From where does your light originate?

It originates from God and nowhere else. Each person is their own tree of life.

Suffering begins with this denial. Suffering is when branches reach into other trees thinking they must shelter them, or shelter themselves. Suffering begins when you seek out sources of light other than God’s, from which you are already rooted.

All have a connection to God that cannot be destroyed or removed, but can be self-obfuscated. It can be obfuscated by coveting the light of The Other ; it can also be obfuscated through the belief that The Other can obfuscate it.

All of reality could be said to be a scale of suffering, as perfection would be the only state where suffering does not exist. Perfection would be “all of creation”, “the known universe”, aka God. This is the eternal state machine that produces “Now” ; the eternal universe for which there is no end, no beginning — no time — just this moment from which you cultivate with your decisions.

All of your experience a product of this eternal state with you hold within. Your body, your thoughts, your feelings, your sensations, your definitions, your relationships, your meanings, space — whether the space of your mind, or the space between objects, or the space between the pain or pleasure in your body — your “Others.” All of it. It is not outside of you.

All things are possible and you exist now at the forefront of your collective choices. You can be nowhere else as there is nowhere else to be. You cannot “go” anywhere except where you are as you follow you. To misunderstand this is to open the door to physicality where you have displaced yourself into a “place.” You can feel this “divide” when you think you are “in” the movie instead of watching it. And watching = choosing. The next “frame” is not determined.

You have already arrived at your own perfection which is eternally imperfect.

You cannot be God. Whether you believe yourself a child or creation of God, a piece of God, or perhaps yourself God who has forgotten himself, this does not matter. To exist in a state of perfection is to exist in a state of oblivion and cannot be done and thus is no source of life anywhere.

To seek to become God, to seek God through others, or to make others worship you as a God is to create a counter to life — an anti-life. There is no such thing. There is only life. It is a denial of your unstoppable will — which is the life. These denials can only be represented through more elaborate depictions that turn upon you to control you — make you forget and cause more elaborate depictions of suffering.

You are everything and yet everything is itself. And if you meddle with this, you abdicate yourself. There are no opposites — just “things in themselves.” Paints for which you paint all of creation.

Nothing has a weight in of itself. All is weightless. Weight is imposed through expectation, or relationships ; meanings and connections. Weight is imperative to experience, but without first understanding where the weight originates, you can drown yourself by becoming too heavy.

There is no “unknown” universe except a willing acceptance to omit parts of creation from yourself. The more you pursue a path to remove mystery, the more ordered and determined you will arrange the universe. This is one path that can be chosen and it ends in death.

You can also choose to be so immersed in the flow of life that you abdicate your own existence in pursuit of whatever suggestion avoids your suffering. To follow this path is to allow in so much potential that the world gradually obfuscates and suffocates all sense of self until you are once again “one with God.” Aka — death.

What is death in this context? In this context, death is not the transition it is meant to be, but rather a loss of self or amnesia that is a requirement to actualization. I will talk more about this in future articles. Death is not inevitable because of entropy or disease, but because it represents a desired transition to your own ascension.

To transcend death is to walk neither of these paths (though both paths must be traveled) but walk upon a tight-rope between allowing and forbidding, between resisting and going with the flow — about being hot and cold, good and evil ; a willingness to have boundaries and forsake them as well ; to honor as well as betray yourself ; the synthesis of polarity into paradox ; into becoming raw potential from where you sit upon making decisions for all eternity.

This state requires the almost total removal of “ego” where upon all qualia is unified and there is “you” as just a detached world from where you observe and direct. If God is the container of everything, then you are a “moving lens” that creates a a dynamic evolving expression for God.

There are no wrong choices. You do not have to recognize your role as this lens. You can continue to be a Drunk Librarian. But the middle path — the Mirrored Path — is making the choices to bring you into alignment of this role. It is true service to God, and life which must include your own expression even when it causes conflict or destruction. Anything else creates an omission.

Suffering is simply the world outside of your boundaries, except it only becomes suffering when you choose to view it as such. You can choose to love potential, the unknown, the adventure — even pain. But pleasure neither can be your objective, else it becomes a new master.

The more you practice at authoring your own authority — the more masterful an alchemist you become. And an alchemist you must become, because your entire existence will be a continual process of imposing & removing weights — allowing things to grow and then reaping them — bringing the universe back into a “null state.” A Monument of Nothingness from where you reside.

Your “enemies” which you must be careful never to create are your own weights and hierarchies that you create simply by existing.

Your observational executorial creational power cannot help but impose weights and hierarchies upon wherever it gazes as this is the nature of creating something. To create something is to destroy something else — to occlude or omit it in order for it to be expressed. Should you ever become so enamored with your own creation, you will risk omitting yourself — exalting the creation above yourself — and thus “fall” once again onto the polarity paths (determinism, or chaos, positive or negative, angels or demons, etc … ) which lead to death.

Those who have not chosen the middle path are always in varying states of victimhood. They will all despise you in their own way for walking the middle path — except those also on the middle path — because you become a walking mirror to them. And indeed, you must be willing to be the mirror for them, else you agree to take part in their stories from which “you” will be swept away because they have no concept of “you.” How can “you” exist with others who cannot see themselves? If they cannot see themselves, they cannot see you.

As the one who stands in the mirror, you will always be on the receiving end of the projections from others. In you, they will see their true selves stripped of their own ego — where you are the distilling agent –the “differential.” You will embody the state which understands where its own ego resides, as you understand your true self and so can “distill” it from your perceptions and interactions from others.

You will become Harry Potter’s Mirror of Erised and when they look upon you, they will see their most ideal selves for that is how you see them. You will omit their ego for them. It will trigger them if they do not know how to omit their own ego — because unless they also walk the middle path, they will see what is and what is not — and they will blame you for it. They will want to break you — the mirror — because as long as they refuse to see the mirror, they may only see what they are not.

You must not step out of the mirror no matter how they rail against you — otherwise you have agreed to rail against the mirror also.

They will be as open books to you and you will always see the highest, most ideal outcome for every person you meet. You must not let yourself be confused by your own magic — the potential you see for them is not necessarily the same as the person they choose to embody. If you attempt to smash the ideal and the “real” together for another, you defile “being” in favor of becoming a tyrannical narrator.

There is a narrow space where you must sever your own desire to meddle with the affairs of others — to exalt their being no matter what it is — even with your own thoughts or “storywriting” because “they” can be influenced by your own contemplation and so you must zealously create a bulwark around your own will to protect them else you will receive “karma.”

You must not become the “Grand Narrator” of reality and this is only avoided by allowing others to write their own stories even if they displease you — even if they are against the highest version of themselves that you can plainly see. You cannot become trapped, tricked or drawn into thinking you can fix them, re-write them or “retcon” them, else you become an actor in their drama and subject to all the stories — their “karma” — they bring with them.

You must allow them to write any story they wish, including their own demise, else you begin to lose a sense of where “you” are and can no longer distill yourself out to avoid entanglement. In other words, you must be able to also recognize your own hubris — your own ego — and accept it, otherwise it will become a pied piper for you for which others cannot help but exploit.

If you omit “being” then you no longer value potential. You dedicate yourself to the gradual eradication of life as it comes under your tyranny. If you omit being, you are afraid of losing your own being even though this is impossible and so reality does its best to fulfill this insanity within your experience and this is achieved through deeper levels of fixation, confusion and mistaking yourself for the “movie.”

If you believe you need to compete, argue or even establish some kind of accord or understanding with the Other, you are in the process of abdicating your throne. To compete requires competitors. To argue requires something to argue about. What is argument but an assertion of your own truth over another’s — a condemnation? It is a fear of your own being from which you need to exert control to protect and so control is exerted back upon you instead.

You always invite the “other side” of the equation whilst you play the polarity game instead of the weightless game. Ego is that which seeks to preserve stagnation. Stagnation is control. They are synonymous.

“Change” or “movement” is synonymous with will or creation. Even the denial of this is simply an obfuscation of change — the “hiding of movement” which begins the inversion process of fixation/density. This causes the world to become oppressive and more physical — a hide and seek game.

To “need” another for anything turns them into an altar — a weight — for which you will serve.

Cooperating and creating with The Other is an organic, emergent property of your own sovereignty. Who belongs in your reality will already be there. This is not the denial of being in favor of your own desires, but being fearless in the recognition of your own “self” and knowing that you cannot omit “yourself” anymore than you can “omit” the Other without leading to death.

You will come to understand that life is not always equal, fair, or balanced. Sometimes you are the giver and sometimes you are the receiver, but you must never become the victim to this truth. You will understand that there are not always answers, or neat explanations. Sometimes what is rational is irrational. Sometimes there is an impetus and sometimes there is not. You must come to understand faith and surrender, which are concepts that require you to discard prerequisites.

It is not resistance that persists, but your rejection of total and absolute responsibility without any arbitrary delineation. The sun and stars themselves are your responsibility. Whatever conditions you decide to exempt including the fundamental mechanics of reality from responsibility will “persist” because you will continually recreate them as a fundamental unit of your qualia/experience.

The farther the Other appears to you, the less they belong there — the truth is self-evident within the “scene” of your qualia — yet they will exist at the edge of your consciousness until they do not — until they are veiled, or forgotten, like a passage in a dusty tome. All within your imagination is possible, including who appears there, all vying for your attention — hoping to gain enough traction to manifest into your visceral sense reality.

This does not make people unreal or figments of your imagination — though to the newly minted it may, because they likely still see the “one world” instead of the infinite multiverse. You must learn to trust the discussions or negotiations you have within yourself — within your own “mind space” — as potential portals or invitations. The mind space is just as real as cupboard in your kitchen. There is no physical distinction.

It is demons or daemons? Look it up.

The less you are able to distinguish what is yours, the more likely you may be negotiating with something that is “outside of your dominion” and wanting entry. You are already telepathic with the entire cosmos, but must accept that when thinking upon another, you are already beginning the process of an invitation or request.

And a warning to those who do not believe or understand this: those who are practiced can DETECT when you are thinking about them and what intentions you have for them. Even non-adepts have a sense of intuition and self-preservation well in advance. You will NEVER interact with someone who does not want you to be there. You can only violate yourself.

Accepting that you have a responsibility to all stories within yourself is a requirement for being. You have entrained yourself to think there is a line between your own mind and the physical world to this responsibility but there is not. There is no line. The Other is as real if they are standing with you in the room as if they are in your own mind. The physical world is itself the “lie” that begins the process of being denial and the source of much suffering.

You may omit being through the exaltation of the physical and thus omit this responsibility, as most humans do, but then the Other will seem unreal and artificial to you. They will gradually separate from you. And the world will depict this separation. They will eventually become oppressors and adversaries because without their own being, they are simply machinations of your own mind to be managed or feared.

The inclusion or omission of being is implicit, or derived from your own sovereignty, for who should & shouldn’t be within your reality ; it is self-emergent and does not need to be managed. The desire to meddle or manage it in-fact just empowers it, rather than allow it in or out.

Free will cannot be violated. You are your own victimizer. You may only invite others who wish to be your victim, or if you wish to become victim. If you want for neither, then this cannot happen. And God does not allow anyone to trap another or be subject to whims they have not chosen. Choice is not a singular moment but a continuum of cultivation.

What people understand as “dreams” is a loosened state of consciousness. This “spirit realm” or ethereal place is where we go to discard or adopt “timelines” — to deflect the haphazard intentions of the Other who have yet to define themselves — or invite the conscious and well-meaning intentions of the Other along the path of enlightenment — but our own continuum is never broken.

It is advisable you carefully assess what intentions you are projecting or holding for Others even as they reside quietly in your “mind.” This includes deception or manipulation of other people’s stories. In other words — judgements, evaluations, comparisons, or intentions whether well-meaning or not. What is well-meaning or a prayer to you may be abject horror to another. It is not your place to decide and you will reap what you sow.

Neither should you create enemies, adversaries or competitors because this is useless ; it is a symptom of one worldism or scarcity thinking that suffocates your potential. A lack of self or self-awareness can create devastating deception and terror.

Someone who is halfway actualized as a being will have a sense of others screwing with them and it will create ripples which create “karma” for you (for which can be experienced in any variety of ways required to transmute & integrate.) They do not need to comprehend this exchange consciously, but will react to it as part of the “physical world” for which they create for themselves. Only adepts will understand that there are nothing is outside of consciousness or intention from someone, somewhere, including yourself. No one chooses evil for themselves, because this represents Nonsense — attempting to turn God “off.”

To some extent this “mutual exploitation (or cooperation)” is unavoidable as we are all flawed and limited on purpose. We are “unified” yet we are still overlords of our own realm. It is up to us to create and enforce boundaries for everyone’s benefit because this protects life’s expressions. You can entrain yourself to never project. You can retain as much malice — or good will — as you wish as long as you do not project it.

Or, if you do decide to project it, the only way to do so while retaining being is to risk your own being. You must do so with the understanding you must accept the consequences of the exchange to remain on your throne because otherwise you cannot reap the rewards — anything else but the highest stakes will neuter them like playing with tokens instead of real money (except it is souls in this gamble.)

This is a very dangerous game — because you never know who may have a better — less obfuscated — connection to God than you. How else can you feel like a dominator, unless you know what it feels like to be dominated? If you lose, then you will be forced back into your own realm to recover. This can occur within the same life, or multiple lifetimes — how ever long it takes to integrate the lesson and “fix your interface.”

I will revisit this discussion in future articles but it bared mentioning as I come to a conclusion.

The more aware someone is of the unity of consciousness, they will dream about the people with intentions for them. Your spirit or dream self cannot lie and will betray what you think as your “physical” self. You are naked in the dream/spiritual/ethereal.

It bares repeating though that even if you allow yourself to become swayed by an invitation or suggestion that is undesirable to you — it is still your fault. Whether you give into good or evil, it is your responsibility. He who triggers first, loses.

Holding yourself or others to “past dreams” (and the “real world” is just a dream that is slowed down, so you must be able to apply your rules universally regardless of space, time, or dimension) is simply a perpetuation of a story that is either valued or not at your own skillful discretion. No one will save you if you begin to believe you cannot save yourself as that is the experience you will create.

No one and nothing is your savior besides God. Only God — life — universe — the infinite fabric of creation — is your savior and your willingness to work with it, or run from it. No one can escape the work to create a relationship with God. If you think you can coast on a house of cards, then a “sudden move is all it takes” — the first spinning plate to fall will shatter your reality.

Anger & resentment are where your ego hide ; this is what the boundaries of yourself feel like because you will always invite anger and resentment as you move your unique expression. It will irritate these boundaries and creation is messy.

I haven’t written in awhile and just wanted to throw some stuff out there. That will do for now. Out.

The older I get, the less objections I seem to have to the phrase “All is One.”

As an extension of our last article: “What is natural?“, essentially all distortion can be traced directly back your distance from from God — from life — from people. From your “qualia” — your experience. Again, distance being a hide-and-seek game with your own will.

For the context of this article, what is “distortion?”

Distortion is most easily understood as fear, but manifests more as consumption (as in, the consumption or expiration of your experiential world), but it is technically whatever isolates you further within yourself and lengthens the time between your decisions and the execution of your will.

I use the term fixation rather than density, because it is easy to imagine yourself fixating on something — on focusing on something with intent. When you understand this idea of fixation, you can work backwards to connect yourself to the idea of the “world” you are experiencing before you. You can “broaden your horizons” knowing that you are the horizons.

Density is a little harder to convey, in my opinion. Density suggests a heaviness, which can be felt but easily missed. Density doesn’t relate you to your experience quite as well. I use the word fixation because it lets you sink your teeth into the idea through a simple exercise. Look closely at any object near you. Now, unfocus your gaze and take in as much of your room as possible.

When you are unfocused like this, do you feel different? I want you to note the feeling between the two perspectives. Do you see how you “exclude” the background when you are focused? And do you see how when you “broaden your horizons”, you include everything? This is similar to how you may have viewed the world when you were a child and closer to a “natural state.” Now use your imagination and see how you may “fixate” like this on other ideas, concepts or people beyond your sensory perceptions as well.

Here is another trick. If something requires more story, you can consider it to have a higher density or higher fixation.

When you become focused on the details rather than the canvas, you are practicing fixation. There is nothing wrong with fixation. Some level of fixation is needed. When you are concerned about granularity, or micromanaging, you are fixating. Fixation might be described as tension, like winding a cord up. It often correlates to fear. If you are concerned more with survival than living, you are fixating.

Life is “default” so you simply need to “get out of the way.” You do not need to “survive.” Survival is a choice of experience — a misuse of your will — seeing the forest as adversarial and something to conquer, rather than your salvation. A particular way that you are formulating your reality in order to experience lack, or a particular limitation. You are arbitrary dividing your scene and pretending it is not there or something that must be usurped or dominated, which simply causes the scene to control you instead.

Distortion — Nonsense / anti-life — will denial — God denial — life denial — begins with fixation.

Fixation is essentially “will denial.” While some some level of fixation is desirable, this article will focus on dysfunctional levels of fixation. Dysfunctional fixation results from being non-actualized, or not understanding that you are “part of the all.” Denial of your circumstances or choices because you are denying your part of the whole and so creating obstacles for you to challenge or compete with. It is not knowing yourself and reacting rather than intending. It is a rejection (ejection) of the Collective — of God — of the “silent observer/executive.”

Competing with yourself is not possible. Even if The Other possesses its own agency, that agency has been granted by you, and so functionally they are you, even if you value (and so willfully invest) the distinction and separation. So why are you competing with yourself? The well-being and function of The Other first depends on our pure belief and intention towards them. If it is distorted, then The Other will also be distorted.

You do not think you are in control of agency? No one can make you do anything against your will. If you believe the destruction of your scene represents “you”, you are still lost in fixation. If you believe your will can be taken, you also fundamentally believe you can take will from others — so you open yourself up to these possibilities. If you become defensive, or indignant about this idea, or want to counter with examples of violation of your will, you are victimizing yourself and that is the investment you are creating — so that is exactly what you will continue to experience.

If you create your own adversaries, they will happily take from you because that’s what you are seeing (creating). If you feel you must compete, you will create a world to satisfy this need. This does not make the participants any less real, because you also value the realness upon you, likely because in dysfunctional states of fixation, you have no idea what you are actually valuing.

You cannot create a “counter will.” All you do is destroy yourself — consume — to pretend that this is possible. And so reality will do its “best” to attempt to create a story that cannot exist — anti-will — which will be reflected back to you as conflict, consumption, and entropy.

As distortion rises, reality literally “breaks down” — as it in, it breaks into further pieces and contains “more complexity.” Again, to some degree, this is desirable. This is how we craft stories. As I spoke in the last article, as fixation increases, more technology is required to achieve the execution of will (“automation” which is anything but.) The technology acts as essentially a kind of egregor — a “daemonic (see programming language) spirit” or “magical” golem — whose job is keep your will farther and farther away from you to maintain the illusion that your will is not immediate. You think it is serving you, when it is really just acting as a sink for your will.

That’s a reminder, by the way, that your will is always immediate. You are living in a world where this is highly deceptive/concealed from you because of your level of fixation. If that makes you uncomfortable, then simply consider yourself as a conduit for God, or the divine, or God’s servants — it makes no informative difference.

You do not think your will is immediate? What is happening when you imagine? Your will is done. It is there. You are experiencing it. In the space you have pretended to hide away from yourself. That "black space" somewhere "up there."

Who told you that you are inside a brain? Did you have any experience of brains before someone gave you the idea? Or is the brain a story-byproduct of your level of fixation to explain your loss of will? How would you even know? Can you "jump outside" of your brain? Does handling someone else's grey matter prove you are inside yours?

Hmm.

You can easily detect changes in your own fixation which can help gauge your own level of consciousness development. Your predominant environment is highly indicative of your level of fixation because you cannot be extracted from your own scene. If you cannot snap your fingers and exit your environment, you are in a fixated realm and have no choice but to learn & master the rules, because they are your rules established by your cumulative decisions. No one can do this for you.

Your scene derives from “the entirety of you” so you are always at your “apex. ” So you “are” what you tolerate or wake up to everyday.

These are notable features that will appear in the world/realm in question –>

Now let us talk about THE MATCHMAKER.

In video games, a matchmaker assess certain values that belong to a “PLAYER” and then tries to find other players who possess similar values and put them together to “play” to create a fair playing ground. If you do not play video games, you may be familiar with ELO in Chess, or similar ranking mechanisms in other sports, which arranges matches based on an evaluation of a player’s skill.

The real world works exactly like this.

What are your “matchmaking variables?” They are essentially a kind of complex energetic signature that is an accumulation of your intention and the execution of your will. They are the “momentum of your willful investments.” Where your investments crossover with the investments of others creates a sort of “venn diagram” of reality.

They are not frequency or vibes, but let us briefly touch on those because they are extremely valuable systems in their own right that may help you and for all intents and purposes you can borrow those ideas to help you on your journey.

In some circles, this matching is thought to be done by one’s “frequency” because it is often correlated to the electromagnetic spectrum. In fact, in these circles, feelings & emotions are often associated with a scale where they are more or less “fixated.” This is why music feels a certain way — low tones feel broad, earthy, comforting or scary — and high tones are sharp and airy (also see chakras) — but this is simply the story that has been correlated over time. It is built after the fundamental nature of free will. It is a useful aperture — an interface. The emotion is before the frequency assignment.

Once you understand alchemy — turning lead to gold (which is describing something you can do in your mind, which will later show up the physical world) — frequency doesn’t cut it. This “mathematical” assignment of God’s paints is, in my opinion, a “less right” explanation and leads to what I call a One True Path problem.

You cannot unify God — life, your own will, the “scene”, and so on — if you are only allowed to paint with part of your canvas, but this does not mean every painting is coherent, or life-giving. Philosophy and spirituality is the intersection where we discover what is life-destroying versus life-affirming and God “learns” forever — as in whatever you know, God knows. You are always adding, essentially, to God’s glory or library even if you don’t speak to a soul.

What is alchemy? This is its own topic, but essentially alchemy is the process of rejecting the suggested reality, and substituting your own. You can’t do this unless you have an intimate understanding and belief of what is suggestive. If you believe something is not subject to your willful meddling, then it is not (not subject to it and becomes ‘fixed’ and no amount of substitution will work for you unless you address underlying principles.) As I often point out over and over, it should be emphasized that there are certain absolutes that cannot be violated even with alchemy unless you wish to bring extreme suffering upon yourself. And you cannot fake belief. There is a period of practice and integration.

A simple example of alchemy is turning one emotion into another like anxiety into excitement or anger into passion. You can gradually quiet a busy mind by replacing it with silence. More advanced forms are things like visualization. You visualize your ideal life and live within it before it “arrives.” You can use alchemy to gradually make substitutions that eventually settle into your fixated consciousness — your unconscious, your soul, or DNA.

Electromagnetism is a byproduct of more dense realities attempting to explain more fundamental universal mechanics which are based on raw will and “stories.” Would you ever use the color “red” in a painting if you thought it was evil, or bad? No, you would condemn yourself to a particular “band” of colors forgetting that the other colors exist — and exist for a reason.

Sometimes you need to use red and only red will do — but if you have permanently associated it with “always evil” what happens? Then you have created a “weight” for which the entire universe comes to service — a blackhole sucking everything towards it. You have created a hierarchy, because that’s what a blackhole is — a pyramid — a pit — and do you remember our chart above?

You have also created a place where you can be controlled & trapped because you have created holy cows, but I’ll leave that for another article.

Consider this color example when you impart weights to other areas of your life, not just in the physical, but in the mental as well. If they are out of balance, they will gradually suck you towards it and that's right -- create fixation. Before you know it a simple vice is now a demon (daemon -- automation) which rules your life.

Your feelings are perfect feedback mechanisms given to you by God. They are pure methods of navigation and superior in every way to words, or thought. If you introduce doubt or deception into these mechanisms — that is a choice you are making — you are severely screwing with yourself — excuse my language, but the emphasis is needed here.

If you assign a color code, for example, to the color blue, you may think that you are describing the spectrum from which blue is derived, but this is an inversion. Blue exists before your description. You are effectively trying to put a binding or curse on the color blue to control how it arrives to you. This is fixation — tantrum throwing — false control. Blue is already within you — you have no need to create “extra steps” for it to control it, or manipulate it into doing what you want.

If you wish to experience the color blue, it is done. It is there. It needs no additional explanation. To assign additional explanation is to agree to imbue your reality with additional complexity — fixation. It is that simple. Who else would be imposing that upon you except you? If you blame the world for being “the way it is” then you are fixating / disowning your will again and throwing a tantrum.

Take a moment to check out these excellent charts collected TALKNET –> https://talknet.substack.com/p/mapping-the-levels-of-consciousness <– These are highly insightful, useful and illuminating but demonstrate the subtle problem I describe here.

If you do not see blue, or red, or green “as themselves”, or similarly, peace, anger, or happiness as “themselves”, then you are giving those things a weight (a frequency or a number value, etc.) which immediately begins to impart a thrust/momentum/trajectory of story upon your universal canvas. It is different to favor a certain palette and another to insist that one palette is superior to another. If you are not careful, you will get swept away by your own creation. This is why I insist you cease thinking in terms of polarity or opposites. God is weightless.

Jesus & the empty cave, the Egyptians and the soul that is ‘light as a feather’, the Buddha and the middle path and so on.

Electromagnetism is just another philosophy used to produce a particular “brand” of reality. For book nerds out there, it is just another “magic system.” In my opinion and extremely restrictive one born from constant Stockholm Syndrome & bargaining with Nonsense (short: fear, the devil, separation, etc.) on a long enough time scale.

Have you heard the phrase “As Above, So Below?” This phrase is another way of expressing UNITY, or “All is One.” They are functionally indifferent. Your “perceived” reality extends in all directions for as far as you can imagine — so to the farthest corners of the universe, because there is nothing “outside” of you. “Where” would that be? It is complete Nonsense. As soon as you have imagined “outside”, you have created it. Can you “think of nothing?” Nope.

This is a clue you are immortal, by the way, if you pay attention.

Your ideas of people, places, “Earth” are all inside of you. Right there. You just thought about them. Where are they? Out there? Out there is “inside you” too. Your sense of being inside your body and the world outside of it is still inside of you. Are you getting it yet?

You are the center point (yes, as is everyone else — it takes time to understand “how” multiple perspectives can both exist, be absolute and not collide — but you’ll get there) which creates the frame for which the light of God disperses.

In the video game, Cyberpunk 2077, there is a technology called braindance where you can load memories from other humans and experience them as if they were yours. This concept so beautifully, if hauntingly, demonstrated in the game can be used as a philosophical exercise to help elucidate where your "true self" resides and it may not be where you think it is.

If your sense of self can be fooled -- as it is when the memories of others are loaded -- then your sense of self is not within the loaded memories -- which seems obvious to most. What is not obvious is that when you remove the braindance, the world you return to is still not you (we are pretending we are not talking about a video game here.)


Your own life is just another walking braindance waiting for someone else to load, so how can "you" be there? You have fooled yourself into thinking you are not just in another layer of the same dream. A braindance within a braindance within a braindance.

If you subtract the braindance from "your waking self", you find the false "identity" -- which is present in both places -- as a pure concept without the fetters of ego or contextual memory, which shows how this is "not you" but a weight or a fixation you have valued that keeps you trapped.

What happens when you become so enamored with the experience you forget you are dreaming/playing/have a headset on/can't see the mirror anymore/etc.? This leads to higher density/higher fixation realities and suffering.

You must understand that your paradigm — your interface to God — is highly personal to you. You are simply too complex to “share” interface so it is entirely up to you how to create it. No one else can do it for you. You can reach agreements or “contracts” with others to guide or assist, but they cannot make alterations to your interface — your soul, your DNA, and so on — although you may trick yourself into letting them.

And what a boring reality it would be if everyone had the same interface ... Hello, Borg?

Those who are weighted towards Nonsense are fundamentally investing in methods of false control born out of fear. Investing in control creates an environment that will control you because how else do you experience control? You have to break down -- fixate -- reality into pieces that are for the controller and the controlled. But this is a slippery slope.

The more you bear down, the more tension you create, the more you are pouring this false control into reality that creates a kind of control bloodhound that will hound you.

When one reaches the top of this pyramid (the bottom of the blackhole), the hound becomes a ravenous monster that must be fed all the time. If you ever stop feeding it, it will devour you and the pyramid will invert (this is to show you are staring in a mirror). This is your own will returning to you.
In the video game Amnesia: The Dark Descent, the protagonist chooses to remove his memories in an attempt to save himself from a darkness that is hounding him. Daniel, the protagonist, commits atrocities in order to abate the pursuit of the darkness. Amnesia is synonymous with reincarnation and the darkness is synonymous with your own will returning. Some call this "karma", but karma is simply consequences which are neither negative or positive. Amnesia is required when the darkness (the consequences or re-integration of will) is too much for you to handle.

Why is this important to acknowledge? Because you are in complete control of who you want to match to you.

The matchmaker is also often described as a “vibe.” This is a little closer, because vibe gives a good indication of your fixation level, which gives you a sense of how much will available to you. However, your feelings are still only tools to making decisions. They are SUGGESTIVE! Meaning, they have no power over your will (decision) making capability until you feed them.

It is the apparatus of understanding decisions, understanding that your reality is always done (your “imagination” could be considered the “true reality” whilst your Earthly experience is a buffered “delusion”) — recognizing the inbetween is suggestive Nonsense to ignore and “waiting for your will to catch up.” Creating a functional connection between these “places” that allows you to live a harmonious life requires skill.

The problem with vibe is that it could create what gamers sometimes call ELO Hell.

Elo hell (also known as MMR hell) is a video gaming term used in MOBAs and other multiplayer online games with competitive modes.[1] It refers to portions of the matchmaking ranking spectrum where individual matches are of poor quality, and are often determined by factors such as poor team coordination which are perceived to be outside the individual player’s control. This ostensibly makes it difficult for skilled players to “climb” up the matchmaking ranking (and out of Elo hell), due to the difficulty of consistently winning games under these conditions. Its existence in various games has been debated, and some game developers have called it an illusion caused by cognitive bias.[2]

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Elo_hell

In other words — if you believe vibe is the fundamental parameter for matchmaking, this would create a situation where you could trap yourself. If you became stuck with your vibe, such as with anger or resentment, you could fall into a kind of death spiral/loop from which you could not escape because the universe would constantly arrange people & scenarios to keep you there forever (because remember it is your will that just keeps going and going unless you shift it.) You could never change your “vibe.”

But this is not how this works. See my Groundhog’s Day article for additional information.

You can plug back into God at any time. You can give up the illusion that you are not in control by surrendering to the choices you already have coming to you. Deny your choices and you are simply creating more inversion because the light cannot be turned off.

Denial of choice is like trying to put your hand in front of a flashlight, then becoming upset when everything goes dark, while becoming indignant that there is a hand blocking out all the light, while forgetting it is your hand.

As you surrender back into your own will, your progress towards what I call “buffer reduction” is notable by how fixation (density) begins to decrease. It is measurable and can be felt, so you have an accurate barometer. Surrender often requires faith because it is not always pleasant.

You cannot willfully create a situation for yourself that does not have an “exit” even if you try because you cannot destroy yourself. You can continually victimize yourself — drive yourself into deeper levels of Hell (see last article) — until you wake up, but that is all. No one is doing this to you except yourself.

The deeper into hell you go (which is incoherence resulting in the denial of God — not vibe or frequency), the more fragmented you become. In other words, you will force yourself into “reincarnation” lives in order to handle the suffering you have brought upon yourself. You are splitting yourself in order to handle all the burden of playing out fixation.

True “hells” only exist within never-realized dreams, because even the most lost soul is not capable of torturing itself beyond a certain point (nothing can “reside” in suffering for long — as this represents the literal loss of soul-stability / coherence — without deciding to change its will as an animal-like reflex which begins to produce positive changes) and so would be pointless. “You” will make choices to minimize your suffering, because you can’t “not exist” — even if you are making incorrect choices — you will eventually get it right.

The best way to understand the matchmaker is that it works on your personal intentions and looks for other players who want to play with you. Do you have good intentions? Bad intentions? Deceptive intentions? Are you being honest with yourself? Do you know the lyrics to SWEET DREAMS by Eurythmics?

[Chorus]
Sweet dreams are made of this
Who am I to disagree?
I travel the world and the seven seas
Everybody’s looking for something

[Verse]
Some of them want to use you
Some of them want to get used by you
Some of them want to abuse you
Some of them want to be abused

Everyone is constantly arranging matches to satisfy their intentions. Everyone is casting for roles and we are fulfilling them without end. You have people coming your way you haven’t even met where everyone’s intentions are fulfilled without error.

Are you open to allowing? To receiving? Do you need to control the situation with an iron fist, or can you allow some potential, or unpredictability? Can you allow people to be? Are they potential lovers & allies, or are they potential enemies and adversaries? Are you guarded or vulnerable? These are all examples of subtle matchmaking parameters that affect your intentions beyond the obvious “I want a cake today.”

The physical apparently “seamless” reality you experience is completely irrelevant. You value the seamlessness, so you the world seems to go from one place to another without appearing like a jumbled dream — but it doesn’t. Time and space do not exist except as “feelings” which produce the effect. You are always within your own realm and it follows you wherever you go. Where are you when you dream? Certainly not still in your Earthly body except as the idea that you are that anchors you there.

Do you really believe that in a world as complex as this you shouldn’t have been killed by the smallest of details a thousand times over? You have. But those timelines are pointless to your soul’s development, but are also impossible because you cannot “live in death.” You can only fool yourself into pretending to be dead through more elaborate depictions of suffering & undeath quote “outside” unquote yourself and as pain.

If you cannot handle your suffering, you will “reincarnate” until you can reclaim your will and restore coherence. You will cast away any memory upon “death” that is too painful to give yourself breathing room when you are “born” again — but it will still return to you eventually.

I dislike the word reincarnate because really you are just creating a new dream reality with parameters you feel necessary to bringing you to your heart’s intentions / desires / the increased coherence of your soul.

Since we reject both frequency and vibe in favor of raw intention as the primary matchmaking parameter, then this forces us to realize some sobering truths. Since free will is absolute and will cannot conflict with another, then what happens when our intentions seem to intersect or violate the will of another?

Feelings are indicators of both the state of your own WAVE and who is intersecting or playing with you. Has anyone ever made you feel creepy, or scared? Don’t ignore those feelings. They are making a matchmaking request of you and asking if you would like to play with them. If you consent, then no will is violated, because you really are just agreeing to feed the experiences of creepiness and fear.

Does that example seem too obvious? Like don’t go down dark alleys?

Here is a simple way to think about it: Have you ever had these feelings when no one is around? That is still someone or someones making a matchmaking request of you. If you permit it, then you will be aligned to realities where you will meet these people, or create these feelings & experiences. You could be in the wilderness with no one around and still would be choosing what to experience. Not so obvious now, right?

These feelings do not need to be negative. In fact, we want to be highly selective of our most treasured feelings and cultivate these. Some of us value peace, others excitement — whatever you cultivate will be fundamental to how the matchmaker works for you.

The title of this site is EX INANIS which I have defined as meaning “leaving the inane”, or “leaving nonsense”, or creating from nothing. At the heart of EX INANIS is alchemy. What reality do you want to live in?

When you understand that your feelings may not be your own, don’t you have a responsibility — a duty — to protect the feelings that not only you value, but that are valuable to the Collective? To God? To protect what enriches life? If you do not protect God or life, why should God/life protect you? You are depriving it by your own omission to protect it, so it is taken from you as a free-will choice.

If you do not tolerate certain feelings within yourself because they destroy or consume life or expression, you implicitly are not tolerating them in others, either — and so these people are ejected from your reality by your own choice. See my vampirism article for a little bit about what can happen when people are ejected from your reality.

You say that sounds like vibe? But what I am telling you is not a up-and-down scale — where there is a “bad spectrum of vibes” and a “good spectrum of vibes.” You can pick and choose. When you understand vibes are suggestive, you can select whatever you want to cultivate like planting seeds. You can create unique signatures and impose these to create matchmaking parameters. This is why it is “intention” or a “bundle of decisions” not vibe.

But both vibe and frequently will not lead you wrong either and I encourage you to look into those systems.

I dislike vibe because it makes you a victim of your own prior choices ; confuses surrender with the idea that you have no input whatsoever. You are a gardener planting what you want to experience and then surrendering to the time it takes to grow. You are not a log thrown into a river, surrendering to whatever the river has in store for you. Of course, if we value life/experience, we cannot control all variables — but that takes us back to discussions about potential & determinism.

I love sunshowers. They are paradoxical. Warm & cold. Dark & light. It feels like peace to me — right in the middle. An exemplification of my philosophy. It is a unique mixture of states, isn’t it? Can you come up with creative feelings? I bet you can.

As I like to say, that is enough for now.

The best definition of natural can be summarized as: ‘a measure of distance from God.’

Now, what do we mean by distance?

God is your immediate scene. The context. It is life. Your immediate qualia. It is everything that is derived from “you.” It is all around you and everything within you. The seen and the unseen. This is Unity, or the practice of unifying everything you experience — the physical world, the mental world, the subtle (invisible relationships, definitions, meaning) and other people — as “one.”

While this article will not address this, it always requires a disclaimer: Some people on the spiritual path are uncomfortable with the concept of the "I" once we start understanding Unity as if our ultimate end is the removal of the "I" to melt together. This knowledge will still be useful to you if you believe this, but I -- see what I did there -- believe it creates a omission, or a hole, if you "eject yourself" via "ego denial" and then you have broken Unity. You can recognize you are part of the "all" while maintaining value over your part in it.

When you understand this Unity, then anything that imposes a weight upon it can be considered a distance. In order to have experience — in order to impose some sense of order upon the cacophony of omniscience — we must impart these weights. Weights might also be considered judgements, or boundaries. The way you experience a flower is a collection of boundaries.

You must have a concept of perspective — seeing behind your eyes — a sense of physical distance — the space between you and the flower — the texture of the petals, the scent, the shape — are all boundaries that are required for you to have an experience. There are more subtitles that are hidden here as well like disowning a part of your will to allow a sense that the flower is ‘not you’, that allows the flower to borrow your will to grow and so on.

The more you align yourself to God, the more you must get out of the way of yourself to express God. Some misinterpret this as ejecting the ego, but if you do not recognize your own role, your own will, how can God?

The natural world is considered natural because it exists without conscious intervention. It is “organic” meaning that it arises on its own — there is a foundation before our interaction with it. A house requires a foundation, walls, a roof — which require materials taken from the natural world, which require work done upon them to be turned into the intended form. This is “distance.”

What is the distance between a house, for example, and a computer chip in terms of ‘naturalness’? This is always measured in terms of the story something requires to exist. This must be differentiated from story that is imposed after the fact, and the story that is inherent. There is nothing you need to know about a flower for it to exist. It just does.

On the other hand …

A computer chip requires significant distance — it requires rare materials (which require mines, specialized equipment, etc.), specialized factories (and their dependencies), the dependence of electricity which has thousands of physical dependencies — and we haven’t even begun to address the mental dependencies because this technology requires a very particular “philosophical” orientation to come into being before it ever arrives in the “physical world.”

Whereas a house might just be considered a cave with some leaves and branches.

The description of the physical world is inescapably a subjective evaluation — a “story” for which the collective chooses for its best interests from which the “objective” illusion is created. But the natural world is before this “evaluation.” It does not require it — it “just is.”

Thus the cave would be considered very natural and the computer chip would seem very unnatural.

Does this seem obvious to you? Perhaps, but have you considered the ramifications it has upon your consciousness? Your spirit?

The more distance something is from God, the more weight it bears upon your soul. The more effort it requires to maintain. The more altars it requires for sacrifice.

I call this fixation, but we might also call it density and in either case we can consider this distance as a loss of ownership, or a loss of will. You are in a constant state — a spiral, if you will — of resolving back to your will. You are always “throwing your will out” and then catching up to it. This loss of will creates a buffer which requires time to resolve and it creates the experience we call life versus an experience we would call abject chaos.

You can experience a closer state of the fundamental universe in dreams where there is less order, but both your waking reality and dreams are the same place. Let us say that the expertise of your soul is that which creates a stable interface for which you impose your particular brand of order upon the universe. This is your “waking reality” when you bear down on the chaos of the universe as only you can.

Some manner of fixation is required to have any experience at all. It is your decision how far you want to throw this will away from God. This isn’t a singular decision, (nor is it an ethical one) but an eternal continuum of decisions. You are deciding how “dense” you want to become. There is no wrong answer here, but there are inherent absolutes baked into the nature of the universe for which you cannot escape or ignore and it is possible to become lost.

The heavier you are, the less will you have (the farther away you have thrown it), the more time you experience and the slower your decisions — your will — takes to resolve. It will feel as if you require more work in order to obtain any results. In fact, the more dense you become, the more automated reality will appear to you — that is, your reality will start to resemble the inside of a computer — because you are investing more and more of your will into your physical world to see your will fulfilled which requires more external automation versus immediate execution (and experience) of your will.

This is why the world keeps getting more automated, but it seems like no one is getting more free time. It isn’t malicious or nefarious, it is inherent to how fixation manifests and must play out.

Denser realities always proceed along a trajectory that makes them resemble computers because this is the “natural consequence” of designing an unnatural reality. It is a reality that gradually destroys potential in favor of creating certainty of outcomes because it is fundamentally based in fear.

The further along the spectrum of fear you travel, the more you reject higher concepts like faith, surrender and compassion, because these require being comfortable with unknowns. Compassion is inherently allowing others to be even if they may hurt you, which also requires inherently trusting (another higher concept) yourself to overcome.

Your natural will is instantaneous and immediately done. Consider that carefully. This is always true, even now, no matter how “slow” or “fast” your reality appears to you. If you are imagining anything at all, then it already exists. If it didn’t, you couldn’t imagine it. The space you hold as your “invisible mind” is just another story that separates you from this immediate will.

You are already being swept along towards the focus of your will right now.

Let us return then to the concept of naturalness. If you value the faster execution of your will, you will place tremendous value on living as naturally as possible.

Consider eating fruits & vegetables versus eating something that is processed & packaged. What have we learned? By opting for the ladder, you willingly choosing to invest in a story which tosses your will out a greater distance. Thus your body requires more effort to convert and digest the processed & packaged food in order to return it to you as your own will. This “inbetween time” you experience as physical symptoms that arise within the body, whether they are simply uncomfortable digestion, or actual disease.

Similarly, do you live in a house of concrete & metal? Then you are opting to “hold space” for unnatural materials, which do what? They weigh your soul down. You “feel” this in the coldness of the metal, or the “deadness” in things like plastics. You must learn to recognize that these are not just the textures of these materials but real energetic signatures which indicate the fluidity of your will.

Do we want to achieve teleportation? Then the collective must learn to gradually value cars & planes less — which indicate that we value the experience of putting ourselves in metal boxes and “traveling perceived distance” as an experience — over simply “being there.” When we begin to cultivate our environment back to God, we are putting ourselves back to our natural state of immediate will and reality will begun to miraculously come up with excuses (stories) to close distances.

Have you ever driven somewhere and became so mesmerized that you just kind of arrived at your destination without much recollection of the space you just drove? This is a perfect example of what is required to just "be there" without the extra steps of "driving there." You create the extra steps because your unconscious has been conditioned to do so and so your will obeys to create this experience for you.

Can you tap into the feeling that exists in-between the start and the end where you seemed to just arrive? It is a small, fragile feeling that wants to evade your detection.

Now you understand that you need to be able to recall this feeling on demand -- it must be second nature to you -- and you have to believe it. How many years do you think that will take? 50? 100? 1000? How much about yourself do you need to change first to even start on this? Why are you waiting around?

It is so much easier to just keep the physicalism/materialism story going, isn't it? Order take-out, watch a movie, blame something else ... Or perhaps invent a bandage solution like a car or a plane (science is an obsession -- that's right, a fixation -- of deep avoidance, or need for complacency -- see my prior article: Science & AI) rather than do the deep introspective and often painful work to uncover these buried aspects of consciousness. But not all of us are built the same. I don't expect anyone to value freedom as much as I do.

How do you feel about eating meat? Uh-oh, I hear your groaning … but don’t jump to conclusions here.

I am not here to sell you on a diet. I am here to demonstrate how we interface to God. We are interface designers and each one of us has a unique interface that will not work for anyone else. We are designing an ideal interface to God that allows us to experience a purer and more elevated reality.

So what story does meat tell at this density — at this level of fixation? Meat inherently contains the story of death and suffering. Thus the soul must transmute these stories whenever it is consumed. We have not achieved a level of mastery where we might consider meat like a video game character — as a free-standing story — where meat requires no dependence — where it just materializes out of thin air because we are so integrated to God that we do not need “explanations.”

No, our soul still requires explanations. We require too much verisimilitude — we are not prepared to disregard the origins of something and just accept it “as-is”, like the color blue, or what a laugh feels like — so we must take responsibility for the history our soul has valued to this point. We cannot reject the reality which derives from us without creating a state of resistance, which creates repetition as the denial is simply recognized as a “re-investment” from the perspective of the universe/God. But we can release and gradually let go of these stories through their recognition.

In this context, we cannot fool ourselves from where meat arrives. The story is “too heavy” to simply discard, much like attempting to deny the sun rises. An animal must be killed, skinned and cooked. Honor and respect can expedite the transmutation, but the process must occur regardless and continues to perpetuate a reality that must consume in order to exist which is unavoidably a lower and less coherent state of consciousness. It would be better to avoid these stories altogether if we value purifying our will.

I am not here to advice you to become vegetarian, but rather demonstrate to you how you are creating varying levels of fixation. You are not going to hell because you eat meat, but whether you are compelled by ethics, health or — as I am — the greater coherence of life & God — then we are doing ourselves a disservice by assimilating complexity rather than simplicity.

The topic of diet is a complex one — the stories we have about food are as important as the food themselves. A carnivorous diet may be the path to enlightenment for one, or simply a stop along the road that is required to unravel particular stories someone has about where their personal health derives. You must understand your relationship to food in order to unravel the story upon how it affects your health. It is not universal. It cannot be dictated by authorities — only advised by other’s experiences.

So do not go throwing out your chicken because I may have convinced you that meat is “dense” — you must skillfully discern how to raise your fixation and not haphazardly make major alterations to your personal paradigm. You need to understand why food creates health, or destroys it. I will have some more articles about food & diet in the future, but it is not nearly as simple as meat is bad and veggies are good — I have simply used this as another example to highlight naturalness.

When you come to understand this concept, then you can probably think of many other examples. Consider, for example, how convenience creates distance, because what is convenience except a soft version of automation? And what is automation but a warning sign of fixation where will has become its own kind of boss making all sorts of delayed demands of your time? Automation is a chronic breadcrumber.

Would you value a cellphone more, or simply a telepathic transmission? Does the internet help connect you to people — or does it simply “hide” them from you so you can deal with them at your convenience? How does this impact their realness to you — or their artificialness (their naturalness)?

Would you value consuming food for your permission to live or simply exist where food is another source of joy? Does consuming food add value to your life, or does it create a source of fear to you? Is a packaged meal really more “convenient”? What is the story you are writing with this “food convenience” which tells yourself that food is a chore, or a dead weight so you can get back to — what? Living? How does investing in the devaluation of life create more living?

Would you rather live in rows of geometric cubes stacked on one another, or a Hobbit hole? Do you know the difference between lively and busy? One feels as if it contains life while the other is simply dead movement. Does a city feel lively or busy? Does a forest feel lively or busy?

What feels better — waking up without an alarm clock, or with one? Do your fondest memories resolve around schedules or spontaneity, randomness and the unexpected? Are your relationships with people best when they are predictable and rote or unpredictable and surprising?

Note, technology does not have to be unnatural. Rather, naturalness should be understood in terms of how it enhances coherence, or destroys it. We must learn to ask whether technology brings us closer to God — or if it moves us farther away? Is it a tool — or our master? Do we become more connected (less dense, less fixated) or less connected (more dense, more fixated)? Maybe forcing ourselves out of our natural rhythm is a bad use of alarm clocks, but I am sure we have all used one to bake a pie.

Consider that all of life is a spectrum between total free will (God — omnipotence) and determinism (physical reality — no choices.) Your job is to create an acceptable balance between the two. It is up to you how you wish to organize it.

Consider carefully how much unknown or potential you value versus how much known or predictability you value as these correlate precisely to God and physical reality with you caught in between. God is what is natural — the origination of all things. Everything else is a “percentage of God.” Consider this also: 100% Natural God is the same as 0% Natural God. You can be neither without terminating all experience, which is a state of Nonsense.

What kind of world do you want to live in? A natural one — or an unnatural one? Do you have a specific ratio in mind? It is up to you. I know my answer.

That’s enough for today.

How do you make your decisions? Do you plan for tomorrow? Do you consider yesterday?

You shouldn’t.

You already know everything you need to know right now. The moment you step forward or back — you have become lost. Much like the moment you argue with anything or anyone — you lose.

Tomorrow doesn’t exist. Today depends on tomorrow — not the other way around. What you do today does not produce “tomorrow” but what you expect for tomorrow DOES produce today, because tomorrow is just a story you are holding in your mind. That is how the illusion of time is created.

It is the heavy burden of yesterday & today that creates the “sequence” of your “now” experience that is so misleading. It is the expectations of this sequence that keeps you moving from one page to the next, rather than skipping ahead or changing books.

Reality does not divide neatly into yesterday, today, or tomorrow, but the rising of the sun & moon, the tracking of calendars and the outputs of clocks give clever devices to fooling you. When you sleep, you loosen the reins of your iron grip for a little while on this game you are playing and let the universe play with you a little more freely.

When you understand that numbers on a clock and the sun in the sky are part of a “program” deep within yourself then you understand your entire experience is “you.”

All of these things produce expectations, habits and motions in which you continually repeat “sequence” even when the sequence no longer serves you, or turns into suffering. It creates the “buffer” of reality, like a boomerang you are throwing in every moment. But the throwing of the boomerang is the mistake in the first place — not a design to glorify.

You are the clocks, the sun, the moon and the stars. You are the land, the houses, the people. But they are also themselves and they join you at your request. And they are everywhere and nowhere. You are what is happening on the “computer screen” of your experience that unfolds in the boundaries of your senses, including what unfolds in the privacy of your mind.

With this apprehension of Unity, time loses all meaning, because in the totality of “you” time loses the context it requires to work. When you remove the stage, what does time measure? Time requires a start and an end — an introduction and an epilogue — but you have no such thing and are no such thing.

Only “segments” can be measured. Only stories that require sequence, because time is just a coordinate between two points — a reference. You are imposing this upon yourself because you value this sequence — this stability. But continuum and sequence are not the same thing and an immortal chooses sequence when it serves him and discards it when it does not — while maintaining his continuum.

“What” is deciding to maintain this continuum over sequence? That is the real you. It is silent. It does not speak. It does not think.

Time is part of the “scene” like a leaf on a tree. The time has a meaning, just as the leaf has a meaning, but only in the context of the story that it appears within.

Time requires an agreement of a “place” to monitor — it requires an agreement of segments and divides — of history and expectations. But what happens when this agreement is broken, disregarded or discarded? What happens when this agreement is offered from different perspectives — different people? Then the stage becomes interchangeable. And if the stage is interchangeable then time is just part of the scene, like a tree standing in a field. You cannot perceive the tree without the ground and the background. It is just paint on a canvas.

A clock becomes merely an interchangeable photograph, measuring nothing but a memory, or a place or description in your imagination.

If you go to work everyday at the same time — say 6AM — is it that you are responding to the stimulus of the alarm clock going off at 6AM, or surrendering your will to a “play” in which you feel the sensation of waking, getting dressed and driving to work? You are not the scene and the “time” is part of the scene that you keep agreeing to play out. You are behind the scene. Your sense of agency & lucidity come after, because they are already baked into what you “are” and they are forever and constant.

It is just as fake as arriving sharply at a theater production at 7PM and there is a clock on stage as part of the story that reads 2PM. Neither the clock on stage, as you watch in the audience, or the clock you used to arrive at the theater is any more real. They are both part of the same scene — YOUR scene.

An immortal does not give a second thought to the idea of tomorrow, because the immortal is completely aligned to his expression of life and what he wants to experience. And so this aligns him to others of like-kind. To spare one moment worrying about tomorrow opens the door to creating delay — to misusing your will in a way that creates extra time for yourself.

The plan? You already know the plan, because you can only do what you can do right now. What else could you do? You must rise from bed and live. You must make “decisions” whether this is to sit still or move forward, or dwell on the yesterday or tomorrow that don’t exist. You do not live in the future — you live right now.

What do you want to do?

You could say that it is an abuse of your awesome imaginative power to do anything but engage with your immediate reality because you already know what you want to do if you simply stop procrastinating, rationalizing and arguing with the “devil.”

Tomorrow means you are distrusting yourself to “get there.” You already know what you want and how to execute it. So why the doubt? Your doubts create additional explorations of time which you have to burn out. They create anchors — debts — that have to be paid. Karma is simply the effects of your own will you have forgotten about. Your will that have you have disowned that comes to remind you that it is yours with a slap in the face.

Dwelling on the past is like worrying about last night’s dreams. It is already gone and cannot touch you … unless you agree to let it. Unless you reinvest in it, like — what? A habit? A behavior? A responsibility? An obligation? The strength of yesterday is another story that you value because it creates higher highs and lower lows.

You should learn to keep what you treasure and throw out what you do not — but most humans are conditioned to throw their trash in the same place as their treasure — their “One World.” They do not think to return their trash to the cosmos — to the universe — to God. To just “let it go” as if it no longer existed. No, the trash “lives on” in the one world — rather than in the mind of God (the universal library.) It becomes “historical.” It lingers there, lurking, needing explanations, needing attention, needing resolution — perhaps even demanding.

But there is a difference between history and remembering. God does not forget. Only a human writes history because he wishes it to be part of his story — to influence him — to bind him. And history is fallible and God’s memory is not.

And this trash — perhaps once treasure, perhaps valued by others, it is not meant to be an evaluation from any perspective but your own — haunts you because you have not truly let it go. It is there — buried under the surface, because you still think you “live” in the world, right?

You “live” in New York, or Tokyo, or California, or England … right?

No, you do not — because you read this blog. You understand you are “behind” your senses, or even behind the observation itself. You “are.” A player does not “live” inside the computer monitor when he plays a game. This isn’t about “ego.” This is you understanding that what happens on your “monitor” is yours. The players playing the game may move pieces on your screen but even if they piss you off, you cannot punch them through the monitor — you only hurt yourself.

You have not earned the right to call yourself a player. You can’t turn the game off. This is the work that we do — that I do. We are working backwards from the mind of the player. If you keep trying to jump out of the screen, or punch the screen, you will never escape. You are just Mario going from tube to tube. Just … lean back and see you were playing all along. Put the controller down.

Death is not this end. Death is a change of state — but death is not enough. You must choose your own change of state. You must choose your own “death!” But you have probably given away this power too — letting the world decide how you should die.

Again, how do you make decisions?

If you work backwards and are living in the ideal world — how do you make your decisions? This reveals the character you must embody for yourself. You must “fake it until you make it.” You must learn the behavior & the mindset even if it seems unreachable or crazy.

You must live in your ideals as a full-time job. You cannot compromise, because this sets you back. Because your soul — your spirit — will remember and will carry your decisions forward. And what is the span of a single life in comparison to that of eternity?

Do you visit doctors? To prescribe your health? Then you have disowned your will and given it to these doctors to play out the experience of being “treated.” And that is fine — it does not make doctors evil, or wrong, or unhelpful, only that you value this exchange — this drama — more than you value retaining ownership over your health.

You place value on the experiences of being “sick”, being “treated” and “recovering” more than the suffering it would take to overcome these stories for good. You have decided you are not strong enough to prove that your health is in your own hands — you simply do not believe your will is this powerful and well — so it is (not that powerful)! So you need tests and pills and time. Your flesh must knit and your bones must mend.

Where does Mario go when he “dies?” Nowhere, because Mario can’t die anymore than you can.

If you do not value this drama, then why engage with it? A fear of suffering, perhaps? Understandable — most of us cannot maintain a perfect record of choices and I am not an exception. But it is persistence that makes us idealists, not perfection or “mistakes.”

What you value can — and should — be dynamic. You should not put yourself in a straight-jacket.

You say, well, everyone gets sick, or everyone dies, but you are still thinking in terms of a single life. What if you thought in terms of many lives? Or one continual life that never ended? Have you actually ever experienced being “dead?” How do you know you will die, then?

Would you still compromise if you had to make decisions for more than one life? What does your mind look like now? How much more gravity do decisions have when you know every decision may delay peace, or extend suffering? There is a saying: “If not now, when?”

Why do I push creation over consumption so hard on this blog? Because you “are what you eat” and if you do nothing but eat, then you are consumption. And if you understand the discussion above — that you are the whole world — then the whole world is EATING YOU because you are EATING YOURSELF.

What is the only thing an immortal has to eat? His own continuum. You can’t stop being immortal, but you can forget it. You can victimize yourself and play pretend. You can become lost. You can mistake yourself for the sequence instead of the continuum ; the symptom, rather than the cause.

Just how dependent is your life on “the world?” How dependent is your mental sanity? Those “dependencies” are where you have hidden away your will. Why do you negotiate? All you have to do is confront them.

If the expression of your “physical” body is entirely dependent on the stories you are holding within (because it is), when do you decide that you have had enough “terrorism” holding your health hostage? Are you not wasting your time in comfort & complacency by letting something other than your immediate will decide?

What do comfort & complacency cost you? If they cost you anything, they are too expensive.

You don’t need to believe in “reincarnation” to understand the incredible value of living as an idealist. It takes around 5-10 years of jumping off the deep end within a paradigm to show tangible progress. Yeah. That long.

Try not to consider this an expression of time, but expression of how tangled stories require unavoidable resolution. Can you boil water without first putting water in a pot and starting a fire? These are stories with hundreds of little dependencies, rules and expectations — not things that “require time.”

As soon as you measure these things with time, you are creating a boundary. You are creating a reference that didn’t exist before you measured it. The reference itself has a feeling or expectation of duration and you are giving yourself a noose.

Why do we talk about concepts like surrender, faith, acceptance? Because these destroy time.

Apprehension and intellectual understanding is woefully insufficient. It doesn’t get into your bones without obsessive contemplation, practice, and persistence. You have to go “all in” as a true believer before any crops yield.

Anything less keeps you in the same place. Your intellect and ability to understand is useless. Your soul / spirit does not operate on that level. You are not a computer no matter how much you pretend. You cannot “reach” the soul with just brains. And so approaching spirituality as an academic will get you exactly no where.

Or you can just keep being OK with what is comfortable to you. It has worked out for (likely) thousands of years. But I didn’t create this website so I could go along with the “status quo.”

Making decisions as an “immortal” or for your own eternity often means making decisions that are uncomfortable rather than convenient. It means letting go of aspects of yourself that make it easier to remain stuck in repetitive cycles. It means breaking boundaries that you may be holding onto for dear life.

Does that seem like common sense or cheap wisdom? Pop psychology? No, it is a question of scope. Are you making decisions with the expectations of living for another day? Another month? Another year? What does your mind look like when you are making decisions as if you will never die? As if time is irrelevant? As if this is just one never ending story? Can you handle living like that?

Even if you know a story will take 1000 years to unfold, do you start to work on it — or do you say screw it, because your impact is too little, or you aren’t certain you will see the results? Do you just become a “dweller” who convinces themselves they are content in their cave? Perhaps you are a little more awake and decide to “coast” instead — developing a kind of stockholm’s syndrome for letting the world bully you around.

If something seems dangerous or even life-threatening, do you do it and decide to retain authority over your death, or do you choose fear — and allow something else to decide?

Are you confusing a certain threshold of suffering or pain with “death?” Can you remember having ever experienced death? So how can you speak so definitively about its inevitability? Have you considered it is your belief in its certainty that erases your mind — breaks your continuum — when you feel “life is too much to bear” and your back breaks? That you have disowned this “drama” of death for you to experience something impossible?

Here is a riddle for you.

Though you can never have it, you can give it
When others have it, they can’t keep it
If you ever receive it, you won’t know it

What am I?

DEATH