This is #2 of my dream report series. In this series, I am attempting to distill salient messages from my dream that may be applicable to others, or only myself. That is for everyone’s own discernment. If you find something useful here for you, then all the better.
This is a highly volatile series that I am playing with, so expect random edits, or posts disappearing.
People who know me personally should not assume any of this is some subtly veiled message for them. But that doesn’t mean there isn’t something for you, either. Dreams are deceptive and it is rarely black & white when it comes to identifying the actors involved.
Just a reminder of my disclaimer and my rationale for running this blog.
These blogs are written for the public in mind.
A method for doing these is becoming a little clearer. I think I will favor short yet informative statements about what was seen and what message was derived.
Each statement might be considered a distillation, response or observation from a particular dream or sequence.
‘You” in the statements below does not have to be a person or being. “You” can be an unconscious pattern or a “daemon.”
This post concerns the night of 2-8-25.
Silence & ghosting as well as letting relationships decay over time is a form of cord cutting. As is breadcrumbing, or short-changing your relationships while knowingly receiving more than you are giving and creating an intentional imbalance.
Trying to figure out who’s wounds are bigger is just a form of victimization, manipulation & energy vampirism. It creates vampirism when you try to use others to alchemize your negativity for you by siphoning their compassion or sympathy. Your wounds or traumas aren’t more important than the other person’s.
You can’t know what another person has been through because you do not possess their particular life expression or ego and so have no concept of what causes them pain. Suffering is not isolated to the physical. Existential suffering is as painful as physical suffering as it creates invisible bars that are just as solid and effective as real ones which cause problems that can last literal generations and multiple lifetimes.
Attempting to unveil someone else’s suffering so you can compare it against your own to use as leverage or manipulation will force God/universe to show you what the other person has been through in terms you will understand via your own limitations of ego to satisfy your wishes/agenda. Do so at your own peril.
Am I am writing things I don’t know about? And what if I know something about it? Is that disturbing? Toxic repression and past life trauma that I was here to heal fundamentally sabotaged my relationships. You are disturbed because I am fighting back, finally healing and not meeting your expectations.
Standing up for myself does not make me a rebel. I am not under your authority. It just makes me a human who wants to live a normal life without condemnation.
I was not sneaking around and hiding things. I wish I had been because it would have demonstrated a higher level of confidence and freedom that would allowed me to experience more life and less fear or mental captivity.
Imposing values on others will just have their values imposed on you to irritate you and make you angry until you stay in your own lane.
Over worrying about someone is a way to reverse hijack someone’s compassion for you and the other person will feel like they are being smothered as a form of emotional manipulation. It is a form of martyrdom so that you can give without giving.
Throwing substances, vices like food, television and drugs will not make existential problem disappear.
Being hot & cold on someone is a form of manipulation to both yourself and them. You are hot & cold because your life is bereft of love and meaning. It is bereft because being hot & cold is like treating yourself like a tool in the shop that warms up & cools down but is just a mechanical and destructive means of reaching a goal.
Using jealousy as a weapon will make everything in your life disposable if the target of your game refuses to play. This is because that is how you are treating your own connections and actions — as something you want to discard/exchange for something else — and so you inevitably just become more jealous of your target and everything you have becomes even less valuable.
Thank you very much for the much needed warmth and companionship. I hope it was returned.
That will do for now.
