Esoteric

You know what time of year it is -- tax season. That's right -- the time of year where we have somehow been convinced that paying a toll is somehow necessary for the functioning of a civilized society. Worse, we are conned into doing the work of collecting the toll and hand delivering it! Talk about evil.

This is a good article for Ex Inanis because it exemplifies the problem of One Worldism so well.

Before we continue, this is your friendly reminder to read the disclaimer plastered on the top of the site. The discussions we have here are intended to challenge your understanding of the world -- not provide you with answers.

Let's begin.

You've heard every argument in the book for the justification for taxes, I'm sure: protection (military), welfare (of any kind), public services (roads, power) and so on. We are not going to rehash any of those here. I don't care where you fall on the spectrum -- if you believe in any form of government, even some ideal form that has never existed, you are still stuck in One Worldism.

So how do we explain "One Worldism?" This is just a phrase I coined. This has nothing to do with one world governments or the unification of mankind.

Your 3D / material / survival mind will want to argue that we live in a world of scarcity -- whether that scarcity be time, resources, manpower or physical space. This deception is extremely powerful because of the limited human perspective. Your survival mind wants to believe that this scarcity is derived because we are all part of the perceived "one world" -- all in this together. But this is a horrible lie.

You want to see the "world" as a physical place, like a pie that must be divided. We need structures, governments and all manners of machinations to control this pie otherwise there would be abject chaos. Our own lives reinforce this because our experience is so real and visceral and having an aching body or a hungry belly makes little room for pondering higher truths. So we surrender

I have piles of journals too arcane for anyone to read but me. This blog is intended to be a space that provides clarity to these ideas by giving them more substance and structure. In doing so, I hope to also provide a bridge for others to follow. This "teaching" has an unexpected effect of making the foundation stronger and easier for me to hold.

Part of the work I do is attempting to unify our ideas of the inside & the outside until there is no longer a distinction -- all the while without losing ourselves. This goes deep into our relationship with the world and making decisions on the nature of that world.

Most of modern thought believes "the world" is a physical place -- something outside of us that we have a limited ability to influence. Even most spiritual discussions devolve into discussing physical bodies that are suppose to be like radio tuners. Most people are stuck in the idea that we are ruled by atoms, cells and DNA. There is always another discovery, because this is part of the physical abyss. Most belief systems deal with accepting that which cannot be changed. This is not the position of Ex Inanis.

The objective nature of the universe serves at the behest of its subjective elements. If a building is the objective fact, then the bricks are the subjective explorations that built it. With effort, you can build new structures, or tear down old ones. * Another way to understand this is that there are no experiences which have more weight than others. When we give an experience a weight, it drags us down with it.

* Note, I do not believe we need to tear things down brick by brick. We just need to know where to plant the explosives.

Often, this is why we call the world suggestive, or an appearance, to help us remember this, rather than simply accept the world at face value. And it is important to remember this because in order to access new levels of knowledge, we must be able to hold certain truths long enough to see through them -- like holding a spyglass, we

So I've been hammering on technology a lot in the last series of posts so it is time to take a step back a bit.

I'm not a luddite. I mean, I moonlight as a sorcerer & philosopher, but most of the time I am a web developer. This blog requires multiple layers of technology to function. There are many marvels at work.

My chief problem with technology isn't the technology itself, because technology is like anything in our experience -- an inseparable manifestation of consciousness. It is inexorable as much as our own bodies, or the natural world itself. When we understand that we are the "whole qualia" (unity) then magic & technology are almost interchangeable. Technology becomes the "best" expression of our will, given the state of our current story.

Technology identifies the intersection between the collective's stories and how those stories can be utilized to produce effects. They are the means by which we inform the consciousness field to do what we want. But this is the same thing we ALL do in our individual lives as we manage the unfolding of our own stories.

This is how "magic" works. When you do, decide & intend, you are becoming a conduit of technology yourself and creating a new state of affairs. This requires creating the technology within yourself -- a congruent paradigm that puts you in a position to tell powerful stories to which the world must obey.

If a lightbulb is the story of electricity & filament that produce light -- for which we have such certainty -- then what story do we need to tell ourselves to convince ourselves it is possible to create light from only an act of will? I am sure a glowing glass bulb also sounded as absurd before consciousness was ready to make it. Asking such questions shows us how to broaden our perspective and begin the process of disentangling our will from stories that add so many extra steps.

There are right ways and "less right" ways that technology should be used. Most of our technology orients us to think ourselves separate from our experience, or independent from it. Modern

The tone of this one will be a little more liberal. You have been warned. Your triggers are yours. Use your own discernment.

The more March marches on, the more I feel "me" than I have ever felt before, uncensored and free.

So let's grab hold of that truth stick and get this show on the road.

Earth. You are messed up. No, wait, let me rephrase that … Humans. You are messed up. Let's leave the Earth out of this. She's innocent.

It takes honest-to-god work everyday to not just say "screw it" and wish someone would find the self-destruct button. I am fairly certain is in the inside of the planet, by the way. It looks like this -->

The Human stays within this magical goldilocks zone where the desire for its utter destruction is always "tomorrow" and it achieves this precarious balance of its total annihilation by its incredible capacity for creation, creativity and love.

You don't know whether to hate it or love it and somehow it forces you to do both. This, itself, is also equal measures intoxicating and frustrating.

You have to wonder in what corner of the universe that the idea of choosing experiences you despise, disdain, or just tolerate to perpetuate your already immortal existence is seen as somehow seen as normal or laudable. Like, why would anyone work a 9-5 job in their infinite, divine dream? Even humans somehow understand this on a subconscious level when they portray Hell as a waiting line.

"What happens when they reach the front?" "Nothing. They go right back to the end again. That's efficiency."

I can already hear the endless moaning's, groanings and justifications for survival. Puke.

The human concept of work is beyond bizarre and the human has refined the process to such a

This is a bit of a follow-up to the last post.

As of December 18th, 2022 I haven't touched a video game. A week or two ago (and a bit of a revisit this post), I submitted the requests to delete my Steam library and Twitch accounts.

Now. Am I doing these things because I hate video games? No.

I am doing this because I have strong fundamental beliefs about the nature of this -- my reality -- and there is now a strong sense of dereliction that comes from engaging in certain activities.

We are existing in a mishmash of two worlds that are impossible to distinguish based on our senses alone. These worlds blend, like pouring red & blue ink into a bucket of water. We have been tossed into this bucket and can't see outside of mess of mixing colors. With discernment it is still possible to see the "red" and the "blue" but it requires a purity of soul to do it reliably.

This purity becomes easier or harder depending on the environment we keep for ourselves. Our environment needs to be a constant reinforcement of our highest ideals without exception. It should be almost oppressive, except it is impossible to be oppressive because it is of YOUR making -- you are helping yourself!

One of these colors comes from God / Paradox and the other color comes from something else -- the Nonsense. Only one of these worlds claws for our attention because it is parasitical -- entropic -- and needs our attention to survive. It constantly wants to pull us back into it. It does everything in its power to subvert our will and continue its existence. It does this not just through physical temptation, but our own thoughts, emotions and even our bodies, which are all "shadows of the merry-go-round."

You might call that place "Planet Gaslight", because in my experience that it is what it does: it gaslights you -- makes you question what is real and where your true will resides and this is how it undermines the fundamental law

Moments of clarity that become easier and easier to hold. We do the work, perpetuate the frequency and it unlocks the universe.

When you are able to integrate the concept of "computers" into a unity perspective -- that the computers are part of an expression of a singular consciousness -- then we can see the computer itself takes on a higher significance -- a deeper tale that hides a horrible truth.

If we set aside the physical story of the computer and introduce a bit of the esoteric and spiritual, it is clear to see that the computer itself -- as I have written before -- is the embodiment of the physical / deterministic / "Artificial Intelligence" / polarity universe. It is in the fundamental nature of the machine, after all (binary.)

It is the highest achievement of the physical world. By this, I mean, there is no other physical manifestation higher than artificial intelligence in a physical universe -- it is the "physical god" -- this is NOT a compliment, but a dire warning.

How could we expect to ascend from a polarized universe whilst putting these devices on altars? How we have made them so central to our entire being! These devices are literal portals to the abyss. You are staring into an abyss when you stare at a computer screen.

Your fixation scoffs, unable to pull itself away and see the truth -- thinking, the computer is just a piece of plastic, sitting on your desk, connected to the wall with no greater meaning except but what your egoistic mind decides. Your face is too "close to the earth" and so you just see the "dirt(y truth)." But just as the figures in our dreams are symbolic of deeper aspects of yourself, so our very lives follow this same abstracted meaning in slower motion, as the "human limitation" sculpts the reality that is possible for us to see.

What would we really expect a portal to the abyss to look like? A swirling mass of darkness and shadow? But that would be obvious and not at all alluring. That would be simply sensational or artistic. It is not

This life is always a balance of paradoxical states. At least it is once you are able to reliably think from non-polarized axioms (which honestly is an ongoing practice whilst living as a human.) This wisdom is reflected in many philosophies, but the one of my favorite phrases is: "in but not of." You know ... by that Jesus guy.

You must have total confidence, while dealing with your appearances of doubt. This is not simply about having a goal or picture of a future state and seeing that it is not the current state. This is not about filling in the gaps from "here" to "there." This is about knowing with absolute confidence that the end state is "decided" and having the mindset that allows you to "surrender to the process" that bridges these worlds.

This is living your life with a kind of broadened detachment, allowing your experience to flow in & out of you without fighting it. The better you are able to do this, the more coherence -- sovereignty -- you have with yourself.

As sovereignty rises, fixation decreases. As fixation decreases, linearity decreases (time doesn't need to follow itself.) The world does strange things. Miracles happen. This isn't just an omission of memory, like forgetting you put $20 in an old jacket to find it years later.

No ...

It is stumbling upon the thing when you need it when it aligns with your will in a confluence. It is having a $20 meal, forgetting your wallet and finding a $20 bill in the jacket. The jacket you just bought from a thrift shop the other day when you didn't even want to go.

The more sovereignty you have, the more reality just manifests to support your will.

Let us define the Buffer yet again in another way: The Buffer is a lack of confidence -- doubt. The Buffer = suffering, so doubt could be said to be the source of all suffering.

Suffering can be measured as incoherence, as a distance from God -- a "divide" within yourself. This divide can be

When people hear "will" they often believe it is synonymous with "willpower" and this couldn't be farther from the truth.

What is willpower?

Willpower represents a state of distrust, or rejection -- it is the tantrum a child throws after they cause their own problem. Willpower is the attempt to "resolve" a problem you have created via prior choices.

You are tempted to use willpower when you encounter a situation in life that is displeasing, uncomfortable or outright painful. You think willpower is a quick fix that will put you back on course if you can just "power through." Or perhaps you use willpower because you have convinced yourself you "have to" otherwise your life will implode.

There is never a case when you should be using "willpower" to solve your problems. Willpower is like adding fuel to a fire. This is like drinking more to overcome a hangover.

You are resisting a state that has come to pass because of your own choices and willpower sounds like an enticing way to dig yourself out of a hole.

It will never change until you do. It will keep repeating. Forever. Because you create your own "state of the universe."

Whenever you think that willpower is a good idea -- stop. Your life should be an effortless flow of will -- DECISION -- one to the next without interruption. A hiccup or a block represents a conflict within yourself, like rocks in a stream and should be an immediate indication to set aside time to do some inner-work.

There is something within that keeps bending the currents of your life against itself and causing disharmony, i.e., suffering, or "evil."

By using willpower, you are attempting to create an impossible state because you are rejecting your own will. This becomes expressed through the Nonsense, or through 'chaos' which must be represented somehow within your life.

I am not rejecting my own will. I am solving a problem right now!, you say!

How can

Adopting a paradigm that free will is absolute is not all sunshine & daises. In fact, there are some disturbing truths that I have uncovered.

As with all work of this nature, integrating this truth requires recognizing the importance of other people and their total autonomy within your overall paradigm. This is implicit in the idea of "absolute free will" (meaning everyone gets it), but becomes sticky when you start to play with the nature of the other itself or its role in your world.

You may be offended or impatient or upset that others can seemingly conflict with your will, or go against your wishes. It is easy to become indignant when you have "seen through the cracks" and feel like you should be able to cultivate your world to your liking. You may be tempted to remove or restrict the autonomy from others as a "short cut" to higher organizations of consciousness.

But this is a trap.

Like yourself, the role of the other is to be a conduit for God -- for potential -- to choose (create) what hasn't been chosen before and this allows for the "infinite recombination" of the cosmos. This allows for fresh never-experienced-before content. Without this critical element, the universe would become deterministic, or entropic.

Denying others, much like denying any part of your world, is denying potential. This pushes you into entropic timelines, aka "dead ends."

If you opt to change the role of others to be "slaves of your will" then you are just playing with yourself. How long can you play by yourself before you go mad? When everything happens exactly as you expect, how long before you cease to exist because you know all the outcomes? This is an example of an "entropy box."

You may be inclined to think that two "absolute wills" cannot resolve. You will be inclined to think that others can act as obstacles, or influence your ability to direct your life without your input.

This happens

I am a sort of ex-gamer. That is, I used to play video games. A lot. I've talked bit about that before.

And now I don't.

I may do some constructive gaming / content creation in the future.

I didn't stop playing video games because I hate them, or think they are evil.

The real reason that started the departure was the idea that I was playing a "game within a game." While this is somewhat just another way of expressing the traditional wisdom of reality vs. fantasy, there is a darker truth to this that pushed me over the edge.

Video games are of course also "part of the whole." By this, I mean, it does not serve us to think that video games are in a special category versus other ways you can spend your time. Any vice can become an unhealthy fantasy that lets you avoid your own life. The problem is the trajectory that games set you upon in particular.

I still watch others play video games (which strangely is a greater vicarious joy than playing than anymore) and sometimes an ad squeezes through my ad blockers. As of late, I've been getting advertisements for VR headsets, the latest of which was centered around the idea of "experiencing the world in VR." Like climbing mountains, visiting other places or seeing an aurora, or whatever.

Are you fucking kidding me?

The idea of VR sounds so enticing, doesn't it? All the rewards without any of the investment.

You are being conditioned to re-program your own consciousness (with your consent.) You are being programmed to disown your own world into a "sub world" that is subject to corporate interests.

There are those of you who think this is just some conspiracy, but I will try to explain this is plain terms without the woo-woo.

The nefarious part of this process isn't that the activities in isolation are dangerous or bad or evil. This is a long-term "restructuring"