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When people hear "will" they often believe it is synonymous with "willpower" and this couldn't be farther from the truth.

What is willpower?

Willpower represents a state of distrust, or rejection -- it is the tantrum a child throws after they cause their own problem. Willpower is the attempt to "resolve" a problem you have created via prior choices.

You are tempted to use willpower when you encounter a situation in life that is displeasing, uncomfortable or outright painful. You think willpower is a quick fix that will put you back on course if you can just "power through." Or perhaps you use willpower because you have convinced yourself you "have to" otherwise your life will implode.

There is never a case when you should be using "willpower" to solve your problems. Willpower is like adding fuel to a fire. This is like drinking more to overcome a hangover.

You are resisting a state that has come to pass because of your own choices and willpower sounds like an enticing way to dig yourself out of a hole.

It will never change until you do. It will keep repeating. Forever. Because you create your own "state of the universe."

Whenever you think that willpower is a good idea -- stop. Your life should be an effortless flow of will -- DECISION -- one to the next without interruption. A hiccup or a block represents a conflict within yourself, like rocks in a stream and should be an immediate indication to set aside time to do some inner-work.

There is something within that keeps bending the currents of your life against itself and causing disharmony, i.e., suffering, or "evil."

By using willpower, you are attempting to create an impossible state because you are rejecting your own will. This becomes expressed through the Nonsense, or through 'chaos' which must be represented somehow within your life.

I am not rejecting my own will. I am solving a problem right now!, you say!

How can

Adopting a paradigm that free will is absolute is not all sunshine & daises. In fact, there are some disturbing truths that I have uncovered.

As with all work of this nature, integrating this truth requires recognizing the importance of other people and their total autonomy within your overall paradigm. This is implicit in the idea of "absolute free will" (meaning everyone gets it), but becomes sticky when you start to play with the nature of the other itself or its role in your world.

You may be offended or impatient or upset that others can seemingly conflict with your will, or go against your wishes. It is easy to become indignant when you have "seen through the cracks" and feel like you should be able to cultivate your world to your liking. You may be tempted to remove or restrict the autonomy from others as a "short cut" to higher organizations of consciousness.

But this is a trap.

Like yourself, the role of the other is to be a conduit for God -- for potential -- to choose (create) what hasn't been chosen before and this allows for the "infinite recombination" of the cosmos. This allows for fresh never-experienced-before content. Without this critical element, the universe would become deterministic, or entropic.

Denying others, much like denying any part of your world, is denying potential. This pushes you into entropic timelines, aka "dead ends."

If you opt to change the role of others to be "slaves of your will" then you are just playing with yourself. How long can you play by yourself before you go mad? When everything happens exactly as you expect, how long before you cease to exist because you know all the outcomes? This is an example of an "entropy box."

You may be inclined to think that two "absolute wills" cannot resolve. You will be inclined to think that others can act as obstacles, or influence your ability to direct your life without your input.

This happens

I am a sort of ex-gamer. That is, I used to play video games. A lot. I've talked bit about that before.

And now I don't.

I may do some constructive gaming / content creation in the future.

I didn't stop playing video games because I hate them, or think they are evil.

The real reason that started the departure was the idea that I was playing a "game within a game." While this is somewhat just another way of expressing the traditional wisdom of reality vs. fantasy, there is a darker truth to this that pushed me over the edge.

Video games are of course also "part of the whole." By this, I mean, it does not serve us to think that video games are in a special category versus other ways you can spend your time. Any vice can become an unhealthy fantasy that lets you avoid your own life. The problem is the trajectory that games set you upon in particular.

I still watch others play video games (which strangely is a greater vicarious joy than playing than anymore) and sometimes an ad squeezes through my ad blockers. As of late, I've been getting advertisements for VR headsets, the latest of which was centered around the idea of "experiencing the world in VR." Like climbing mountains, visiting other places or seeing an aurora, or whatever.

Are you fucking kidding me?

The idea of VR sounds so enticing, doesn't it? All the rewards without any of the investment.

You are being conditioned to re-program your own consciousness (with your consent.) You are being programmed to disown your own world into a "sub world" that is subject to corporate interests.

There are those of you who think this is just some conspiracy, but I will try to explain this is plain terms without the woo-woo.

The nefarious part of this process isn't that the activities in isolation are dangerous or bad or evil. This is a long-term "restructuring"

I realized this post is basically a poor draft of what is now the front page. I recommend you start there instead.

I have migrated -- again -- from Tumblr to Wordpress. While I am not fond of Wordpress (as a developer, it is growing on me), I needed greater control without being bogged down in full ground-up programming and customization. That is not what I am here to do on Earth.

I have re-organized the website into the "First Era" and this post marks the beginning of the Second Era.

The First Era is be the initial birth of Ex Inanis, i..e, the "Year of Pain."

The First Era was a tale regaling the final moments of a prior life as it struggled against its inevitable end. It was about obtaining confidence I needed to fully step into my truth. This was not a simple task for me because it meant accepting circumstances that I would rather have not, but my spirit would no longer allow me to be indifferent.

The required confidence required me to let go of a lot of anger and resentment, as well as setting aside dysfunctional systems of compassion and sovereignty.

The Second Era will represent a more intentional strategy going forward. I want make this a professional source of information for myself & others and help us all achieve our god-sovereignty.

What is my truth?

Free will is absolute. All decisions are honored and all outcomes happen. There is never anyone or anything to blame but ourselves -- absolutely, without exception. The entire universe resolves from this seemingly simple truth.

This truth also implies freedom, for the recognition of this truth is the recognition that we deeply yearn to be free by removing all barriers to the idea of "absolute free will.' This truth reveals all of the stories that are not in service to our own will -- an unsettling perspective most are not willing to explore.

Ex Inanis is the ongoing exploration