Author name: macil

Earth/Human Time

I want to talk about time. Not quite the metaphysical concept of time, but more the Earth-Human sense of time. We are meant to believe that the world goes through a 24-hour period. This is meant to be “helpful” by breaking down the day into units of measurement to which we can create schedules, coordinate …

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Details & Being

I haven’t posted too much as of late because I haven’t felt the need. That is a good thing, but I also am being nudged to keep Ex Inanis alive and kicking this time. I know it helps. I’ve been coming back into a sense of being with myself rather than in a semi-panic where …

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No Thoughts, No Reason

Okay, time for a bit of crazy. I am becoming increasingly convinced that all thought arises from the Context. That is, there is not a single thought that arises from your inner being at all. The thoughts that seem benevolent or subservient — which we are more prone to claiming as “ours” – are no …

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Disclaimer (old)

When I write here, I usually assume I am just talking to myself. Yet I understand I have opened this process to the wider world for various reasons. Ex Inanis – this blog – is not meant to be a place for me to make commitments, anchors or promises. This blog is not meant to …

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Karma & Free Will / One Worldism

This post came about after reading this article –> https://eraoflight.com/2022/08/31/hakann-karma/ Everyone is describing the same elephant, so here is my opinion. Karma is just another word for all your prior decisions (including past “lives.”) There is what is consciously making decisions and what has become automated or unconscious making decisions. You can call this “karma”, …

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State of the Inanis

When I opened Winamp to play some music while I was writing, the Phantom of the Opera “The Point of No Return” came up. Very interesting. Never in my life have I ignored my emotions or thoughts. My rule since a very young age was to never leave a thought or emotion left un-examined. Throughout …

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Balance

I’ve been at this gate in my life before but this is the farthest I’ve ever stepped through. I’ve never published my words before (without ripping everything down), or shared some of my creative work. I’ve never been so totally and wholly committed to achieving the life that I want to live where I feel …

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Addiction

Addiction and complacency may as well be one and the same. Addition doesn’t have to be an addiction to destroy your life. Or perhaps the definition of addiction is too nebulous for most of us to understand. You’re not addicted, you say? You can simply become complacent with a status quo, or rationalize your mediocrity. …

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The Black Box

The last few months have felt like I’ve been thrown into the world I only figured out in my head. Like some greater power said, alright, you got it a long time ago – I’m done waiting, get your ass over there. The last ten years … feel like an extended intellectual vomit – a …

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More on Thought

To continue somewhat with the last post, mastery is really about turning the tight rope into a platform, where thoughts begin to calm and quiet. This post will posit more questions than answers, because I am doing some major re-visioning in myself. What I want to revisit, though, is the origin of thoughts. There seems …

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