as well. It is when we are able to focus on our “own lane” that we liberate The Other to perform miracles and to experience miracles for ourselves too.
If we obsess or worry about the world that seems like it is outside of us, it actually manifests and locks us into that worry and obsession to experience, because that is what we are creating — that is what we are negotiating with other co-creators to experience by our own free will choice. When we go too far with this, we increase our fixation and density or our “physical properties” and we become more ruled by decisions literally OUTSIDE of us, instead of inside of us, through a gradual obfuscation of our choices. See Fixation and the Matchmaker for more information.
As you begin to more intimately understand all of this, you also understand that there are extremely damaging and detrimental mindsets to fulfilling your intentions. Attitudes disposed to thinking in terms of competition or survival are antithetical and destructive. And you will need to learn when the Other is wanting to impose these upon you and be willing to put your foot down and say “no“, otherwise you will be drawn into what I call “unnecessary story.”
As we become better masters of “4d negotiation”, we realize the utter futility and regression that any kind of pettiness or competitiveness hurts the highest potential of all parties — creating miserable timelines to have to unravel — and we have to be willing to educate not just ourselves, but others, in the true nature of “the devil.”
We cannot let other people’s misunderstanding, or submission, to the devil — boundaries — resistance — because they refuse to change, evolve, or cannot see these mechanics — be our own undoing. This may sometimes require us to feel like we are the villains for a time if we have to make changes others are not happy about.
We all have a duty to not only recognize our full potential, but to act upon it as well, even when and especially when it is uncomfortable (and again, where does the devil hide? Behind pain.) In so doing, you enable others to reveal your devils (and their devils to themselves.) In failing to act on your potential, you stagnate — you invite the world to victimize and consume you, until you reach what I called above — Contrivance — and are forced to make a decision.
In the anime I’ll Become a Villainess Who Goes Down in History, Alicia expertly shows how to uplift others by revealing their egos to overcome by being the “villain” instead of the “hero” I have used the term “the devil” in this article, but I want readers to understand that this is not intended as a personification. A devil, or a demon, as I have mentioned in prior articles, represents an automation, or daemon in computer terms — that forms as a fundamental basis for perpetuating our realities. This might also be subconscious, or a hidden co-creator, or a self-perpetuating fixture of some kind.
We call it a “devil” when it seems like it controls us more than we control it — and often dealing with the devil is not pleasant, even when we understand that boundaries must be changed. In fact, I hope I have demonstrated that it is best to see pain for what it is — a boundary we either value or don’t and it is up to us to re-negotiate the terms.
Here is perhaps the most critical thing that will help understand the core of this article: The universe shows you what you need to see. It does this through the physical world, through people, through dreams, through words and pictures, feelings, emotions — it the fabric of the world will bend and contort like a mirage to show you the truth in perfect order. The scene of your life never contains deception. NEVER. Deception is imposed by you after the fact. What is you see is always true but it is up to you to discern it.
This means whatever you are going through in your life is exactly what you need to see in order to get where you want to go, even if it is vile and painful, because that pain is within you and you must decide on how you wish to deal with it — either embrace it and integrate it, or let it destroy you.
There is always a reality that is compatible with what you want. You just need to open & close the right spaces within yourself and allow it to flow into you. If you have trouble finding this flow, this is showing you what is “blocked” so it might be remedied. This is where discipline & persistence will win you the day, but never let yourself fall into unnecessary endurance or brute force. Flow is flow because it is soothing & flowing not abrasive/eroding or blocking/restrictive.
That’ll do for now.
Unity & Co-Creation
So, now I will reveal the true nature of co-creation (as I understand it.)
There are a few pre-requisites we need to go over here. Let us review UNITY as I define it again.
UNITY, in this context, is the unification of all of your experience. This includes your five senses, your thoughts, your feelings, your emotions, definitions, meanings, memories, the ideas of others or others themselves, the world or universe or space that is unseen to you, your senses of intangible things like time, distance or movement, the relationships between all of these things — everything that occurs in your “qualia.”
YOU are the administrator of this entire database of information. But what are YOU? Let us first talk about from whence does all this information come?
This information comes from what I call your TOTALITY, or your WAVE, or your SOUL. The soul contains the full depth & breadth of your “Akashic record.” That is, these are all the lifetimes — or timelines — or dreams — you have lived that bear your unique signature. Conventional students can call this DNA, if they wish, but that is a physical after-image. You are BORN with it because it precedes your incarnation.
What is your signature? It is the eternal movement of your will. Your decisions. This is the “salt”, as in computer encryption, that creates a trail that follows you for all eternity.
n cryptography, a salt is random data fed as an additional input to a one-way function that hashes data, a password or passphrase.[1] Salting helps defend against attacks that use precomputed tables (e.g. rainbow tables), by vastly growing the size of table needed for a successful attack.[2][3][4] It also helps protect passwords that occur multiple times in a database, as a new salt is used for each password instance.[5] Additionally, salting does not place any burden on users.
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Salt_(cryptography)So this information is recorded via the living of your experience eternally no matter what that experience is — whether you are a human, a dragon, or a disembodied point of awareness.
Your “qualia” exists at a small pinpoint at the top of this TOTALITY, or SOUL. This is what you “experience” but the bulk of what you “are” is hidden from you. I call what you experience the SCENE, APEX, or PRIME.
The SCENE is a dynamic shifting window that follows the unfolding or “fluid” of your soul as you accumulate experience. Most humans consider this the PHYSICAL REALITY or EARTH they experience. As experience is accumulated, the soul shifts and changes, like a cup of water.
You cannot remember past lives because your SOUL does not contain sufficient coherence to access the full contents of your database in a coherent and understandable manner. That is, your sense of continuum or ability to retain this continuum is too poor. You lack the language or structure to organize the contents of your soul’s database this way so it is more of a spaghetti of memories that act as flavoring for your current incarnation. You are drunk.
Your soul is rendering its TOTALITY into the world you experience in a more “diluted” and “buffered” experience.
Your SOUL exists within the greater container of GOD with other souls. GOD is the only who who knows the content of all souls. GOD also coordinates all souls. No soul knows the contents of any other soul because it is corrupted via the salt of its own SCENE and for other reasons I will not go into here.
YOU, as the administrator, are writing this this record just like a record player. The song never ends, the record never stops spinning. You are immortal.
You are a “needle” inscribing upon a spinning record that keeps track of everything you ever do, think, feel — you are in constant “execution.” You are a sword cleaving all of reality creating & destroying without end.
YOU are not the SCENE. In other words, you are not your experience or your qualia. You are not the name you call yourself, your body, nor the greater world or experience represented that you are carried through like a boat on a river.
If you make the mistake of believing YOU are “within” the SCENE, you are committing the “sin” of what I call around here of FIXATION. This can also be understood as DENSITY or debasement (or even suffering) and is also a spectrum of where you have disowned your own will unto an illusionary world to act upon you and have an experience. Some level of fixation is DESIRABLE otherwise experience is impossible.
The beginning of co-creation starts with understanding the concept of THE OTHER — or that we can allow other aspects of consciousness their own volition.
Let us separate the real YOU from the “you” that is contained in the scene. The you that is contained within the scene might be considered a combination of destiny / fate and your supreme personal oversight. I will not semantically keep differentiating “yous” for this rest of this article — use “your” own discernment contextually.
Now that we know what UNITY and what YOU are, then we can now begin to understand how our immediate subjective qualia can be impacted by other co-creators that do not seem to be conventionally present within our five-sensory experience. In fact, these connections are so intertwined, it is co-creators who are influencing the health of your body, your interests, the way you think, and more (do you know which you I am talking about? Just testing.)
Now let us understand that ACTUALIZATION is sufficient “interface design” to distinguish what part of this co-creation is EXCLUSIVELY YOURS for the purposes of identifying and isolating elements that are not.
You can actualize with varying degrees of understanding UNITY. However, as the range of UNITY expands, actualization also expands what it manages as its own / not.
How is this SCENE rendered? This scene is rendered via a mixture of collective background “setting” or “noise” given by the greater collective’s movements, along with a scaling importance of The Other that have what I call CREDENTIALS or ACCESS to you. Credentials is synonymous with INTIMACY. So the more intimate you are with someone, the higher level of influence they have over your SCENE.
You can call a CONTRACT someone you have deep intimacy with that is difficult to disengage from.
Let us emphasize the critical importance of what I am saying here.
You are reading this article. Look up. Look around. Is anyone there? If you are alone, you need to understand that what you are experiencing & seeing is not simply a function of your own consciousness, but all co-creators particular to you based on priority (INTIMACY). Range or distance is irrelevant.
You and all neighboring co-creators are holding the entirety of the contents of the scene and the stories required to comprehend and experience that scene.
An important note to raise here is that you also have an INTIMACY level with YOURSELF. As a reminder once again, in this context, YOURSELF means the direction or desire you wish to impose upon your own SCENE (as restrained by the DESTINY or FATE imposed by the conditions/limitations within the SOUL).
Destiny or Fate can be understood as the inescapable gravity or weight or momentum that your SOUL — the TOTALITY OF ALL YOUR LIVES & KNOWLEDGE — inexorably impresses upon your SCENE/APEX. It is not “written in stone” so much as it is like the thrust or force of a river.
Do not presume you have a HIGH intimacy level simply because it is “yourself.” You do not. The “you” in the scene is not “you” and so requires building a relationship with just like any OTHER. The intimacy level of yourself can be weaker than your intimacy with The Other, allowing the Other almost god-like dominion over you.
Let us further exemplify the importance of this knowledge. Once you understand you are NOT in your scene, then for example, your body itself is a co-creative suggestion. Your very health, physical appearance and more are all subject to the volitional operation of ALL CO-CREATORS REGARDLESS OF PRESENCE OR DISTANCE.
Do you have conversations in your mind? Without actualization, you are likely arguing or discussing with another co-creator’s SOUL and more or less negotiating subsequent “frames” or “terms” of your and their co-creative experience.
For example, whenever you are deciding on a course of action for what to do next, you will always come into immediate negotiation with all co-creators required to manifest your action without any physical presence. You have to learn to hear what is yours and what is not, but the negotiation is always there.
Again, look up. Do you live in a city? Do you see nature outside? Everything you experience — including your body, your thoughts, your feelings — is a mixture of your own stories plus the “suggestions” of other co-creators which you have accepted, value or are ignorant about. This includes the mechanics of the experience themselves, but that is a more advanced topic.
Let us pretend someone doesn’t like you and thinks ill of you. You will detect this within your qualia/experience as unease. You may decide to act upon this “suggestion” and have a glass of wine, or some other activity to help alleviate it. You just performed alchemy for this hidden co-creator who is not present and gave them a “boost” at the expense of your own time & will.
Consider this: If someone performs an act of kindness for you that makes you feel warm & fuzzy, is that feeling yours or was it a gift from the other person? Was it not something you did not have before? This is how you must re-orient yourself.
Note, do not presume that all feelings are “foreign.” Indeed, informatively, you can never assume anything is foreign. You must accept all input as yours, while simultaneously being able to distill or delineate what is not without surrendering ownership over anything.
Extrapolate this example. Let us pretend that the malcontented person from before keeps thinking ill of you, wishing harm on you, or other thoughts, even if this malcontent just believes they are isolated to their own mind and are “hurting no one.” They don’t interact with you or do anything special except obsess in their own mind why you are a source of their problems.
This is not how it works, folks. You are not isolated. You are irrevocably connected to everyone. Imagine the havoc this can causes other people who cannot distinguish what is theirs and what is someone else’s untrained or malicious projection.
This is not a matter of thought-crime, or MINORITY REPORT. You are simply completely and totally responsible for what you create & re-create, including what you project via your own private imagination space, or what arbitrary delineations you hide behind so as to not take responsibility.
Responsibility here should not be taken as a moral evaluation, but one simply of consequence. You are creating & aligning to other co-creators in real time based on UNITY (re-read it above at the start of the article if you forgot.)
You cannot fake the work it requires to understand how to integrate and operate from UNITY within yourself because it is 100% a personal journey that no one can do for you.
You are on “EARTH” to learn and accept higher degrees of UNITY. That is, to accept responsibility for MORE and MORE UNITY to reclaim ownership of your WILL and create a CO-CREATIVE PARADISE. You are not meant to merge back into GOD, but to work with other co-creators until literal heaven is possible. The more you DIVIDE UNITY, the more fixated or dense you will become — you will “veil” your own will from yourself to victimize yourself.
No one is going to come for you for having bad thoughts. You are coming after yourself — with the entire world — and inviting co-creators who resonate with what you are creating.
Actually, they may come for you for bad thoughts if you spiral far enough into fixation/density to create or align to actual thought-crime-like agencies timelines/realities in order to teach you to be responsible for your thoughts. Reality always shows you what you need to see to fulfill your intentions, including disowning your responsibility in your own UNITY.
This doesn’t mean you need to censor yourself in your own mind, but to understand concepts like intention. It is much more than this because you will also have to become congruent with your soul in a way that doesn’t cause you to breakdown, because you are limited being and need to be able to handle a wide range of situations without falling off your throne (creating corrupted or glitchy output.)
Everyone has something in their past, whether in this lifetime or another, that will test your UNITY. This is becoming comfortable with “light” & “dark.” It is always feeling as if you are in alignment with yourself. Head & heart must not disagree.
Everyone is telepathic without exception. If you have not actualized, you simply lack the ability to distinguish what is yours and what is not. You have arbitrary boundaries which you hide behind to justify and maintain your much smaller (fixated/dense) reality in order to play-pretend as a human.
You will hide behind your body as an excuse, for example, from having to accept that a stomach ache may be a co-creator that is affecting your sense of authority via feelings of superiority or dominion over you. It is easier to blame a meal or digestive juices than believe someone in your inner circle is judging you or wishes to dictate the course of your life.
Someone’s jealously may instill a sense of unworthiness in you. Someone’s anger can make you feel restless, judged or harried. Or perhaps you value having your own body dictate your sense of health and so it is. Your body has willful command over “you.”
It all depends on what you value and what kind of experience you want to create for yourself.
What arrives in your life is always an immediate negotiation that you are always involved in with both known & unknown co-creators. That includes your personal health. It includes what you allow or what occurs in your mind as well. It includes everything.
If your intimacy level with yourself is WEAK, then co-creators are deciding your life for you. The weaker your relationship is to yourself, the more dependent you are on your immediate collective. Your reality will have more external automation, rather than internal. If your intimacy with yourself is HIGH, you will always be healthy, for example, because you can reject suggestions from other co-creators when they arrive.
You are the alchemist deciding on the ratios of co-creation you accept. This affects what experience you have and who arrives there. See Fixation & The Matchmaker.
Are you understanding why it is so important to guard and protect your intentions for others? To never wish ill upon another? If you victimize yourself for any reason, you are already in the process of offloading your garbage to someone else, even if it is just yourself.
The record we talked about earlier is running at a certain “speed.” This is what I call the buffer. It is how fast the song plays. The faster the song plays, the faster your will becomes reality.
The record, again, is the contents of your soul. Your Akashic library. Your immediate qualia — the pinpoint you call “life” — is a function of the most immediate trail imposed by your soul — your TOTALITY. Your ability to retain continuum is the degree you have mastered UNITY.
As the record speeds up, it becomes more and more important to retain the purity of the track you are inscribing (less ego) and maintain the strength of your understanding of UNITY. You might call that your TRUTH. The record is always trailing you for all eternity.
If you inscribe too much information against your TRUTH, or have a poor understanding of your TRUTH, or have no TRUTH but what is provided by your collective, you will corrupt the trail which will slow down the record. As the record slows, your will becomes delayed and is reflected into a reality that will impose control over you and make you feel victimized.
There are no limits to how your life will fall apart if you cannot maintain coherence. Reality will literally cheat and create contrivances to screw you.
Once again see the article on Fixation & the Matchmaker for examples of how realities degrade with higher levels of density.
If you simply fail to do any kind of interface design — integration with UNITY — it is likely you are filling your record with garbage (usually hedonism.) Imagine you incarnate with a ball and chain. You have the choice to remove links from this chain and reduce your weight (go faster), or you can maintain or even add more weight to it (go slower).
If you maintain it, your next incarnation will begin almost exactly like your current life. If you weigh it down more by creating more obstruction, confusion and separation from UNITY, you will have a worse life. If you lighten it, you will have a better life. You might think this sounds like karma, but it is more like you are cleaning the gunk out of a faucet. You are choosing whether you want clean, flowing water, or dirty, choked water.
The bounds of your life are functions of your integration with UNITY. Your “death” is completely illusionary and as you ascend it becomes clearer and clearer how you are immortal. If that seems inconceivable to you, you are still deeply under the veil. The more dense you are, the more “death” seems real. Death is forgetting and nothing more.
Your continuum is never broken, only your ability to maintain your awareness of it. Amnesia is imposed upon you by insufficient interface design. That is, insufficient structure or understanding to hold the WEIGHT of your own soul together to maintain connections to all corners of it in a coherent and tolerable fashion. If you have some dark secret that haunts you, this represents an incoherence that will threaten your stability & continuum.
If your stability ever fails, you will “die.” Death that occurs this way represents a strong intention to veil all aspects that resulted in this death for re-integration with a different speed. You cannot actually die. If you sacrifice your continuum this way, it will be like going to sleep. You will forget anything causing the instability. You will reincarnate to deal with the trail you left in your record not because it is karma but because it is simply the fundamental factory that produces reality which you did not maintain.
Imagine you are trying to design an operating system in order to maintain what you call “life.” Your job is to remove all the glitches. If your design overall is not good enough, it may encounter a critical glitch that requires a total re-write. You will salvage what you can and start over. All souls are undergoing this process to ascend to a more stable co-creative paradise-like reality.
As you ascend — speed up — you will inevitably have to face the problem that THE OTHER is intimately part of the UNITY that your “operating system” has to deal with, as are all the seemingly hidden elements that you have — until now — thought you were not responsible for and used to excuse yourself as the world’s problem, or somebody else’s problem. Nope.
The more reality speeds up and approaches something like a dream, the less mechanics we get to omit or excuse.
Perhaps the most powerful part of this message today is how this knowledge can affect your own physical healing. You should closely examine the people you consider yourself intimate with, as well as your own personal boundaries and how much responsibility you really take for your life.
Examine the people you have felt a strong connection with no matter how far back in your life they go. Do you still want them there? Do you think they contribute to the reality you want to take to the next level? Time is just an illusion. It is more like we are all living the same day over and over while we make small changes for the next frame (day.) The entire universe is re-rendered in every moment without any yesterday or tomorrow based on everyone’s choices.
Are you prepared to accept that to level up to the next reality you have the ability to harm someone with a mere thought? If not, then it is OK to stay where you are until you have exhausted as much experience as you want at this “level.”
I’ll wrap it up there for now.
Success, Pain & Persistence
What does success look like? It looks like pain & persistence. Anyone who tells you otherwise is a liar.
What is pain?
Pain is the soul purifying itself. It is what it feels like when it identifies a distortion or imbalance within the soul. When there is incoherence or a lack of integrity, it produces pain. Pain can be physical or mental. Pain represents a blockage, or a stagnation, as this is what blocks will — the flow of life — and when it becomes severe enough, it will begin to produce distortions in your reality — not just your body, but your entire life, even including who is invited into your experience and how they treat you, for you cannot help but “hear” your own Nonsense (or “the devil.”)
It is not Nonsense jumping from person to person, but YOU who are hearing your own flaws through the voices and stories of others. YOU will create the perfect story every time because only YOU know yourself best.
What is critical to understand about all of reality is that everything is a mirror until you are able to actualize. Once actualization is done, you are able to distill your “ego” out of all perception. Combine this with the true understanding of Unity — which is that you are watching a kind of choose-your-own-adventure movie which encompasses the entire world of your experience both inside & out — this combination allows you to detach from the entire scene of the world.
Understanding any of this on an intellectual level is insufficient. It takes years of commitment to these ideas to “train” the soul. Lip service is not good enough. Belief cannot be faked. The soul is a student that requires your training. Your lucid awareness is how the soul is trained. Your lucid awareness is your apex absolute dominion and the world must obey. This training process is not done with simple apprehension, but applied practice.
Nothing is omitted from this practice. The soul is trained whether you are “still” or “in motion” because will/creation is an unstoppable light / force that cannot be turned off. You may only confuse yourself into thinking that it may be turned off and create an inverted experience of a “darkened light” which is a form of Nonsense. Darkness upon your will creates distortion. I have talked about distortion before.
The distortion will disrupt the entire fabric of your existence in sometimes unpredictable ways because we are masterful storytellers. Verisimilitude is your only savior here, as it gives you a “buffer” or room to deal with your will at a level you can handle. Without it, your life would resemble a jumbled dream of wonder & horror.
Without a total and complete understanding of yourself — again, actualization — you will be helpless to discern the source of these distortions. You will be enslaved to them whether you like it or not — and Others will also step in to fill this role of enslavement for you.
The world is ruthless about this. Utterly ruthless. It will trigger and bring forth anything causing you to victimize yourself even in the smallest degree until you stand in your power and authority.
Pain is attempting to show you what is blocked. Pain is the soul’s defense mechanism. It is the soul in a crisis mode. Pain is anything that creates stagnation whether it is physical or mental. Your life may simply represent a mundane human experience, but your soul has essentially willingly entered itself into Hell as rehab, because that is where purification is done. Hell is not “evil.” Hell is where souls are purified of distortion. You will be shown what you need to see to cease self-replicating your distortion through a reckless use of your will.
Do not seek pain, but embrace it when it arrives. Stand apart from it. And see it wash away out of you.
When you understand the excruciating effort that must be put into spiritual development, you must carefully consider who you bring with you in life, as they will influence everything about your world — even influence what thoughts or activities you gravitate towards even in absolute privacy. If you are uncertain in your actualization, or even in the middle of it, then these people can affect your health itself. There should be no doubt in your mind about your circle of friends & family. Red flags are warning signs from your intuition not to ignore.
There is plenty of cases to help those in pain or in need of advice or counseling. And some of the highest good we can do is to help them. But understand — deeply — we are our own teachers. Grace is allowing others the use of your alchemical services — sharing or taking the pain from others to give them space to see or find themselves (and also reveals things about you) — and the wisdom of your connection to God. This grace ends when your health or dreams are threatened — when you have given too much and abdicated yourself.
Anyone you bring into your world necessarily means bringing their stories with them. And if you have any level of intimacy with them, they can impact you whether physically present or not if you mistake their intentions or projections for your own. Decide if that is what you wish to deal with on a ongoing basis.
That’s right — you can be used as someone’s garbage dump even if they are not in your life. They need not even be doing it on purpose. This is why there is so much information about topics like “cord cutting” that is popular because the human collective as a whole is recognizing the immense harm some connections can cause.
Even non-adepts understand this and manage it in their own haphazard way when they fight or have arguments amongst themselves. Divorces, friends fighting, estranged family are all examples of the soul understanding unconsciously the source of its pain. Non-adepts react, or debase themselves, causing further “separation” for themselves and The Other — disjunction of Unity.
Adepts remain calm, offer grace and skillfully discern what they need for their soul’s development that is in alignment to both God and itself, which allows more Unity for all involved. “Co-creation” is achieved through actualization and emergent groups of sovereign individuals — not imposed by meddling with the scene or the “movie” we experience, but orienting ourselves to allow life to bloom on its own.
Everyone goes through “stages of grief” when they are going through challenges. It is not always your responsibility to rescue them. And in fact, rescuing them may in fact delay the lessons they need. That said, I am a strong advocate of heroism — if you have the capability, I find no fault in heroism. But be sure you are not trying to a rescue a drowing person who will take you with them if you can’t pull them up. You have to honestly assess your own capabilities which requires — what class? Actualization.
This will be a recurring topic going on in the future — we can deeply impact each other even when not present. I do not speak of this conventionally, like having feelings or making plans or dates with people — but in a way that can be extremely deceptive. You can sense other people’s feelings & intentions that can be mistaken as your own — and if you act upon them, they become your problems. This is how entanglement begins and how you can “transmute” someone else’s problems.
Vampires thrive on the small interstice found in this little secret because they can orient themselves to feed on this exchange and create a kind of artificial platform or ascension for themselves.
I will further describe this alchemical hijacking in future articles. To be clear, EVERYONE performs alchemy, because the natural process of the universe is change. We are all alchemizing all the time — converting one kind of energy into other, or clarifying intentions to be more crystalline. When you are advanced in the art, you can do it STANDING STILL without any external apparatus or ritual. Mere contemplation. And a ritual need not be chanting around a fire — it can be a jog in the neighborhood, or a relaxing bath.
Humans are actual masters of alchemy in many ways without giving it any special label. Most people understand it as just living a normal, functional and balanced life. However, this can become extremely difficult if you are surrounded by vampires.
Why is the story of the poor boy from a poor neighborhood who goes to achieve greatness always involve having to go through friends & family who want to keep him poor & in the neighborhood? Because it is describing an intrinsic process of actualization. Poorness is synonymous with coherence or integrity of paradigm and neighborhood is literally a group of souls, or a collective that form a gravitational force.
The friends & family are invitees who represent his own limitations that must be exceeded. But the only one he must compete with is himself and in fact, that is the only way to escape. Anything else mires him in endless conflict, like a Chinese finger trap, or being caught in a whirlpool.
As I have written before, vampires are people who understand this entanglement on an instinctual level — or are people who are having severe trouble with interface design — with creating their connection to God. They are like drug addicts who have become addicted to sources of light that are not their own.
This turns them into vampires, because without a connection to God, they instead must feed on The Other, or the physical world. Thus they become agents of the physical world and the physical world is within the dominion of the actualized — thus you willingly slave yourself to those who sit on their throne. It is no one’s fault but your own.
As much as I loathe to admit, suffering & pain become requirements when stagnation is severe as sometimes we cannot escape how we are misusing our will. If our will for change outweighs the blockage and yet there is no viable “out” — then pain & suffering become our sources of freedom.
“They know not what they do.”
The real trick is that there is no such thing as competition, or scarcity, because we are effectively living within our own domains at all times. The physical world hides the seams from you, but no one and no place is there without invitation.
We are fooling ourselves when we buy into suggestions that are not our own but the effects are very real. When people become “entangled” it is because two souls have seemingly parked themselves inside each other, creating confusion — and it is difficult to discern where one begins and the other ends. The realms influence each other with invisible hands. This can be a wonderful thing such as in the case of love, but is a horror between incompatible paradigms or divergent life destinies.
Sometimes lives become intertwined when they shouldn’t, or just go rotten. When souls are so entangled that they only cause each other suffering, there is no other choice to actualize. This allows the soul to master the art of ALCHEMY — which allows the souls to be distilled apart. This distillation can be what saves both or many souls, as this entanglement can involve groups. This need not be something to mourn. And in fact, it is a natural process that happens with or without esoteric knowledge.
Do not let your own compassion kill you because you are omitting yourself from its consideration. You are also part of the Unity.
Now back to the subject at hand — what does success look like? Success is highly personal. I cannot define it for you.
However, I can offer some tips.
Success is a sense of freedom or flow because this is the universe — God — working through you without resistance. It feels like a river flowing through you — because it is. It is coherence of paradigm. Integrity. Synthesis. Head & heart being aligned. It is the “Kundalini” going through you.
Have you ever had a Kundalini awakening? It feels like your entire body starts to vibrate. These things are real and they do not require external devices or substances to invoke.
There is no “one size fits all” interface to God because your expression is unique. In fact, you cannot even know whether someone else is having the same experience as you. If you know anything about computer design, then look up “user interface” or “user experience — UI/UX design. You have no way of knowing what someone has running on their “monitor.”
See my One Worldism article.
Do you feel threatened, inadequate, or unworthy? Often, these feelings can arise from being jealous or competitive. They arise from needing to be “somewhere else” or “in a state other than this one.” Aka, a rejection of the current state while not accepting it arises from you and follows you absolutely. There is no yesterday or tomorrow and you “wherever you go, there you are.” Rejection of this simple truth creates the friction that produces these negative feelings.
These feelings can also inspire feelings like you need to compete or prove something, but there is nothing to prove to anyone except yourself & God. And negative attitudes often leave your will exposed because they tend to make you reactionary. When you are reactionary, you are dumping this psychic garbage all over the collective and it will irritate anyone who encounters it.
And like I warned in the previous article, adepts will see you naked in the dream/ethereal/spirit realm. They will know when you are projecting onto them. I will talk more about “projection” in the future, but projections will always come from people close to you, because they have “intimacy” with you. Intimacy is effectively a scaling spectrum of security clearance. Those with no security clearance will never register on your sensors, or will be more background noise produced by the most immediate collective you are aligned.
Be careful about judging others for what they have achieved. The fruits that are had on the other side of this pain & persistence can paint a pretty picture for gawkers, but they are woefully unaware of the process occurring underneath the tree that produces the fruit — like roots buried in the ground. How deep do they go? If you are so curious as to attack the tree to take a look at the roots, then you commit the sin I spoke of in the last article — you bargain your soul against another. Be aware you can do this accidentally if you are projecting.
A billionaire might be an infant soul, while someone living in poverty may akin to a god. Is this a gamble you want to take? You cannot avoid your own work/interface design. You can only avoid it through denial which often takes the expression of hedonism and blaming others, or the world.
To be successful, you must be willing to endure all manner of pain, because if you are not already in a place where you consider yourself successful, then your soul is not in a state to produce this success. There is no yesterday or tomorrow. No time. Just the reality you are producing right now. So if it does not look like what you want — you have only yourself to blame.
And if you believe you can escape this pain through suicide, you are only partially right. Suicide is a strong intention that will create amnesia to veil your pain — or the incongruities or failures of your interface, faith or relationship to God — from you to integrate in a more tolerable process. But you will not cease to exist. You are already immortal. You will enter into another dream to start again. So you have two choices: deal with it, or reboot yourself, but no one will save you from this work.
When you understand limitations are eternal, else you would be God, then you also understand that at some point, you must decide which limitations you will live with and move forward with them, regardless of all obstacles. This is when you will be direly tested, because everything you seek to change will resist you. It is not evil that it resists — the resistance is how reality remains stable. Without resistance you exist in a sea of chaos. It is a “test” to see if you are serious — an requisite effort to move a boulder.
What few understand is that THE OTHER will also be part of this process. You will trigger Others, even REMOTELY — who will project their insecurities, problems, condemnations and judgements upon you, because wherever you are going is where they are NOT — and this creates irritation/friction upon their realms. You will even cause strange reconciliations or messages out of the blue from unheard people because these are people you have given credentials. It is not unlike kicking a hornet’s nest and is unavoidable. Or, at least, that is the perception to the un-actualized. In actuality, there is no friction, only its illusion & suggestion — but it nonetheless will feel real and visceral to you.
Informatively it makes no difference whether it is their fault (it isn’t) or your own (it is), because they are merely highlighting what you must change to get what you desire. What informs your behavior — what you must do — is exactly the same whether the Other is your tormentor, or yourself. It is pointless to blame or victimize them, as they are simply playing roles to teach you — you abdicate yourself if you project onto the Others, the world, or use any of it as an excuse to hide behind.
This isn’t to say that you will not have allies in this process because there are those who can make the move with you. And of course, new people will always arrive to fill in new roles along your journey. And the Unseen aspects of your own will — the divine — the unknown — ancestors — passed relatives or forgotten people in their own dreams veiled from yours — God — the world “outside” — are always with you. But careful discernment is required here because THE OTHER will always bring their baggage with them. Who are you making entanglements with? What level of “alchemy” do you want to deal with? Because once you have actualized, your entire life will be some level of constant alchemy to remain on your throne.
Before enlightenment, chop wood, carry water.
After enlightenment, chop wood, carry water.Most humans developed routines, habits and other “daemons” to deal with this alchemy and there is nothing wrong with this. But you choose what to empower or shutdown.
n multitasking computer operating systems, a daemon (/ˈdiːmən/ or /ˈdeɪmən/)[1] is a computer program that runs as a background process, rather than being under the direct control of an interactive user.
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Daemon_(computing)It is critical to understand that INTIMACY is a kind of SECURITY CREDENTIAL. This is why free sex is so damaging — it is like the President giving free access to the White House, the secret bunkers and the launch codes. You will create bonds with these people and will pick up on their feelings and so you are just burdening yourself with constant transmutation.
I will write more about this in the future, but sexual energy is the energy of creation. It is is the “closest” to assigning a description to raw will. Your sexual organs are direct “docks” into your soul. That is how they are represented in the “physical” world. It does not matter whether you are male or female, both are penetrated in the sexual act “behind the scene” and the intentions/worlds/energies mix — credentials are heightened between the souls. Masculine and feminine have nothing to do with your sexual organs, yet your gender is critically important to your development — your actualization and interface design to God. I will be addressing this controversial topic in future articles.
Incidentally, this is why free sex is pushed by those with a mind for domination, because it can dilute the energy of other souls so severely that they de-actualize and become agents of the physical world. And so, anyone with a mind for mischief can see how this may give power to someone — even if it is deluded and illusionary once you understand everyone is in their own realm. Regardless, the effects and trickery is real to anyone who acts upon them.
Your friends or even family are not always going to be able to follow you as you embark on a new path. There are no debts in this world as we all move in and out of entanglements which are their own paid service. You are mingling with other people’s intentions & energies all the time to “co-create” again and again for all time and so there are no “debts.” Your lessons are immediate and chosen from moment to moment. Existence is always balanced and paid in full. Debt is a kind of rationalized thievery of those who lack this understanding.
That’s enough for now. I have a slew of articles to write but alas, there is only so much time in the day.