Author name: macil

I’ve been coming back into old realizations. I remember these revelations from years ago that got shuffled into some dark corner or swept under the rug somehow. (edit: I don’t think I was prepared to hold onto them until now.) Once again, we ask: What is Ex Inanis? I had thought Ex Inanis was a […]

When you begin to codify and “make sacred” appearances, as modern science pretends to do, you are assimilating Nonsense – you are describing the machine of the appearance, or the temporary nature of the world. It will always be as such, because as soon as it is perceived, it is no longer. You have changed

A post inspired by Mr T. over at Substack –> https://talknet.substack.com/p/growing-sense-of-disconnection-in Doubt is existentialism and this leads to unnecessary explorations (gaps/delays) and failure (or “unnecessary feedback.”) This disconnection is a “remembering how to be.” Some humans are figuring out their “reasons for being.” But that doesn’t resonate with me and it isn’t from a lack

I want to talk about time. Not quite the metaphysical concept of time, but more the Earth-Human sense of time. We are meant to believe that the world goes through a 24-hour period. This is meant to be “helpful” by breaking down the day into units of measurement to which we can create schedules, coordinate

I haven’t posted too much as of late because I haven’t felt the need. That is a good thing, but I also am being nudged to keep Ex Inanis alive and kicking this time. I know it helps. I’ve been coming back into a sense of being with myself rather than in a semi-panic where

Okay, time for a bit of crazy. I am becoming increasingly convinced that all thought arises from the Context. That is, there is not a single thought that arises from your inner being at all. The thoughts that seem benevolent or subservient — which we are more prone to claiming as “ours” – are no

This post came about after reading this article –> https://eraoflight.com/2022/08/31/hakann-karma/ Everyone is describing the same elephant, so here is my opinion. Karma is just another word for all your prior decisions (including past “lives.”) There is what is consciously making decisions and what has become automated or unconscious making decisions. You can call this “karma”,

When I opened Winamp to play some music while I was writing, the Phantom of the Opera “The Point of No Return” came up. Very interesting. Never in my life have I ignored my emotions or thoughts. My rule since a very young age was to never leave a thought or emotion left un-examined. Throughout

I’ve been at this gate in my life before but this is the farthest I’ve ever stepped through. I’ve never published my words before (without ripping everything down), or shared some of my creative work. I’ve never been so totally and wholly committed to achieving the life that I want to live where I feel